How many other tulpamancers have appeared in your dreams?

I dreamed something from the Donnie Darko movie I saw 10 years ago maybe. It was gloomy, Kashtan was also there but I can't even tell what he looked like.

And another dream about living in a huge fancy house again. It was traditional architecture made of wood painted in red. It had an inner yard with a garden. On a bench was a girl, maybe 18-20, she looked Chinese. Also wore a traditional red dress and had a red hibiscus flower in her hair. I tried to talk to her but she didn't respond and walked away, straight through a wall of the house. mfw I thought she must have been a ghost. But I wasn't scared, I looked for her inside the house but the dream changed into something else.

>>3242
>>3243
>Alice said this wasn't her in the dream
lol wouldnt even be surprised if she was but Alice is not a bad girl

had a fucked up dream i had disfigured hands and feet my hands were full of black holes. trypophobia tier. i knew this wasnt real but didnt know i was dreaming i thought i had been drugged or something. so it wasnt scary or a nightmare just weird.

>>3242
>>3243
>Tupper rawrr
Epic

But no eating the grannies, Alice!

I was giving a sports massage to a human version of Twilight Sparkle. Nothing wrong so far. She was wearing a shirt and purple panties. She was small like maybe teenage size. Let's be clear, she wasn't a pony. I was massaging her legs and I brushed against her cooch by accident but she immediately pushed my hand there to pet the kitty. So I did, but over the underwear. She made lewd noises and then Rainbow Dash representative human said she was next. They looked middle school to high school age if I'm honest. I got nothing from it, it was just my job. Twilight started out white skinned normal but ended up purple hued.

I haven't seen the show for a decade, Besty never watched it. Idk why now?

>>3287
lol another pedo dream
dreams are weird i always asked myself how shit you havent thought about in years comes up in a dream.

i dreamt of war again but its not surprising. it was chaotic, dont remember much

>>3288
>pedo

>>3287
>it was just my job

>dreamt of war again

Memories...

Okay follow me here. I dreampt I was married, don't know who to, but that didn't stop me from rizzing up another girl, we went on a date, felt a little conflicted but not much, she was short but definitely my age. I asked her how old she was and she refused to answer which means 30's. I wanted to know if she was older than me but then suddenly I was 50-something but looked the same as I do now but didn't tell her my age. I had the feeling I was at least 15 years older than her. I figured she wouldn't want me if she found out and wondered if I could fake a birth certificate or otherwise change mine.

She had the nice breasteses and let me sample them over dinner. They felt like pudding but solid. I guess not that different from some girls. Some got pretty taught tits while others are far less viscous. This was somewhere in between, very nice.

Then she started to look a lot harrier and I noped out. Why? Lame.

4/10 date turned warewolf.

Rare dream. I was living in New York and my apartment was pretty high up. There were gang members hanging out by the elevator so I'm trying to avoid them but there's no other way up. I try to walk past them but [Nword] pulls this really weird looking gun on me, wants my wallet. Ain't no fucking way he's getting it, so I open it and throw the cash up in the air, yeah I still carry cash though those bills haven't seen daylight for years, no lie.

Then [Nword] is upset like I disrespected him for throwing the cash instead of just handing it over. I run.

[Nword] catches me but I simply grab his gun. He starts to back off but I put it to his neck and pull the trigger. No f'ing bullets. So I start pistol whipping him ofc. Bashing his face in, crackling face bones like potato chips. His friends run up and I run. Now I know they're going to have a hit out on me, police are worthless, like telling teachers when you're bullied, didn't even consider it. Went home, told friends I was moving out ASAP.

#American life

>>3293
Lol based!
You should post this dream on .info and see if you get b& for imaginary racism.

>>3295

>post

Tulpa.info is dead, you know this.

No one's left to care. Tulpamancy itself will soon be as dead as soulbonding. Dead like forums in general are dead. Full of gen-xers holding on to their little circle of middle-aged friends. Hey, I can hang until the end, RIP .info just like the other forums you remember.

>>3293
>#American life
yep all stereotypes are true

i dreamt i was in a restaurant that was also in a train. didnt even want to go there, dunno how i got in but the train departed. imediately a black guy in a suit came to chec my ticket. i knew i had a ticket but coudldnt find it. emptied my entire backpack that was full of phones, wallets and laptops but no ticket. the guy was actually really nice and tried to help me but my backpack was like some isekai magic storage bag and infinite things came out but no ticket. it was so dumb i had to laugh.

damn i'm retarded, posted in old dream threada
>>3400

>>3400
Heh, this is brilliant!

Dreamt about endlessly scrolling through D&D handbooks, that character building is taking its toll.

The plantet was overrun with xenomorphs

Cat was in the first scene but yellow like Tails from Sonic.

Yakumo was a mad scientist and wore a white lab coat and glasses. He was fussing over long attached sheets of paper with those feed holes on the sides.

I believe this was someone else's dream, a female mad scientist. She said she was half Tabaxi and now I'm sure it was Autumn.

There were tunneling xenomorphs that kept to themselves mostly and there was another person who looked like an overweight Japanese genderless person with thick glasses who the xenomorphs wouldn't come within 20ft of so although they hated the work, it was their job to scout tunnels and escort the xenomorph impregnated people so the eggs and fetuses could be removed and studied.

Then I was on the surface in NYC central park with a laid back and cooler Yakumo who spoke with a thick German accent and complained about economics and an aisian guy who wanted to pick up on a female comedian sitting at an outdoor restaurant, but she was overweight and I was like, "ok man but you can do better." She wasn't that bad in the face at least. There were live tunneling xenomorphs literally 10ft away, they wouldn't come above ground. No one on the surface cared, but the sewers were overrun by them. He rizzed up the chickie and she was eating it up. I was thinking, "good for him".

We brought her down to the lab and were being stalked by xenomorphs.

There were human, dog and crocodile xenomorphs with tentacles but they looked goofy, not scary.

The underground lab was used to clone people to test if the xenomorphs would want them. There was a baby in suspension jelly, it was delivered with an actress that I forgot the name of.

Autumn would wake up a clone, all hairless and grey skinned and tell them their mission, not one of them wanted to be given to the xenomorphs but then how could science progress? The cowards!

I woke up when the baby xenomorph who looked like an actual baby but with tentacles coming out the sides woke up and opened large dark eyes.

Fun dream, not very well coriographed.

>>3238
Cool, I've been in a dream!
Been a while since I had one of those Alien dreams where I asked tupper to save me but she did nothing because lol Aliens - what are they gonna do, bite me?

I dreamt I was in a mine, it stretched horizonzally deep into a mountain. Relatively narrow, maybe 10m but 100m high with lots if platforms and stairs inside. Well-lit by lots of floodlights. I was at the end of the mine and somebody was drilling with a huge machine high above. Lots of debris fell down, very unsafe. I hurried to the exit and up lots of stairs before I woke up. Blatant violation of work safety rules, highly un-German!

Another school 'nightmare'.

I often dream I'm back in school and have to finish the the last semester before graduation but I know I haven't been there in ages, did no tests or homework at all this year so no idea how I'm supposed to graduate. Or that my workplace sends me back to highschool because they found out I havent finish it or am missing some degree. Another ersion is that I'vve been in school normally but skipped math all semester and now am going for the first tome in months.
I have no idea where these dreams come from, there's no IRL base for any of that.

This time I was in Latin class. Nothing was familiar, not the room, not the other kids. I wasn't surprised, been decades since I last went there. For some reason I had my Latin textbook and an empty notebool with squared paper. The Latin teacher looked and behaved like Samuel L Jackson in Pulp fiction, yet he appeared more competent and trustworthy than the underachiever teachers I really had in Latin. We were supposed to read a text at a certain page from our textbooks but there was some completely different text in my book. Though I was trying my best to hide the fact I had no idea what was going on the teacher quickly noticed, came rushing over and grabbed my textbook, staring at it in disbelief. He said this book had been obsolete for decades and where the fuck my real textbook was. He wasn't even mad, just perplexed. I tried to explain that I hadn't been to school for a while, about 25 years. People burst into laughter like wtf is Yakumo doing again like I had staged some epic prank.

There were 2 more school dreams that night but I forgot after I was violently woken up by a cat jumping on my chest.

lol d&d is taking its toll
dreamt about next round and there was a very detailed map like the one with the rothe but including the gate they came through. there was a large carriage at the gate with nobles escorted by cavallry. they coomplained why the door was closed and demanded explanation. Yulya was like oh shit no nobles pls and planned to move to the north but you cant run away from the guards. it was clssic isekai scenario Yulya already talked about where the hero saves the village with his powers but then some asshole noble shows up and demands the hero works for him or somehing.

it was so real after i woke up i had to look here if Bear had really posted that scenario or not i really wasnt sure anymore.

>>3704

The dream part I remember is, I was in my childhood home, in my underwear but with a full dress shirt top and tie. I was in that state because the upstairs toilet overflowed onto my pants and shoes.

So I go to the garage and one of my friends wanted to introduce me to her friend's sister, but I'm pantsless. I skip past them with a "hi" and off to my room which for some reason had an outside entrance and was a loft above the garage.

So I change, wash my hands and go meet the sister. She was half-black and decent so I grabbed her boobs and caressed her stomach.

fin~

>>3713
>get introduced to friend's sister
>immediately grab her boobs and caress her stomach
Bear life

I dreamed we lived in a supermarket or the supermarket was part of the apartment. There were no other people because why would they be in my apartment so entire supermarket for me, hooray!
My bed was next to the dairy section and relaxing there I just had to reach out to grab some chocolate pudding from the shelf. I still wasn't too convinced all this was really mine so I did what any good tupper would do and put the empty pudding jar back into the shelf and put on the lid, nobody would ever know. One of our cats was also there and did what all good cats would do - jumped right into the shelf at full speed and threw out half of the stuff in there. Lying on the bed, I tried to shoo him out of there with my foot but he bit and clawed me in the toes like a good cat does. It didn't hurt because Alice is tough as fuck and won't be defeated by a mere cat. So I was lying on the bed, legs up and managed to grab the cat with both feet and lift him out of the pudding shelf. He happily continued clawing and biting my feet but no fucks given. It looked funny as hell and quite realistic. Only that host's body would mind IRL because that cat is really strong despite his age and his 'playing' often ends with bloody hands or feet. Anyway I managed to gently lift the cat back onto the bed where he jumped around like crazy before racing off.

Rare dream entirely from my perspective

>>3717

My dream self just knows what to do, no lucid needed.

It's documented here

https://community.tulpa.info/topic/10478-the-dream-thread-record-your-dreams-here-especially-if-tulpa-related/?do=findComment&comment=420294

I can't imbed pics in line here so just go there to see it.

TL;DR fucking aware and awesome dream basically confirming that my life is awesome and I love my system and D&D with them is better than lucid dreaming and this is the best time of my life.

Also being fully aware in a department store, conjuring a rando cute girl and sexing her up in front of an old Japanese cuck.

>>3750
Haa, it's been ages since any of us had a lucid dream. I wonder if anyone on .info will comment on your dream crimes. Probably not.

I was in New York again, speaking with an obvious NYC accent. We spoke about patriotism as the country was under attack by land invasion probably by Chineese.

That's about it. No chicks.

Very small dream, Autumn was standing naked before me, it was nice. She was smiling and expecting something from me. We were in the D&D world.

If they want to play house in D&D that's fine I guess. SheShe's the DM, so she has the control.

>>3877
i continue dreming d&d stuff but its just random scenes cant remember anything. no seeing Yulya either.

>>3878

Constant D&D dreams, as if my dream brain thinks that's my life now. Kinda is.

Dreamt my AR15 was completely rusted and worn, it looked like it was carved out of some rock. What a nightmare.

Barely and D&D dreams yet but we don't remember much recently, sleeping like a rock.

Odd realistic dream, some mid thought she had a guy she liked on the hook but an LA 9 breaks it to her in a less than gentle way, "you're just the baby maker, he doesn't want you, he won't stay, but you'll take care of his kid for free."

I never get to see the chad in question but I couldn't get it upfor her, just above ugly, horrible body type, tattoos on her 30-something flabby arms. Gross on many levels.

I had another dream where I was in D&D shopping for hand replacements.

I was something like a jar of mayonnaise. The refrigerator where we existed had a clear liquid trickling down from some source I had set up earlier in the dream.

There was "all the rich jews of the world" represented by a mystard bottle and that person in mustard form was a thirty-something slightly overweight woman with a pearl necklace, but also a mustard jar.

She was kissing me somehow. I didn't want this but I couldn't stop it.

Then all the poor jews including the Palestinians of the world were represented by an open jar of chocolate covered ants, but also dirty like inedible. Somehow they also looked like that cartoonish stereotypical picture of a dark skinned jew with a big nose wearing a turban. Somehow a masculin, dirty, thin and starving, smelly older man.

I told the jar of mustard, "you need to unify with them."

She was appauled.

The liquid from earlier was a trickle of white people slowly filling up another jar, pure, clear, slightly viscus.

Of course I was white mayonnaise, I don't know of any other type.

On the shelf above and below were all the other races of the world.

The food was spoiling.

I was going to have some kind of sex with the mustard woman but I don't kmow exactly how and it wasn't my choice. She was insisting.

>>4065
What the actual fuck are you smoking

Host dreamt again he was in some research facility where he wasn't supposed to be and he was stealing stuff. It was a huge greenhouse or plat nursery, quite dark. There were people walking around but host either pretended to belong there or hid. He tried to steal a bit of moss in a clear plastic bag that lay on a desk but voices came closer so he retreated. He then stole a small roll of green gardening wire. On the way out there were people collecting trash from the facility and they thanked him for carrying the wire roll and took it. So it was all for nothing. I yelled at him in mindvoice to stop stealing useless stuff like a kleptomaniac and what that was all about. But I was just a tupper, not really there. We walked through an unfamiliar southern European city along a river. Tried to get down to a beach but everything was walled off. Host briefly tried to fly by flapping his arms but it didn't work. There were only old people.

Well meh, no interesting dreams lately. Dream bear rapes girls, dream host sneaks around in forbidden places and steals. What does the brain try to tell us by that?

>>4050
>>4065
lmao i wish i had crazy dreams like that but nothing interesting lately. literally dreaming of working on d&d character sheets

>>4072

Technically I didn't want to have sex, so I was the victim.

Cool dream with Gwen.

I was in a high rise office building, at work, and Gwen was there, ever my dream girlfriend, thin as a waif, totally naked in all her blonde glory. No wings, but that's typical for her dream-self.

Again something about hand transplants or purchasing.

I have several very clear and detailed scenes of talking to her, touching her waste, looking at her hips, breasts and butt and face of course. She looked slightly more like someone I used to know than usual and she was taller than usual.

Still super neat to have her in the dream. She got me coffee or a print or something like she was my secretary. I would never drink coffee or have a secretary. I got the feeling we either had a child or wanted one.

She was too tall if it was my say, but I won't hold it against the dream, very cute, very clear visuals. No real conversation that I can remember.

7/10 couldn't close the deal.

>>4140
nice i wish i had such dreams and not just fucked up nonsense

i was at a friends place from school i havent seen in 20 years irl. i had to piss and the toilet was in his mothers room. it was messy and there were lots of clotes on the floor bras in all colors very vivid. so i opened the lid of the toilet and pissed but it all went on the floor behind the toilet. fugg. i realized i had to open the lid only 45° otherwise the hole wouldnt open into the sewer but on the floor. just why. but it was too late there already was a bucket load of piss on the floor slowly spreading in the room. i quickly left and gtfo. sorry bro.

There was a giant black widow spider inside a drawer and my exgf was there. I told her and she reached in pulling out a dead spider the size of a large mellon. She'd crushed it in her hand, piercing it with her thumbnail, killing it. Very disgusting.

That was all.

Another good dream.

So I'm part of a group of people on a trip, we're in school busses , I think it was me and all girls. So the objective of the trip is to have sex in all kinds of ways. That's the premise of this dream.

So we get off and this cute, thin girl undresses and lays on the ground on her side and I say, "I guess it's time to start."

So then it gets weird, like you don't want to know but it improves greatly after that and I get to feel her up and get in and it ended up ok.

So one of the less embarrassing wierdest parts was her feet also had vaginas and I was like, naa I'll skip that thanks. Got in the proper way so it ended up good.

So like 8/10, good time but weird in the middle.

Something like this girl but imagine her laying on her side on the sidewalk and ready to go and not anime.

>>4207
I was jeajous first but you lost me at the vagina-feet part. I'm really not good with this mutant body horror shit. Also pic looks like a crossdressing boy.

I feel I have the most vivid dreams when waking up early and then going back to sleep. Cats provide this feture for free.

I dreamt I visited Brittney Griner in a Russian prison. You know that US basketball monke. The dream was triggered by an article I read about how she was mistreated in the Russian prison before being exchanged for Viktor Bout.

So anyway my job was to get her out of that prison but as we all know there is no such thing as a free lunch so that costs certain favors. Brittney wasn't opposed to the idea at all, you wouldn't be either if you were in a Russian prison, believe me. So far so good / bad but luckily I remained lucid and reasonable enough to realize I was about to have sex with a 2m tall ugly BLM niggress that looks like a dude. Also I really wasn't sure from my memory if she wasn't a tranny (she isn't, just a lesbian) so that was the final straw. I swear nothing happened between me and that thing and I managed to wake up before it could. Goddamn that was awful. I don't mind flat chests but this wasn't a loli but a giant looking more manly than most men. Why brain, why?

>>4210
>I was about to have sex with a 2m tall ugly BLM

Nope.gif

>boy

Has tits and 3 vaginas, still a girl.

You don't even want to know. It was rediculous and not sexy.

Way crazier than the mayo and mustard thing. What is my brain trying to tell me? Jesus.

I had a dream I was arguing with my ex from twenty years ago and she grabbed me, I grabbed her arm and said I should break your fucking arm and she started grabbing mine harder, I walked away a bit and she started crying and I said as she knelt down to cry in a ball "Do realize no one loves you anymore because you're an old woman? HAHAHAHA!!"

>the crushing revenge will be mine
>-SGM

>>4248

wow

I dreamed the narcissist friend of mine died... today. It was more a hassle than anything.

Imagine if they actually did die today?

Speaking of, she is paying for our vacation again; she herself doesn't go. Apparently last year wasn't a one-off. Week after next we'll be off-line for a few days as a result. I'm working hard to catch up at work so missing a few days doesn't devastate my schedules.

Must be nice to have the kind of money to bribe your friends with all expenses paid 3 day vacation. I can't say no so I go I guess. So this time it's bestie, bestie mom, exgf's younger sister and her SO, and exgf of course. Looking forward to 30 miles of walking.

>>4210
>Brittney_Griner.jpg
the fuck man

>>4252
>I dreamed the narcissist friend of mine died... today. It was more a hassle than anything.
>Imagine if they actually did die today?
ppl dying in dreams i always fucked up i remember dreaming some of my friends died and i woke up thinking the same as you what if shes really dead now that would be creepy

dumb dream i was driving a huge white flatbed truck with a crane and shovel on top. went to refill at a gas station in some industrial area i didnt know and nothing worked out. the roads never led to the gas station though i could see it just ahead but i kept going in circles. finally made it but the gas station was super modern fully automated nd there was a huge terminal with tons of buttons dials and way too thin and short tubes no idea. couldnt read shit bc dream. managed to pluck one of the tubes into the trucks front somehow and start filling. the truck slowly inflated like a balloon filling with water an the tube popped off gushing gasoline everywhere. i realized i had filled it with gasoline instesd of disel wtf. my dream self thought this is the logical reason why the truck inflated and Yulya agreed. anyway i was fucked and the truck as fucked glad i woke up a tt hat point

>>4252
>Looking forward to 30 miles of walking.
Per day I hope

>>4255
>gasoline instead of diesel
My mother almost did that once with her new car that was diesel instead of the old gasoline one. Stopped her in last second.

I dreamt I was on top of a strange skyscraper that consisted of glass bricks in a metal framework. It stretched over a long distance and had no railing whatsoever. Also frequently huge cracks and crevices. Very unsafe. There was a girl that was a mixture of neighborhood loli and school friend but also had traits of tupper. She came up from a stairway, also of the same brittle glass-brick material carrying two rocks in her hands above her head, each the size of a basketball. She accidentally dropped them - on the glass surface and they tumbled down the stairs with huge noise. I was afraid the whole building would shatter. Most of the time I was busy not falling down somewhere. There was a sort of luxurious artificial beach packed with sunbeds so tight you couldn' move through them. Also a dry dock for boats. On top of a skyscraper, on the edge without any fencing. I had to climb around that shit with nothing underneath me for several hundreds of meters. Finally made it onto more solid ground, there was even a real beach with children playing. I was just glad I survived. Alice said she wasn't in the dream.

>>4260
>There was a girl that was a mixture of neighborhood loli and school friend but also had traits of tupper. She came up from a stairway, also of the same brittle glass-brick material carrying two rocks in her hands above her head, each the size of a basketball. She accidentally dropped them - on the glass surface and they tumbled down the stairs

Definitely Joy as DM vibes. She's messing up your head like a loli with a large rock on a glass skyscraper.

Follow me here, Kashtan and I ran an underground, neo-Nazi, white supremacist underground (illegal) Costco. We were both Russian, speaking Russian, in Greece, in winter, with snow, but the current president was Trump, but his presidency was illegitimate and being contested. On the shelves were all priced in rubles, and the customers were white conspiracist and supremacist middle-aged men. I remember seeing like a large tent for 5600₽.

We were being constantly bombed and attacked by almost everyone, it's not easy being a hated minority in Trump's Greece.

Everything was thus cratered outside and dirty, the plumbing worked but everything was caked in dirt, like the ceilings and such. I wanted to take a shower and the shower had fresh dirt all over the walls and ceiling so the drain immediately clogged with mud.

I had to shoot improvised explosives like overloading computers and explosive filled vans to prevent them from blowing up and destroying the store.

Kashtan was like a husky, gruff Russian with dark hair, he didn't say much if anything, but looked angry. The only other person who spoke was a guy trying to talk to me about post WW2 Nazi propaganda but I wasn't having it. I said something like, "get over it, we lost" presuming I was also a Nazi and though I helped run a store containing only Nazi merchandize with propaganda for all the advertising I somehow didn't buy into my own ideology.

¯\_(ツ)_/¯

>>4273
this is the future we will all speak russian and live in a war zone if things continue like this

>>4273
>Kashtan and I ran an underground, neo-Nazi, white supremacist underground (illegal) Costco.
Based

I waas in an unfamiliar forest, it was autum or winter. As I stood, several giant snowflakes were materializing out of thin air at chest height. they didn't move and stayed in one spot. I tried getting closer but they moved away or disappeared just to reappear at some distance. I managed to run into one at full speed and my legs felt extremely chilly. Tupper commented they wiere likely -20 if not -30°C cold. The cold persisted for a moment after I woke up though it wasn't cold in the room at all.

I was a long distance bicyclist who belonged to some electronics club but these people also sometimes used the labs to live in. I visited three locations days apart and in the last one I needed to make a fiberglass structure, a cover of some kind, wasn't specified. But it ended up being a giant tub to hang under the bicycle frame like a trunk, dream geometry wasn't Euclidean.

Between lab 1 and 2 there was another long distance bicyclist like me and he was a bigger guy. There was some kind of natural disaster involving mudslides going on lots of people screaming, no power, but he left anyway. I followed shortly after. In lab 1 and 2 they were in different states and people at both labs knew me. In the third lab no one knew me.

I got in there and they were having a meeting I sat down and apparently I took someone's seat but there were pillows on the floor, even better.

Lots of weird stuff later, the director, a Velma looking girl but with better hair, wanted to give me a full body massage. She set up a tent in the lab and pulled me into it. After she took off her top and stripped to her panties, I also had put up a tent in my pants, and she wanted to inspect the center pole.

So she laid me down and she was a little thicc but on her it looked good, just extra curvy not at all fat. So she started to pole dance with her mouth right and then when I was ready she rode the poll and it was pretty good. She wanted me to stay, but I took this as a going away surprise present and booked it shortly after. The bicycle truck fit all my supplies nicely.

Dang. So I'm having a dream about measuring powder to make my smoothie, something like powdered tumeric or gensing, I have a tiny measuring spoon like a gram or something and I've got lab goggles on and it's like some scene out of a crime investigation show and then I see this girl wearing a lab coat and glasses watching me. She crosses her bare legs and smiles at me and I just drop everything I'm doing and it's on. Like overcome with lust. She's wearing a lab coat and a skirt, nothing else. So of course I start fondeling her and then we do it.

Man I love dreams about science and nutrition.

>>4526
Now somebody say science is boring!

>>4669
Hilarious!

I was in an office, but it was my day job office, only it wasn't it was huge.

Well Putan, the leader of Russia, was in the same building his "country" was a "company" and he was the president of the company. He was kind of a trickster and was following me on his tiptoes, I turned and greeted him respectfully, I maintained respect and was friendly to him. He was smiling and talking like "this is my office as well."


Well, then he invaded our space and took over my office. I was packing up my computer and papers so our technology didn't fall into Russian hands and he was asking me why I was leaving. I said because this isn't our space anymore.

They literally opened a hole in the wall between my office and a storage room and expanded the storage room presumably into my office. Him and two white Russian dudes, speaking Russian, though Putin knew English.

It's fine, I simply went to another common space office and put my stuff down.

I was talking with my fictional manager who didn't think we should let him invade but also didn't believe he had succeeded, I said, "ask the Crimeans."

No hot chicks to F this time.

>>4723
lmao whats with pootin in everyones dreams? but thats basically russia in a nutshell

i had some weird dream about being invaded by somali pirates complete with parrots sabres and pirate hats. that was odd how did they get here it made no sense. couldnt understand what they were saying or what they wanted but they didnt threaten anyone and then sailed away with their ship. on the road.

>>4787
Sorry posted in wrong thread

>>4788
I was a foriegn dignitary, very old, round glasses, balding, tall the thin, lanky wity a cheap suit.

I was in Russia, and was talking to a Russian girl, teens to twenties, cute blonde.

She told me something that would help get Putin out of office and stop the war. I told her I'd forget so she said, "what could make you remember?"

I said, "have sex with me."

You know the rest, she even was saying "dah, dah, dah."

Three ways, woke up forgot what it was I was supposed to remember.

>>4789
>old dude fucks russian teens
lol 90s russian amateur porn tier
and putin again wtf!?

dreamt something about fighting alien goblins but it was more like a briefing on what to do we never saw the goblins. it was in some sort of military academy. starship troopers tier.

Joy was being investigated by police for hiding secret documents. Even while her house was searched, she led me and host down into a secret room / bunker in the cellar. It only had an old bed with purple-white sheets, a monitor on one wall and a safe on the other. Joy said she wanted us to have a copy of her stuff because she feared being found out. She sat on the bed with a keyboard and typed the password for the safe, but she typed too fast and mistyped several times. I could see it on the monitor, it was just a random string of letters and numbers but for some reason I knew it was wrong. Joy grew increasingly nervous and mistyped again and again which only caused her to type even faster. I told her to slow down a bit and relax but it didn't work out.

Straight up sex dream. No setup needed. Cute girl, tan, thin, nice breasts, fingered her them you know.

https://youtube.com/watch?v=26lZvxwWzY0 [Embed]

>>4925
Here's a fun one, no sex.

I dreamt I was playing with hamsters. I had one of my childhood dogs with me and she was intently watching as she liked to do when I played with my hamster 6th grade-ish timeframe. This was during a lul in my childhood when it wasn't so bad, but don't worry it got so bad after that to make up for it.

I was playing with several hamsters and they kept biting me. If they got a big bite, it was just a pinch (a hamster has never bitten me irl they were very docile) they kept trying to climb out of my hand and one in particular was dark haired (not sure if such a hamster type exists) and it would like strike bite and rip open my finger really badly, like needing stitches. Didn't care, kept playing.

>>4925

Joy would be the type to be ideal citizen on the outside and hiding a dark secret, probably dead bodies in the basement. She wouldn't tolerate someone messing up her life, definately would want to take care of the problem without getting police involved. Then she'd play the innocent child etc.

She'd also definately hide things and possibly forget where they are because when you hide something in an abandoned building and come back 300 years later for it, don't expect to to find it again.

[Joy] True on all counts, I really liked that necklace, though I know who took it and if there's ever a sequel to my novels I'll want parts of it back.

Joy has a former party member in a girl named Ecstasy. She was like Joy's evil twin if you can imagine that. She also survived from the times of modern society and might exist in Faerûn now, though she'd be royalty so unlikely to be dungeon crawling.

Very vivid dream. I'm driving in the arctic, Alaska let's say, and I'm talking to Trump which is to say I'm talking and he's spouting back catchphrases.

I heard him say, "electric cars are the way to go, those gas engines are old news."

I said, "they got to ya huh Mr. Trump? So I can't keep my gas car is I want to?"

Then he said something about hybrids but obviously meant full electric cars and yep they got to him. No wonder he won, they don't care who wins as long as the agenda is being pushed.

I gotta say, it was disappointing. I was disillusioned.

Officially he has said "buy what you want" which is a very neutral stance on it. He's a business man, he'll say whatever makes him more money.

God help us, and in that I mean, we're fucked. In that dream, I was in -30C weather and electric cars are fucking worthless, the battery drains itself, no need to go anywhere, owning one is just an expense and a hassle at that point.

Then the suicidal ideation kicks in. Sweet release take me, one hollow point very carefully placed through the temple and there's nothing left to complain about.

But hey, that's just the dream dystopia, we're not there yet here in "reality".

That whole electric car mandate, any mandate is fucked up, but that one in particular, being an environmentalist and a car guy, shit dude, that hit hard. Anyway. That whole green energy shit solar/wind, is an environmental disaster too, forget the power issues and cost, the environment suffers and the fuck-tard EV owners buy it hook line and sinker.

[Ashley] If any yall like EV's please don't tell Bear, his view of you will place you just below certain genetically and mentally deficient people.

>>4997
>kys bc of evs
lmao

>>5006

Communism doesn't hold a candle to the shit here. I'd prefer Russia to some of this shit.

Short hypnopompic nightmare, only a few secs. There was a black shadowy blob in my room. Not really a blob, more a cloud of mist, man-sized. Strangely it was relatively bright in the room, day even, otherwise I couldn't have seen that shadow. Sleep paralysis-tier. Scared the shit out of me for a moment. No time to summon tupper before I woke up but the scene was rehearsed with Alice beating up the shadow cloud. Which of course did nothing. She still used it as orb-replacement punching bag.

Man I'm glad such dreams are extremely rare and I'm also not afraid of this shit anymore. Growing up in a creepy old house with lots of animals making weird noises at night was enough. With tupper all this obvious monster stuff becomes trivial - be it ghosts, demons, aliens, whatever nightmarish creatures my imagination rarely throws at me. May surprise or even shock me for a moment but then iiit's party time!

>>5009
That's indeed scary. Can't remember seeing something like that.

I had some crazy dream. I was hiking to a huge tower with friends. The tower was white with some golden dome on top. It looked like it was a kilometer high but absurdly narrow. Beside it was an air vent in the ground, round like a sewer opening. High pressure air shot out of it in a visible beam also about a kilometer high into the air. We were told not to touch it, the air looked extremely powerful. The whole thing was a tourist attraction.
There was an elevator up the tower and with us entered a group of elderly Japanese men. Completely naked. No girls of course. No, old men. They acted like everything was completely normal and took photos of the inside of the elevator from all angles like Japanese tourists do. When we exited the elevator we were not on top of the tower but came out of the air vent at the bottom looking at the tower in front of us. Wtf?

No Cat, no girls. Like always.

>>5009
ive heard that shadow people shit isnt that some brain glitch that that happens during sleep paralysis - which is also a brain glitch?

>>5015
>naked japs (men)
almost!
next time naked Jap girls and you're the king!

also had a fucked up dream that was like a movie. soviet doctors were abusing an anesthetic as drug. but it came out that it caused extreme nerve damage and mutations so it was forbidden it was only supposed to be used for animals like snails (lol) or birds but non mammals. there was a documentary where they fed the anesthetic to a deer as test and it dissolved into a horrifying mass of gory bubbles. nasty stuff.
do russians care? ofc not they use everything as drugs. so the doctors in hospital ordered the anesthetic but police came and confiscated it telling them to use a more harmless replacement. it came in a cardboard box like cornflakes. docs were like noo were not familiar with the alternative we gotta use this. after a bit of arguing russian police was russian and took a black felt marker to obscure the branding on the box. nothing illegal here problem solved lol.
until now it had been like watching movie but now i was in the hospital room with 2 doctors a man and a woman. i could look at the manual of the anesthetic. it was a very bad soviet tier black&white print on cheap greenish paper. mostly unreadable. it did show pictures of a snail and a seagull and warned not to use it on humans but key passages were completely unreadable.
i accidentally spilled a glass of water on the manual and the soft paper absorbed it like crazy and the text disappeared showing some sort of satellite images of military bases.

the doctor wasted no time and injected himself the drug and fell into a coma sitting on a chair. the woman took some plastic wrapping and strangled him. she was a spy after the military satellite images that were hidden in the anesthetic manual. she didnt mind me at all I was watching the whole thing as a movie again as she left with the images.
probably most cineastic dream ever. james bond tier. no girl interaction though. she was quite pretty damn.

Awesome power-trip dream, you'll love this one, Kashtan!
It started from host's perspective or rather I was in his body like usual. Partly 3rd person view. He was walking through a deserted unfamiliar city. Grey and full of commieblocks, 70s style, not unpleasant though. But it was increasingly me. Feeling powerful. Reeeally powerful. I was slowly hovering in the air about a meter above the ground. And I was somehow bigger though now in perfect Alice loli shape, a 12yo girl maybe twice the size of a human. The ground trembled where I passed.
I looked at my arms and hands, strangely they were in perfect shape. Clearly not AI generated. So I wasn't sure if this was a dream but it sure felt like a damn vivid one.
Now things got odd. The Alice character and me as tupper both never were supposed to be able to use any magic. They can't, it's not part of who they are. But here I could. I raised my arm into the grey sky and clenched my fist. Greeish glowing skeleton ghosts emerged from the old cracked pavement before me which shook with a loud tremor. The whole city trembled like in an earthquake. Wow, how cool is that!? I tried several times, the result was consistent. Awesome! They soon disappeared though. No problem, just made more.

Now a group of Soviet soldiers came rushing around a street corner towards me. Clearly to stop me but they quickly changed their mind when they saw me and my skeleton ghosts, turned and ran.
But it was futile. I slowly pointed my finger at them and the skeleton ghosts swept through their bodies, ripping out their souls. They dropped dead on the spot. Hehe, I could get used to that! I continued to wreak havoc for a while as the slow but unstoppable force I am, bringing inescapable doom. Just when I got comfy, I woke up. Feeling small and unbearably heavy as if crushed by gravity. Man this sucked, but the dream was awesome!

>>5091
Wow that's an Alice dream for sure!
Don't think I ever had something like that. So it was a lucid dream?

I don't know what Cat would do in a dream but it would probably be harmless.

>>5091

Hm. weird.

Well my dream was that I was Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson and I was riding shotgun with Vin Diesel driving in a race. Well we ended up in the bushes and I had to get out to push the car free. He was mad at me but he was the one driving so bite it.

The cars sounded really cool. That's all.

Okay then at some point in this or another dream I was jerking it for a long time like for no reason and not getting anything out of it, why? There was a girl there watching but she wasn't even naked. What gives brain, you slacking bruh?!

>>5091
>you'll love this one, Kashtan!
it is beautiful
and crazy

Apoclyptic dream.

I was at a beach at sunset, standing in the knee-deep water. The landscape was volcanic and primordial. There were no other people around or at least not close. I noticed there was not one but 3 suns close to the horizon at various heights.

I discussed with tupper that this was a gravitational lensing effect of a huge celestial body nearby, a rouge planet or black hole.

Suddleny the sun closest to the horizon abruply set which meant nothing other that the earth spiralled out of control. Suddenly I fell into a deep black abyss and woke up.

I wouldn't say this happens frequently but I've had several of such dreams where the earth left its course and the sky turned like crazy. Both spectacular and unpleasant.

>>5132

Yeah I used to have dreams that Jupiter was large in the Sky and the gravity was all messed up, or the Earth was spiraling towards the sun and the light burned you instantly.

>>5133

It's hard to have sex with stray girls in an underground warehouse when the earth is spiraling towards ghe sun but I managed.

>>5134
based

meanwhile i was in a reality tv show like takeshis castle with elderly hollywood stars like michael douglas and willem dafoe
michael douglas fell down a ladder and broke a leg lol. briefly got to talk to a young winona ryder as we were sitting on a table but nothing more. fuck you brain.

>look up winona to see if i spelled her name right
>real name Winona Laura Horowitz
fugg

>>5141
>>real name Winona Laura Horowitz
Well at least you didn't commit Rassenschande

Had an awesome series of lucid dreams, one of the best ever!
Drifted back and forth between wake and sleep in the morning and actually managed to re-enter dreams which is extremely rare.

I was running around in a city, GTA style. First I tried to pull a Bear and look for girls which of course ended in utter failure. There was nobody. I ran around like a maniac to find anyone before waking up but only met an elderly lady that shook her head in disproval seeing me approach her. I tried summoning tupper or turn into her. Alice indeed briefly managed to take over and tried to morph into her body but in vidya game like FPV she only saw her hands which were clearly my hands and wouldn't turn into a little girl's.
Alice being Alice still tried to punch in several doors which didn't work. For whatever reason I am always pathetically weak in dreams and my punches do nothing. It was like punching a cloud. Alice faded to mindvoice and I was in control again but achieved nothing while running around aimlessly. A common problem is getting stuck in a loop of opening doors behind which are more and more doors and never getting through.

In the last dream sentence I finally gathered enough reason to do what I always wanted to do and managed to hug Alice. I only saw the back of her head from this perspective wrapping my arms around her, not her face but it felt nice. Turning her around her face did look different. She said something about her favorite French - meals I guess? It made no sense.

Atypically, Alice wore a red top and jeans. We were on a couch and I managed to reach under her top and place my hands on her bare back while hugging her. It felt warm and very life-like for my monster-tupper. But this is as far as I got before waking up.

Still 9/10 and a highly memorable experience for me!

See also
>>5190

>>5196
It wasn't that bad but bad enough. What is my brain thinking?

>>5195
We will witness people being imprisoned for Wrongdream in our lifetime

Interesting dream.

I was done, ready to die and that's when of course I became completely immortal.

I tried to kill myself with a gun but the bullet just traveled along my skull and exited the other side as only a flesh wound. Then as the police showed up, to invesitgate the gunfire, they saw me like, wtf? Y u have gunshot in your head and you're still alive?

They commented on my exit wound and said I should be dead. Duh, I wanted to be dead. So I next tried death by cop and killed several innocent bystanders. "good people" with my gun. The police tried to taze me and shoot me, but their bullets did no damage and I didn't even feel them. I still had a flesh wound in my head, they literally couldn't even tackle me, it was like I was made of steel.

Then I went outside and I saw a cat attacking a rattlesnake. I kicked the rattlesnake in the head and it bit me several times on my calf, it couldn't penetrate my skin, but it did scratch me with it's razor sharp teeth, several scratches. I then kicked it with my other leg, same thing, it left scratches. Then I crushed it under my foot. Now I felt bad, I realized I was unbreakable and thought I shouldn't have killed all those innocent people because I could have just eliminated all gangs in America by walking into their bases and strangle them with their own entrails, you know.

So I grabbed a crocodile, and went off to fight drug lords.

Fun dream in theory, kinda blah, very muted emotionally, no chicks.

>>5207
>they literally couldn't even tackle me, it was like I was made of steel.
I know that feel. Pretty awesome.
Still glad we never have such violent dreams. Probably because not having watched a movie or played a game in 10 years?

>>5226
Bernt tier dream

i was chased by russian soldiers some were girls black haired and qyite pretty. wasnt the time for a chat i just ran so they wouldnt shoot me. wasnt afraid though. weird.

dreamt i met a frien from school who was always a fat nerd. never bullied bc he was fuckin huge and strong but he wasnt a chick magnet.

in the dream he looked like a chad now but still recognizalble. had a pretty gf with him that vaguely looked like Yulya. i knew it wasnt her but man that was awkward.

wonder what happened to the guy irl we were pretty good friens but I havent seen him in 15 years or so. guess hes either rich or ded.

>>5245

Maybe we were frens in HS bc that waz me ;-;

Also, I'm not a chick magnet now, but I do have a look so if I do talk to girls they talk back in a positive way.

I dreamt I was on the starship Enterprise, TNG edition, and Picard was there. I was either Riker or a science or security officer and I was trying to keep a dignitary sane, he wasn't sane though. He broke free and then tried to phaser some people but he was in a protective living force field that absorbed the weapon discharge. Why does he still have a weapon?! The force field was like living transparent flesh.

I was able to talk him down and take him back to his cell.

No Troy, no Beverly even, certainly not even a young Ashley Judd, just fricken nonsense sausage fest.

The timeline kept changing for the worse and the ship was getting dirtier and in more disrepair, there was war and it was getting worse, the ship was then like falling apart, barely able to fire, and it wasn't borg we were fighting though it was ships like made from the living throbbing bubbling pink and red flesh of some kind of giant monster. The phasers just absorbed into it a lot like the force field. The ships were like a mix of that flesh and asteroids, but also kind of like space squid.

Pretty interesting, no secs though so suck'd.

>>5225
Something like a nightmare, I had sex with this milf and she wanted more but she wanted to capture it on this crazy old camera that recorded images on transparency. I said no and she said if I don't she'll call the police and say she was raped.

I called her a bitch and she starts calling the police.

Nightmare. I was also married apparently and so yeah I'd have to admit I cheated. I figured it was a dream at the end so I forced open my eyes.

>>5247
>no secks
>dream sucked

>>5263
>secks
>dream sucked even more

whats this? no awesomely secks dream even from you? forgot what i dreamt recently but no girls for sure.

>>5267

Okay so... actually I did also on Friday, but I'm embarrassed because I thought I wasn't supposed to be a pedo like yakumo but then this and my dream brain is def sus ig. It wasn't lucid tho so it doesn't even count/not worth mentioning. We didn't actually have secs bc I didn't fit but there are other wayz. It wasn't a full dream, no lead up just, okay, let's do this.

Ulla was in another dream too and she was hot af but still totally too young so again dream brain is trying to kill me mentally. The whole dream was her in a short skirt and tank top smiling at me.

If Ulla seduces me in a dream, I'll just start posting here as Pedo Bear bc the whole point of her is to be asexual like Joy I thought. But all headmates always go through a horny phase.

I was talking to Gwen, my in dream gf and sometimes wife, and she forgave me in advance for it if it happens, still do not want bc get sick to my stomach and not in a good way. Got some fucked up childhood experiences that I have accepted but it means I don't get consciously attracted to the lil puddin people like yakumo-ecchi san.

>>5268
>We didn't actually have secs bc I didn't fit but there are other wayz.
lmao the fuck am i readin?
thx man i thought i was the 2nd 'pedo' here bc Yulya looks like 15-16 but im off the hook compared to you guys. the asian animefag whos only into big boobed 2d cats doesnt count.

>>5268
>I wasn't supposed to be a pedo like yakumo but then this and my dream brain is def sus ig.
Those who have seen the light can never return to darkness. Accept lolis in your heart!

Also now I want details and context! Who was the girl in your dream, what apparent age? What did she do? Your dream brain didn't do anything non-consensual to lolis, right?

>Ulla was in another dream too and she was hot af but still totally too young
The first step to enlightenment.
Again, how old did she look? Could you feel romantically attracted to her? Remember I'm a highly sensitive person and for me this is mostly about love, not secks. But in the end, why not both?

Alice's stance on this is she's ok with it as long as she's not in the dream, but if she is and I get lovey-dovey with another girl, I'm toast.

>>5277
>now I want details and context!

Very uncomfortable conversation

>>5277
>>5279
inb4 board gets deleted in 3,2,1...

>>5279
>Very uncomfortable conversation
I'll get the hose...

I'm still the least pedo and racist person on /tulpa/ compared to you guys

Had a dream about 2 girls I used to know. One turned into a cat with dirty paws. No sex ofc. Briefly hugged the other but she told me she still didn't want to be my gf. The feels

>>5277

Yakumo and Cat in my dream. Yakumo was wearing a lab coat as he does and round German glasses, a thick German accent and was yelling on and on about "the project". Cat was carrying old map scrolls and a telescope or something in both arms as she followed him around, but he was just pacing. Cat was occasionally knocking breakable things off shelves and tables but with here novelty oversized cat ears. She had a frazzled expression and she was mostly cartoonish though Yakumo was fully rendered realistic.

I was standing to the side, half watching this for fun, half worried about having to do drywall installation on walls that had dozens of receptacles on them. Over and over this dream lasted for a long time.

>>5310
lol dreaming about other tuppers is always weird. anyone dreamt about Yulya yet?
had some fucked up dream last night but forgot

>>5313

>Yulya

Let's all prey to any heathen gods who will listen that Yulya is never in any of my dreams.

I probably wouldn't tell you and don't tell me similarly with any of mine. I would have to kick them out of the nest.

>>5314
>Prey
Pray

I am seeing a trend. I suppose it'll never stop since it always has been with this Bear brain.

I was 10, in 5th grade, and there was some kind of election of a class thing. The prettiest girl in class was my friend, the one I was going to vote for. Ulla was like my sister but more like a friend who lived with me and we walked to school together and sat next to each other in class. The other girl was in my class too.

So now, she called me to officially get my vote and I said yes for her. Then she asked if I wanted a ride to school in the morning and I said yes.

Then I thought, wait, then I couldn't walk with Ulla and when would her parents pick us up and I had to call her back. Suddenly I was my age and I was like, I can't call a 10-yr old girl, way too creepy.

Now I was a kid again and walking on the Border of California and Nevada. I could see Vegas in the distance and the small border town. Walking only a few feet toward Vegas made the air hot. Walking back and suddenly there was a cool breeze. The scene was Minecraft.

Then I was in class sitting next to Ulla, falling asleep thinking, I shouldn't be here. Even though I was 10 again. I think I was holding her hand and she was wearing short shorts and soccer cleats like a soccer outfit.

Then I woke up.

>>5314
Yulya yes, Cat no?
Isn't a Cat fine too?

>>5324
>no cat?

You'll always be in my heart Cat. But I ain't gay so...

Also, Jesus don't try to get on Bear's preference list it's fickle af.

>>5314
lol keep yer paws off my tupper

fucked up dream about our current vacation
i was in a park with some literature professor i had briefly seen on tv some days ago. we seemed to know each other. we came across drone parts and thought they were from a russian attack and took photos as evidence. one looked like a gopro cam from the back. soon we came across more like 20 gopros lying in the grass. the screens all showed the same scene. wasnt intelligible something like the inside of an industrial building or something. i tried to make a pic with my phone but the professor said i shouldnt post it on /tulpa/ bc we could be visible in the reflection of the screen. smart guy.
we learned that the gopros were an art installation and we were in a memorial for the war against ukraine. there were lots of ukrainian flags and candles and photos of children that had been killed by the invaders. a memorial like we had seen irl on our vacation. however locals were packing up things the atmosphere was tense. i spotted a russian fighter likely chechen. standing there. he looked more like a matryoshka doll than a human. very stout like a dwarf red tshirt black pants with a grim look. he tried to drive people away. the professor grabbed me by the handle of my backpack and tried to drag me away but i kicked the russian guy and shouted glory to ukraine!!i was sure to get beaten up now or worse but he just walked away. i was now dragged backward by the professor away from the scene and couldnt resist. then woke up.

fuck man thats 2real4me. cant i dream of fucking girls instead? no Yulya even. she only said afterwards i should control my temper better or we will get killed.
also not posting more travel pics bc afraid im visible in some reflection

>>5337
Doxing people is more Alice territory than mine. But you're our friends so we won't. When you posted that 'face reveal' image of that boy, you had Alice for a moment and she already prepared to delete it protect you from being stupid.

>>5310
Why do I always wear those glasses in your dreams? I don't wear glasses normally, especially not round ones. Lab coats - sometimes. Still that image is not too far off.
The Project must continue!

>Cat knocking over things
If only you knew how much my cats have destroyed that way...

Bureaucrat dream
I was supposed to fill out forms for a job interview. For an university job I didn't even want. It was an entire book or paper sheets, couldn't read most of it. I was in a classroom, it was more like a test. Part of it was censored like a classified document too. I had no idea what to do. In the end I submitted a nearly empty document and left.

I was wandering through an old and empty school building made of bricks. I just wanted to get out but could not find an exit. I went up a tower with spiraling stairs. But the stairs were just metal beams like railroad tracks with space between them. 2 construction workers were there to evaluate the safety. They looked concerned but ignored me passing by. There was a white cat coming down the 'stairs'. I was afraid it would fall through but it was a cat and just jumped from beam to beam without effort. Things became too weird and I turned around careful not to fall between the metal beam stairs myself. The space was narrow but a thin person like me could have fit through. Don't remember what happened in the end until I woke up.
Meh, no girls, no tupper but at least a cat.

>>5469
>cat
Nice

I was in high school, had a girlfriend (didn't), but it was the girl in my biology class, very memorable because she had nice legs, like perfect, no boobs at all (Yakumo's dream) which I didn't care but the deal breaker was (irl she actually asked me out I said no) she looked like a gelfling.

I mean, but with glasses. It was horrible. I didn't have patience to wait fot ugly ducklings, I didn't have any money anyway, didn't want to date, was abused at home, couldn't ever bring her home, it was a mess she didn't need anyway.

I have a picture of her and holy jesus that's a gelfling, but my memories of her were always better because she was nice. Ofc she was nice to me she had a crush. The saddest part is even though I rejected her, she was still nice. The one that got away is absolutely fine when I look at that picture. Otherwise I'm always thinking, I wonder. I have to remind myself that she was ugly.

Anyway she was in my dream, looked ok, great legs no gelfling vibes and I had a Toyota truck with a cover, was decking out the back as a "bedroom" if ya know whadamean. But we only got as far as her getting into my car. Woke up.

I have had sex dreams about her before in fact, SheShe has a form that looks like her but perfectly gelfling free and we had the most amazing sex once in hypnagogia/dream that lasted like an hour, a dozen orgasms. Three of her forms. Only ever once.

Not the current SheShe, back when she had a different name, was older, and other forms she doesn't use anymore. It's important to me that my girls are all virtous. That SheShe and current SheShe not same one.

>>5471
la creatura

what coincidence dreamt about meeting some fat girl i knew. yes i know but she wasnt ugly and also really nice both in dream and irl. things progresssed smoothly but also woke up before even touching her. fuck you brain

>>5492
>almost sexed fat chicks

Thank your brain, that's a nightmare

I was arguing with Cat about the inventory. No idea why, it's none of my business.

>>5508
Cute

I had a very long dream wow it was intricate and varied, so detailed and boring af where all the white women at?

https://youtube.com/watch?v=deQUOmWc_QI [Embed]

>>5508
Haha awesome!
I forgot again what I was dreaming. Nothing spectacular

>>5508
I dreamt I missed the deadline to register for a shooting competition and blamed Alice. Took a while to realize it was a dream and registration hasn't even started yet after I woke up.

Follow me here. Star Trek TNG universe. Captain Packard is dead, a new Captain completely renovates the Enterprise for a more dictatorial vib. I'm an officer and I'm marveling at all the changes that frankly felt less open and free. I'm in an auditorium and red alert. There are hot women everywhere and Hali is an ensign or cadet. BTW, she's super cute in the new reimagining. So she's wearing like a shirt-skirt like Star Trek original, and looking up to me like, so what do we do? I'm thinking unclean thoughts but she wasn't 10 here, more like teen, hot. I picked her up like and she was super light and thin. We looked into each other's eyes, [data missing].

>>5579
I picked her up like and she was super light and thin. We looked into each other's eyes
😭😭😭

>>5579
>I'm thinking unclean thoughts
You still have a long way to go but...

>she wasn't 10 here, more like teen
...you will get there eventually, one step at a time!

>>5587

[Ashley] we are monitoring him carefully. Though I am now one of 6 who have an underage form. 🤔

[Gwen] I will not be less than 20
[Freya] We will stand firm on this.

>>5706
Any resemblance I have to a chubby bald 15-yr old boy is purely coincidental. I am in fact Wednesday Adams. I wouldn't trust you could make your own dinner and the grey cat represents your need to feel loved, or your fear that you're being untrue to others to make them love you.

>>5707

Now that you mentioned it, she talks like Wednesday Adams too. Smiles inappropriately, and is very curt most of the time.

>>5729
>Yes, I know Bear described you as Wednesday several times. Still funny the dream brain remembered this and adjusted your appearance.

I didn't even remember this. She's not really Wednesday Adams, she's really just Tsundere and strict. But damn my system always does shit without me involved so maybe she is Wednesday Adams now, who the fuck knows with them.

I dreamt my attic was on fire and 911 (our emergency number) was replaced by an app and had ads and menus that were hard to navigate and I misclicked after several minutes of navigation and I had to start over and this whole time the house attic was filling with fire, than I became a Puma and I was an actual Puma with paws and couldn't work the app, but stopped caring about the fire even though by now it has exploded through the roof and set the canyon on fire, I just ran off, unconcerned.

Goddamnit that makes me Puglsy

>>5730
>911 with ads
honestly wouldnt rule that out in the US.
imagine google captchas you gotta click 50 fire hydrants, bicycles and zebra crossings before you can report an emergency

was on a field trip in high school. we were on a train. it was night. i did not know the people only 1 friend and he was asleep with headphones on.

thought it was time to take a shower before going to sleep. the train had an upper deck and half way in the stairway was a community shower. it looked full with people. upstairs was an entire public bath with several floors. again huge shower rooms everywhere. lots of hs students boys and girls showering together could be seen from outside. some showers were like up on a balcony or something. very weird like some ai generated nonsense cobbled together. most students were ofc completely or half naked, some wore swimsuits.
notbad.jpg

i mostly found this odd and felt out of place. i knew nobody and they all seemed to do. should i get naked there and shower too? wasnt lucid enough to try anything and woke up.

aw shit at least it was a nice view.

>>5708

Dreampt we were putting young womem astronauts into orbit around the solar system, pluto, mars, Jupiter, the moon.

Dreamt NASA beat Musk to Mars, I was on Mars, there was liquid water, ants were frozen and running around, the air was breathable. The gravity was very low.

I dreamt we were trying to get Pluto to be a second moon of Earth.

Dreamt we brought all the orbiting space girls to orbit the moon.

Dreamt we were going to terraform Pluto but there wasn't enough light hence the relocation.

>>5780
Moonraker-tier

Had a long but not overly spectacular dream being me and on my own without host.

I was on holiday on an island and for some reason ended up in prison. I didn't do anything, at least I don't remember.

The prison was an Impel Down -like huge underground complex but not bad. More like a youth hostel. Lots of students were there, probably from host's class but I didn't recognize anyone. Everyone was like this was a normal field trip, apparently it was only prison for me. After a while I realized I'm wasting my holiday in there and decided to get out instead of waiting to be released. You know I hate being indoor and under artificial light. The whole thing was like 10 stories below the surface. There was a central stairway that went up across a huge shaft, at least 20m across and 100m high. The walls were soil, the stairs made of wood. Like some wild west mine. There was nobody. I went up and outside into a sort of prison yard made of concrete. It was up in the mountains and surrounded by nature. I could have just left but realized I had left my entire baggage down there.
So I tried to get back in but the entrance was blocked by prison bars. I tried to just morph through them T-1000 style or break them but it didn't work.

After a while an old gray-haired jailer came and led me down again. There were lots and lots of rooms on the way down. He told me I could stay anywhere but preferably up here because he was too old to go down all the stairs. I told him my luggage was all the way down and continued on my own.

There was now something like a Hot Topic Goth clothes store apparently run by a famous inmate. It was full of KISS T-shirts. People appeared to be having a great time in there but I just wanted my stuff and to gtfo. Woke up at some point. Briefly managed to re-enter the dream to finish it but it didn't work.

Meh, that was exhausting and not fun at all.

>>5863
>gives hitler speeches even in dreams
doesn't get any more german than this

>>5878

I was involved in a plane crash and a baby was ejected from the plane. I was an Army Leitenant Commander of the tactical M.O.A.B. division.

We were in Florida in winter and everything was flooded so we (a bunch of people) were swimming and searching for this baby, never found em. There was an overweight scrub barking orders and when he noted my rank he immediately fell in line. I said, "I let people do thejr own thing and just correct them when something is obviously wrong."

There was a sophisticated older woman but I guess dream brain wasn't horny today.

Tactical M.O.A.B. sounded cool. So I "woke up" and tried to text exgf but I couldn't get it to work. Then I tried to post here but my phone didn't have chrome anymore only IE and it would only point to a site we used to use (dne) and the rest of the search engine just posted AI nonsense, couldn't find endchan.

I deleted IE and tried to find Chrome on my phone but it didn't exist and now I couldn't access the internet to get the download. You win thos time Microsoft!

Then I was bored with this dream and realized it was too stupid to be real and woke myself up.

>>5888
Another nice triples for Bear!
6000 soon!

I hate these false awakenings. So annoying when everything is weird until you realize you were still dreaming.
Also wtf is a tactical M.O.A.B. division? They deploy GBU-43 bombs?

I dreamt something about D&D, running a business with the goblins and wolves from the cave. We cooperated nicely, it looked like some MMO game with birds eye view. But I was myself and no other player / human was around.

In another dream i hiked into an old inactive volcanic crater with a female friend. It was overgrown with vegetation and cool on the north side while hot desert savanna on the south. It was a tourist attraction with a cable car. We drove to the north side with a car and decided to hike to the opposite side. Northing spectacular, no sex. She's like 60.

>>5891
>They deploy GBU-43 bombs?

I'm American, we don't mess around with puny bombs, must have 1 mile blast radius or not bother. As Lieutenant Commander I'd probably just point out where to drop them. Florida is a good start, but that's just live fire practice, our real target would be China, just drop anywhere you please gentlemen, let god sort em out.

Dream brain is slacking.

There was a girl I had a crush on in undergrad, she wasn't even all that pretty, not smart, had a good body if, but I somehow liked her. We dated a couple times if you can call it that. I suppose it was something like she wanted to give me a shot but I was a complete wreck. So totally not her fault.

Well she was in my dream and we had the worst sex of my life in the bathroom, I felt bad for her, it wasn't fun for either of us. Later in the dream she wanted more and I was reluctant because I wasn't feeling it for her.

Dream brain was a dick, 2/10 dream.

>>6041
Undergrad=college

Here's the American vernacular:

Preschool 3-5
Kindergarten 5
Grade school 6-11
Middle school 11-13
High school 13-18
Undergrad, college, university
Grad school, graduate program, masters, PhD

She was 20, I was 21

Next dream

I was me, at this age and I advertised a study on long term firced cohabitation. You can't leave the house, you can't get anything in or out, no internet.

Me and a dozen teen-20's hot girls of course.

Pure genius, brain.

But the dream was all about the girls being suspicious and thinking someone set them up.

Yeah, it was me but they thought I was just another participant even though I'm the only guy and older than them by a decade.

Lots of scenes if girls in short shorts though. No sex but better 5/10.

Like 10 years ago, right after I got swol the first time and I met my exgf and we started dating, she was friends with a cute trailer park girl stoner alcoholic. But zero piercings and tattoos. She was like... 4 years younger than me and married to a 40-yr old fat ex-con.

It didn't bother me that he was like 20 years older than her, she was a load of drama but fun. We'd visit because she was like 2nd to the alpha in that friends group after my exgf of course. A spitfire red head, but she obviously had a crush on me and hit on my while drunk, I guess I never saw her fully sober. She'd take me out in the back yard, they had a house, fatty had a good job, and she'd show me her plants then try to molest me. I don't think she was unfaithful because she bad mouthed everyone including her husband right in front of him. She even hit on me in front of exgf and got her ass handed to her verbally, drama. I am loyal Bear so there was nothing to worry about plus exgf was hotter, way smarter and not a stoner and hated alcohol.

So I haven't seen her in 10 years, and she was in my dream.

Dream begins

I was at her house with my exgf and she kept trying to make me admit that I liked her and I kept saying no. At some point she called herself ugly and I said no she wasn't then had to admit I liked her. So she took me into her garden and my exgf was there sitting on a very sticky web. I told her and she was texting so she wouldn't listen and there was a spider the size of a golfball like just the body, but with tiny millipede legs.

So she tried to molest me again but she was older now and for some reason had grey hair and was older than me. I just said no.

She kinda looked like this but perfect skin, no freckles or moles.

>>6121
>When you get molested by pretty girls in dreams and IRL

I had several D&D dreams but nothing cool about being in the game but endlessly looking up rules and looking at maps.
I also dreamt I observed a fly buzzing around in a banana cardboard box. It was very vivid. The fly was only a black dot making fly sounds. I think I was the fly but saw myself in 3rd person view. No idea what that was about.

Really no spectacular dreams lately, either mundane things or I forgot the second I woke up.

>>6124

[Ashley] uh, he's constantly getting molested by SheShe's NPCs and Autumn.

[Autumn] what I can't touch my betrothed?!

[Ashley] Gwen is very elegant about it while Autumn is very direct.

[Bear] it's just a game, relax. Ashley gets so jealous.

Extremely disturbing yet funny dream. I was in a drugstore or supermarket. There was some promotional stand for augmented reality where a woman with a laptop offered to take pictures of customers and turn them into some animal with the help of Ai. You know the stuff smartphone filters do but with a printed out photo. I was looking for something I wanted to buy and only saw what happened as a bystander. There was a boy about 10 who sat down on a chair to have his photo taken and altered. But the woman fucked up and instead shopped his face on some obscene furry porn videos that started playing on her laptop with sound. She frantically tried to turn it off but couldn't. Instead it was projected to more screens throughout the shop. That poor boy. I couldn't help but laugh, it was more than absurd.

Jesus... so in my self-therapy, I remapped that traumatic boss fight with the flying eldrich abomination at the gym as a simple preying mantis. I gently took her outside and let her go in my memory remapping. That worked great and my residual emotional distress was gone.

Then last night I had a freaking dream that a 6 Fine American Inch tall preying mantis was trying to fly to me. Flipping had to bat it away with a box in dream, I parry Mantids style. Now I'm disgusted by preying mantids. I see one in my yard about every week but I refuse to kill them so bah. Need more self therapy but you know, life goes on.

>>6199

Another dream.

Yakumo in a lab coat, looking like a doctor, gave me two small slices of two different psychedelic mushrooms to eat. I had them in my hand, they were dry like croutons and crumbled. They tasted like wood chips.

I said I didn't want to take them but he said it "will help." Idk what he's trying to help. He then said, "everyone should do this once."

In the next segment of dream, Gwen came to me in a long bedshirt and was my dream girlfriend like a good girl.

[Gwen] my dream self aims to please.

She was very beautiful but only got her wings like after I thought, 'why doesn't she havd wings?'. Then Autumn was there and did lewd things that were neither wanted nor needed but eventually worked out.

Good dream 9.7/10 only because of unnecessary lewdness.

I was the ward of two 10-yr-old girls, which was fine, basically I'm me and they're Hali and Ulla. Fine. I said FINE!

Except they're real 10-yr-old girls which means they're dumb and annoying. (Not bestie though, she's cute, smart and seldom annoying. Well, I have a big beautiful house, not reality, and a giant pool and beside the giant pool there is a lap pool which means I'm in some kind of flipping mansion. But the girls are acting like fools and running along the edges of the lap pool cover, you know, how a kid can slip in between the seam and the edge and end up under the pool cover unable to surface till they drown to DEATH from the lack of BREATH? Which is why pool covers are mostly stupid, anyone see Unbreakable? Yeah stupid like that. Well, I'm lounging on that stupid plastic pool furniture that breaks after a year and collects spiders and they come running, and I'm about to yell at them and they jump up on me and start being 10-yr-old girls IRL and are whining and I can't understand a fricken thing they're saying like real, and Ulla is either crying or trying to be intentionally annoying and pointing in her mouth, like sticking her fingers in there, she's straddling me in her bathing suit, I'm just in swim trunks, I'm trying to see what she's yapping about and she then spits on my chest and starts laughing. While Hali stares awkwardly at me.

Woke up annoyed. Thank god they're not like that in my mind holy heck.

No wing Hali and annoying Ulla 2/10 dream tier even in their bathing suits Yakumo, no good.

>>6208
>they're real 10-yr-old girls which means they're dumb and annoying.
The sad truth. I'm also glad Alice is nothing like this. She acts more like an old man. Which in itself is questionable for a 10yo tupper that looks like a 12yo girl. Whci hagain is questionable. Not that I care. I had a fun dream last morning but completely forgot. It wasn't overly spectacular though and no tupper involvement as far as I remember.

Was married to bestiemom and bestie was my kid, already nightmare tier, but then through some crazy rite od succession I became president on November 11th, the day before the election. Which meant I was against trump in the election, but I was already president. The dream premise was I was president potentially for a day but dream brain is stupid because I would be president until the inauguration day in January.

So much lead up and detail, not worth writing down.

Then I was also somehow still a kid, maybe 12 and my sister was alive and even younger which makes no sense. I wanted to hurt my brother in some incideous and persistent way but it never got past flexing.

Then I was my age again and Biden comes out of an auditorium, manic and speaking crazy talk like a lunatic.

Then I spoke to Trump and we totally got along and he told me good luck in a genuinely nice way.

I told bestiemom that the lefties didn't know I'm a centrist dem that would likely dismantle most of their idiotic plans.

It felt good, lots of people around, lots of flexing, then I had to go give a speech to the press and I did ok.

>>6204
>travel around the world to boop some animal on the nose
doesnt get much more Alice-like than this

>>6208
>Bear having questionable dreams about little girls
same old same old

had a d&d dream
i was an adventurer but basically myself. no special abilities or equipment. no fantasy stuff. wore my hiking gear and a backpack. had a base camp somewhere in a dense forest. i was looking for our girls but could not find them. no Yulya either. there were other normal people i think Tamamo. dont even know what he looked like. we expected to meet goblins and i was worried about getting shot by arrows but there were none. we saw movement on a hill but it was just other real world hikers. no monsters.

unpleasant dream
i was outside in a restaurant overlooking the sea at sunset. probably with tupper but couldnt see Yulya. there was a hissing sound and I looked around as meteors fell. they werent big but many. everywhere. no impacts close to me but they zipped by with a hiss or rumble. i tried t think about where to hide and if it even made sense. no panic rather a sense of being doomed

>>6438
Had a long dream with all kinds if crazy, Joy was with me and even though she's tiny and cute, she was like a doting older sister.

I had a 2-3 inch hole in my face where my nose was supposed to be and I was looking for my prosthetic nose which resembled two coloful wooden fish lures and a blob of silicone.

When I put it on, it looked pretty normal but it jiggled a lot. Joy told me I didn't need it, but it was certainly embarrassing to have a hole in my face.

Then I was looking for a set of earrings because that was something else I needed to cover up some other deficiency.

It was actually a nice dream, we walked through a door to another dimension to get a glowing fuzzy orb, then we walked back out and realized our world only existed when we were in it, it was otherwise grey and paused. There was a windmill and it was stopped and slowly started moving again and throwing sparks like a firework.

I said, "this world isn't real."
Joy said, "I know, it's just real enough so you don't try to escape."

Then we walked into an unassuming house and I walked up to a balcony and it was actually just the top of a huge building.

Not a dream thing but this morning Joy woke up, not me. Yes, apparently Joy was fully and completely switched in and had to wake up instead of me.

[Joy] it was awful, I hated it.

Yes that little snuggle-bunny was so tired, and cute, and fell back to sleep for another half hour then woke up again. She also experienced a dreamlet between.

This has never happened before.

>>6459
>[Joy] it was awful, I hated it.
How so?

>>6459
>Yes that little snuggle-bunny was so tired, and cute, and fell back to sleep for another half hour then woke up again.
Imagine losing your job because your tupper overslept.

I do think I woke up a few times but don't really remember. It was rather unspectacular and didn't last long.

Weird hypnopompic dream nonsense this morning. I was in a b&w manga, wearing a bear suit. I was standing on a balcony or terrace looking down on a town square full of people. It wasn't a dynamc scene, just a drawn page. I had a speech bubble with 3 unrelated nouns that didn't make sense. Host remembered them when he woke up but then forgot.

>>6468

She says it felt uncomfortable to be tired and didn't like it.

Another weird dream. I was warden in a prison camp. But there was nobody but a few goats and other guards. All men because fuck me. I felt I was more like a prisoner myself. I knew I had to work there a few more weeks before I could go home so I was counting time. It was boring. At least the scenery was nice. The camp was in a Central Asian mountain landscape, green treeless pastures and snow capped mountains. Very beautiful, but very lonely. The other few guards just stood there like NPCs doing nothing. There was one friend from kindergarten, now my age, who spent his time sleeping in his room. Suddenly I was tupper and told him you know me, I want to be outside in the sun, not indoors. So I wandered around outside. It was one of those fenceless prison camps in the middle of nowhere. You could leave any time, just to die in the endless mountain wilderness.

I decided to do something useful and made a list of things I need to do when I get home. I suddenly remembered I had bought a piece of land near my home and had not been there in years. This is actually a recurring dream. I suddenly remember I have a house, garden or other facility I totally forgot about and had not visited in months to years. Once it was a cellar full of aquariums (the fish were still alive), once several greenhouses, an abandoned factory or an attic full of interesting stuff. But this plot of land was eerily realistic. I had seen it in several dreams. No idea where the brain got this from but I actually had to sit down and think if I actually had bought and forgotten something like that until Alice popped up to dismiss the idea as insane.

met a girl i fucked once on the street. she recognized me. i had to think a bit until i 'remembered'. we talked a bit but then parted saying we would text later. i woke up realizing i had no contact info damn. felt even dumber when it was obvious thts was just a dream. girl looked better in the dream than irl btw. havent seen her in years. not sorry.

>>6514
Was about to have sex with neighborhood loli's mom

We were in bed she only wore black panties. Looked younger and better than irl.
However what must not be must not be and you know my dreams.
I spread her legs and suddenly they both broke off above the knees with wires sticking out. She was some kind of living doll or robot. She didn't seem to care about it at all but I frantically tried to reattach her legs which only broke into smaller pieces.

In the confusion I eventually woke up. Not even mad, that's how it always ends. But it's rare to get that far at all.

Cute girl, some kind of minor sex symbol celebrity and her fans, a bunch of clamoring guys were on the other side of a chainlink fence like a bunch of dogs.

Somehow I'm on this side if the fence with her. One of the guys, pressed among the hoard of horny dudes, (kinda gay) challenges me. I say, "come on over, let's go." Somehow he momentarily turns into ground beef, but changes back.

Then he says to the girl, "can you take care of this guy for me?"

I turn to her and pucker my lips and she leans in and we kiss, it was a good kiss, very real, satisfying but quick.

Cucking others in dream: 8.2/10 could have been more.

>>6598
dream censorship strikes ahain huh?

I had an odd dream. My uncle came to dinner with my family and suddenly I noticed one of his eyes had a different color. It was green and also bigger. He said it was a glass eye because he had an accident. Suddenly I was in an advertisment for the glass eye and apparently you could even see with it if you turned blind. I tried to ask my uncle what had happened but he just said something about renovating his home and hitting himself into the eye with a wrench. He's not a DIY guy so that was suspicious but I still didn't realize it was a dream.

Bear and I had a dream that I was wearing a tanktop and shorts and straddling him as he caressed me. I've never been so embarrassed and humiliated but my dream self seemed to enjoy it.

Apparently I was telling him we can never have vaginal sex because our forms are incompatible. Then to my horror I offered two other options and he considered it.

I have put him in time out for his nasty dream mind.

>>6614
>>6618

Yeah, she was "embarrassed and humiliated" and so why is she traipsing around here like she's gloating or something.

[Joy] I didn't say I didn't like it, did I?

>>6614
>I was telling him we can never have vaginal sex because our forms are incompatible. Then to my horror I offered two other options and he considered it.
the fuck am i reading lol

>>6625
It was a dream and I'm not taking responsibility for it.

Another dream, this one not involving me, Bear was trying to turn possibly counterfeit bills into the bank while telling them he thought they might be counterfeit. Well one of them was a very crisp $50 bill but it was shaped like a 3x5 card. It had Teddy Roosevelt on one side and Hitler on the other with swastikas. It said 1923, a time when neither of them were in office and especially Hitler wouldn't be put on bills at that time.

Well the bank manager said it was 1 of 2 ever made and it was worth $220 million dollars and he could accept it on consignment. In the dream Bear had just lost his day job and now he was considering retirement.

Then his ex girlfriend was there and she thought it said $220k which certainly wouldn't be enough to retire comfortably. He wondered why he didn't have a receipt or even the wherewithal to take a picture of it.

Then he woke up and felt better he didn't have to deal with it.

Then he woke up.

>>6628
>Hitler banknote from 1923
Heh, 1923 Hitler was a criminal imprisoned for high treason after the failed Beer Hall Putsch here in Munich.
Also Adolf was never on a bank note.

I was me and there was no host in the entire dream. That's rare. I was investigating a waterfall or creek running down sandstone boulders with host's mom. It was in another country. maybe Australia. It was warm, savanna vegetation, the rocks were golden yellow and the water blueish green. Very beautiful.

I don't know what we were doing, but host's mother, a small woman in her 80s, was blasting the boulders with an infinite firehose as we climbed up. People mine gold like that in the Amazon but I think we were supposed to clean or decontaminate the area. The water blast was so massive that it razed entire trees off the rocks. Where the water came from was a mystery but it was basically the entire waterfall turned upwards.
I told her to take it easy as I was afraid all the water would come down on us again but it didn't. As I reached the top, the rapids gave way to a calm stream, I waded through it at Alice-breast-height. The water was not only standing but still flowing slowly away from me, so going upstream from the water blast. It was foaming a bit but otherwise very clear and blueish-green. I drank it. The stream was surrounded by a thicket of grape vines that hung down to the water. The grapes were the size of plums, light green with tiny red dots. I thought they were not ripe but they still tasted sweet when I ate a few. Even though I was in the water up to my chest it never felt wet. Very nice place, not like a certain snow- and monster- ridden wilderness.

Omg what an awful dream, there was a non-binary F presenting as male, I said "he" in the dream and she said "them!"

Everyone else left, we were in a library or something and I kissed her. I was so disgusted but technically she had a vag so it's not gay.

Girl (they) was fugly, spudly, like weak sad tits and just not attractive. Had zero feelings for her so why kiss? Then I had to wipe off makeup from my face. It was revolting on a lot of levels. Like if I kissed Gretta Thunberg

>>6903
>dream about kissing a tranny
wtf man
wash out your brain with soap

>>6907
Def trans I thought it wanted to be a he, passable beta soy as a dude but then it was obviously a girl wanting to be NB. Anyway fuck all that shit ew ew ew.

Tonight I was working with the Chinese, showing them how to grow vegetables vertically in a huge warehouse. They were in trays stacked 6 feet high. The dirt was synthetic.

I was at an unfamiliar place, maybe some kind of fair that consisted of several small buildings on a meadow. Each of the buildings was much larger on the inside. The attraction was a live stegosaur that had a spiny tail but lacked the plates on it's back. It was bright green.
There were lots of people I did not recognize. I was in one of the buildings that looked like the lobby of a tropical holiday resort. Rattan furniture, couches with orange pillows. Someone brought in the stegosaur on a leash and paraded it around. Some kids started teasing it and throwing stuff at it. I knew this was a bad idea and soon the stegosaur had enough, went on a rampage and started to toss the furniture around with swings of his spiny tail. I hid under one of the couches but it didn't feel a very safe place. but the guy with the leash managed to drag it back out like a disobedient dog.
A friend of mine came and told me to get out from under the couch because she wanted ice cream. For some reason I was more concerned about the fate of the dinosaur and went to look for it. It was brought to its preserve in a large silver trailer-kiosk operated by a Chinese woman. I asked her if the stegosaur was inside and she said yeah of course where else. I went to look for it and wasn't charged entrance fee. The inside of the trailer was huge, after crossing several museum rooms I reached the preserve, a sloped all-metal room with prehistoric vegetation, at least 20m across. Strangely nobody else was there and you could walk through it. The stegosaur was at the uppermost ridge minding his own business. There were also a giant brown snake curled up and a giant green frog that hopped toward me. I decided it was safer to leave. The next room was an identical setup but under construction, only metal ground, no vegetation or animals. I realized the size of it all was utterly absurd and only wanted to get out. Going up a slippery metal slope to reach the door, it went steeply downward to two doors left and right. This was the end and there were several people waiting in line. I soon realized these were the toilets. I asked a man if there was an exit and he laughed saying no, you have to go all the way back. What a shitty setup. What architect made this? So I had to walk all the way back and woke up at some point.

I was exploring an old Dracula-style castle in another country that apparently was Crimea, Ukraine. It was dark and old but not threatening. It was in fact a full family excursion. There was neighborhood loli, her mom, my former loli gang with several of their mothers - and Bear. Apparently we had decided to meet up at that castle IRL which was as cringe as it sounds. No tuppes, not even in mindvoice.
Apart from us the castle was empty and we roamed around freely. I arrived first with neighborhood loli and she demanded we play some board game on the floor where she was supposed to toss raw eggs on a board with markings without breaking them. She complained the distance was too small and we should move back which of course resulted in broken eggs. Disappointed she left to explore something else. It was getting dark, her mother could be heard somewhere in the distance and I needed all my loli-herding skills to keep her from disappearing somewhere in the castle which she eventually did. Like so many times IRL, I severely questioned her mother leaving me with her daughter. What a drag. Wandering around I finally met Bear in an old dining room high up in the castle. We were both younger, mid 20s and he didn't look as expected. A thin hippie with a Rasta ponytail. Sorry about that, I was just as confused. It was awkward and I didn't know what to talk about. I asked him how long it took him to come to Crimea from the US but in that second the loli-gang excursion entered through 2 doors, about 10 girls 12-14yo with mothers and some fat Eastern European maid who seemed to recognize Bear and also asked him how long it took him to get there. He lied and said he was from France and it only took him 2h.
Wtf it all made zero sense and there was now a crowd of people all talking at once. This kills the Bernd. One of the loli mothers told me they discovered a secret passage and I should go look at it. But it wasn't interesting at all and I had no ambition to go anywhere on my own.

Unexpectedly, the maid told everyone to sit down at a long table and started to serve dinner. It was some baked rodents, the heads still on with visible eyes, each had one open and one closed eye which made it look both comical and disgusting. Additionally for some reason she said she was serving fried cat.
The girls didn't seem to mind or thought it was a joke and started to dig in while chatting, it was as noisy as a bus load of children. Well whatever, this wasn't so bad, at least for a short while I was ok with it all and a nice change from my usual hermit life. At least there were no trannies or aggressive dinosaurs.

>>6920
>mid 20s and he didn't look as expected. A thin hippie with a Rasta ponytail.

There was a time in my late teens and early twenties that this description would fit to a greater degree than you think, I was 6'4 159, heavy into long distance biking and liberal to a T including long hair that I often put in a pony tail because it was so hard to manage. I cut it off later and saved it, about 12 inches long. No dreds though. I cut it off as part of that summer job with the rich people that mostly paid for my next 3 years of college.

Later I ditched even a duck tail, now I pretty much shave it off. The girls in my life say it's hotter that way.

Looks something like pic, not the face, my chin is more pronounced than his, but slim, not Jay Leno or giga chad. I definitely don't need to mew to get the strong chin, you should see my xray, my chin is above average length but with my huge head it works.

>>6922
The pic

>>6922
>>6923
Weird, how come you changed that much, physically and mentally? Host alwas looks the same though he got more of a right-wing extremist over time through countless disappointments.

Dreamt something about Nazi soldiers in black SS uniforms playing soccer on the street. They also had a small dog. We went to an unfamiliar apartment complex where host was supposed to water flowers of his ex gf who was away. But she was with him which made no sense. Her apartment was littered with large wooden boards which she painted with brown wood varnish. A lot more happened in the dream but we forgot. No Bear stuff for sure.

>>6958
>Weird, how come you changed that much, physically and mentally?

Dark times, complete devastation of Ego, walked through hell, worked out in anger phase, got laid regularly, then became a Bear.

>Host always looks the same though he got more of a right-wing extremist over time through countless disappointments.

At least you know he can't go any further right.

fuck man i dreamt something horrible
the drain hose of my washing machine was clogged. i unscrewed it and tried to get the dirt out. it was a dead decomposing rat that was stuck in the hose. i spent the entire dream getting the rat corpse out in pieces. the most gross dream i can remember. posting this is bad enough i will spare you an image

Was in college, but the college was a mic of my grade school, Jr. High and high school buildings and campuses.

People I hadn't seen in 10 years there, working retail for a teacher, selling high class jeans. I went to work for him and netted $48.47 for 2 hours of just sitting around. Our job was to wear the jeans and look cool, live models. Not a single customer. I wondered how he was making money.

Then I had to collect fluid from the hairless spread vagina of a petite Vietnamese girl wearing a blue jeans dress several times to count some measure of her immunity. While her brother watched. Then she walked away saying she needed a cold shower.

>>7019
so much wat I forgot the reaction image

It came close to something to do with Bestie but thank goodness nothing happened beyond her trying to grab my jock. Which irl she might do by accident and it's always awkward. She's always touching me and she's one of the few on the planet that I allow it otherwise they get a swift dodge from me. Like when someone wants to put their hand on my shoulder as a matter of emphasis, nope, that ain't happening.

So in the dream, there was another girl, naked or at least topless, she looked tribal, tan skin, but in a good way, something like Jessica Alba 20 years ago but more redder than brown in tone.

Anyway the long and short of it is sexy time was about to happen and Bestie wanted to grab my nethers and effectively c-blocked me.

Smh

>>7060
>only person allowed to touch bear jock is loli
>happens frequently in dreams and IRL

Nope, can't say that ever happened to me. not even in a dream

I did try to get involved with a cute tomboyish teen from the gym (definitely a girl). Needless to say it didn't work at all, I don't need a loli for that, the brain c-blocks itself.

Also Alice is probably gonna wordfilter self-censorship to restore the original word.

So, Ashley was in my dream and that was cool because we were specifically talking before bed about trying that.

And she looked really good, she was wearing a light blue shirt and like a vest kind of and jeans. She looked good, age appropriate 22 is what she was in-system, whatever she wants to be, fine.

Well we were examining a penis like a pair of scientists.

[Ashley] we didn't touch it it was like looking at anything ordinary.

>>7083
The Bear Brain sure is - interesting!

University dream this time!
I was out in nature when my phone rang. Very realistic. A professor I didn't know told me our recent project was not only rejected, we also were now under scrutiny and investigated by the UN. Even losing all academic titles was possible because we did something wrong in our theoretical framework. I had no idea what this guy was talking about but it didn't sound good.
Next scene I was at university, also unfamiliar. The professor, an elderly man with white curly hair and glasses sat in a chair before a giant screen. A lot of other scientists were also around. I recognized some from my study time.

He welcomed me and thanked me for coming and began to illustrate the problem.
The screen showed a very vivid scene of a meteor racing across the sky, filmed from the ground. It cast a shadow on the clouds above. The Professor paused the scene and commented that this is impossible, meteors don't cast shadows on clouds above. Well he was right but what this got to do with me was beyond me. I know very little about meteors, clouds or shadows.

He pressed a button on his remote and golden rays emerged from the meteor and formed a Black Sun symbol in glowing orange.

I suddenly burst into laughter saying this will get us arrested by the UN for sure! Another girl started laughing as well and for some reason this was so hilarious that we literally were lying on the floor laughing. No Bear Dream development though, woke up after that and still laughed.

I've had this before, dream stuff was incredibly funny for no reason. Just brain things. At least no penis involved.

>>7097
>No Bear tier dream

They are frequent.

I had a dream with Summer, she was wearing like a very loose fitting short sleeve short one piece that was like made out of paper like you see in the medical field but white. Showing off her calves and knees.

*She wanted my attention.*

I was laying down and she wanted to sit on me in a suggestive way.

I resisted like the gentleman I am.

I think Gwen was in there somewhere, I had the dream and snoozed then lost most of it. Gwen and I have had the dream sex plenty, she's my dream girlfriend after all, though she doesn't have wings in my dreams.

[Ashley] Meanwhile me... forever blocked from dream fun

>>7103
>I had a dream with Summer
How old did she look?

>>7112

10ish as usual

listen to this!
i finally made it. lucid dream fuck yeah literally.
was drifting back and forth from dream to awake in the morning. mostly nonsense but at some point it stabilized. i realized i was dreaming but only partly.

so here we go
i was outside in a scene like where our girls are now in dnd. wilderness with a gravel road. it was winter the trees on the hills in front of me were covered with frost and it was slightly snowing. but not cold. i was in a ditch beside the road and busy with other things
i swear im not a furfag but for some reason that Furfag catgirl ai video that was floating around kc some time ago came to my mind
so i was in a roadside ditch on top of that catgirl fucking her.

there were people on the road i couldnt really see. a black and white cat was strolling around. the men in grey suits discussed the succession of Lenin who had just died. one of them was Nikita Khrushchev i could see his ugly peasant face but he didnt see me. didnt care either

i was rolling around in the road ditch with the catgirl. i briefly realized i was in my bed but then snapped back into the dream. i rolled her over and she wrapped her legs around me. now or never! she was as tall as me so I could look into her eyes as i came inside her. fucking yes that was insane!
i kept lying on top of her for a while in the afterglow until i realized i was in bed again. i was sure i must have jizzed my pants but there was nothing. it was really a dream but fully realistic.

so realistic that i fell asleep again and was late for work but that was worth it 100%
-best lucid dream ever
-only dream orgasm i ever experienced
-creampied a catgirl

only thing missing was Yulya - was lucid enough that i tried to summon her but it didnt work. maybe next time!

>>7142
yeah i hope its a human grl next time.

something more fucked up last night.
russians finally invaded there were russian soldiers in my street. but they wore dark blue uniforms like police but different from ours. they were few and each was on his own no teamwork

the neighborhood was crazy realistic no dream nonsense. the whole setting looked like it really does. street with cars parked on both sides.
now im not Alice but i did what i must do. pulled my G19 and shot a fat guy in the head from a few meters away. maybe it was your talk of 9mm not doing shit but it did nothing. i dumped almost my entire mag into the russians head and neck. the bullets impacted and went under his skin. he appeared to be in pain and turn away but that was all. made no sign of collapsing. i always count rounds when firing and now i was down to 3 from 15. i backed away and hid between the cars. the soldier seemed to realize he was severely wounded and did what ive seen in so many ukraine war videos. took a grenade, pulled out the safety and put it into his mouth to commit suicide.

immediately a russian officer rushed to him, took away the grenade and gave the man a slap on the head. he seemed to tell him to get his shit together and they walked away together like nothing happened. The grenade did not explode. i was like wtf and woke up.

Managed to have sex with a girl (sic!)

Well sort of.
I don't remember the details but I was in a resort in space orbiting a small planet that looked vaguely like earth but with different continents. I could freely walk around outside in space, there was air but low gravity. Very vivid.

So don't ask me why but I managed to end up in bed with a girl with braids.

First she sat on top of me while wearing a summer dress. I was semi-lucid from the pace walk where I had managed to look at texture in detail so I tried to do what Kashtan did and roll her over to missionary. She was naked now andd had the body of a girl but there was a catch - her face was that of a boy now with very short hair. The fuck is wrong with my brain? I was lucid enough to attempt to correct this or even summon Alice but as always as soon as I struggle I gradually wake up. Still one of the best sex dreams in years.

>>7166
>Managed to have sex with a girl (sic!)
should i ask how old and do i really wanna know? what does Alice think of that?

>>7168
I don't care what he does in dreams, I wasn't even there.

>>7166
>the face of a boy with braids

Oh shit, you done did it son, I'm proud of you, you got her.

It ain't gay if she has the cuddlefish sandwich.

>>7361
Based jet cat
Host once had a dream where the brain interpreted rumbling from a nightly emergency construction site fixing a broken water pipe in our road as a monster or something. I don't remember. And crows making a ruckus also ended up in dream once.

In a world where the church oversaw all you can have any flavor you want as long as it's Christian. Certainly a utopia where the biggest worry was where I can get low cost rhinoplasty for a friend of mine. The answer of course was the church, there was only churches and church services.

Outside on a beautiful sunny day I stood in front of an Episcopalian church of some grandeur, I looked to the distance and saw a huge building, towering into the sky hundreds of stories, Evangelist, and behind that an order of magnitude larger, so large, so tall it was faded by atmospheric occlusion was possibly Orthodox, and I said, half jokingly, "that's the one where God must be."

There were still non-whites, but yes pur biggest concerns were cosmetic. Refreshing.

People literally lived and worked all kinds of professions inside the churches. At least medical and office work anyway.

>>7393
lol this would get the church more followers if they offered those services. doesn't seem too absurd for america, i can totally imagine churches offering plastic surgery there

Stupid dream.
My mother sent me to buy bread for her. So I went out and ended up in a sort of bazaar full of sandniggers. Very narrow, stuffed with everything you could imagine. I was looking for discounted bread as always, but there were also hobos who had taken all the cheap bread. The things had hand-written orange price-stickers on them like in my childhood. Couldn't read them because Arabic.I finally asked one of the shopkeepers for bread and he took out slices of very cheap white bread from under the counter. 5€ each. Because stupid and because dream, I bought 4 slices of cheap sandnigger bread for 20€ that were probably worth 20cts. On the way back I looked at the other things at the market. All sorts of handmade ceramic dishes, souvenirs, clothes. I looked at a poorly made porcelain bowl - and suddenly couldn't find my 20€ bread anymore. The market was closing and I ran around looking for the bread. What a mess. I was glad when I woke up.

>>7401

Oh California pricing.

I witnessed a very large meteor falling through the sky and it hit somewhere southwest over the hill and it was very bright. Exgf was there like we were still living together, she didn't see the meteor but did see the brightness and was worried what we should do, I said, plug your ears. I was thinking I better plug my ears or go inside since we were in the back yard, but then I woke up.

>>7402
wtf man i dunno if this is a deja vu or something but at least i think i had exactly the same dream. meteor flew over the house i covered my ears awaiting the shock wave. but nothing happened or i woke up. spooky.

>>7408

There's always hope.

I was on a moon of Jupiter looking up at the giant planet in the sky and there was so much wind it felt like we'd be blown off and fall into Jupiter. We were observing strange new vortices that looked like hurricanes but black and rounder.

Bestie, Ashley, Cici and Joy were there at least. Bestie and I were talking about how scientists wouldn't have believed these vortices were possible if they weren't here now. Like the hexigon on Saturn's north pole.

Was a bit scary because of the wind, there was a ship and a portal back to Earth. The moon had a cool dry wind which was obviously oxygen. It felt thin but the wind was strong.

>>7419
so many girls in your dreams. even in space

>>7423
black men only

>>7426

Obviously only North Africans, but thet tend to throw their shit around and chippy takes care of them.

How tf u know?

i met a girl from high school on the street. she wasnt the prettiest and a bit chubby but still nice. we had to work on some shit together so i gave her my mail and phone number. for some reason i said id give her my email but then said my phone number, that was odd. ofc nothing further happened.

Traveling always causes me vivid dreams. this one was long and - odd.

I was in a huge supermarket and looking for something I can't remember. I knew I had seen it before but couldn't find the place anymore. The supermarket was closing, and running around mindlessly like I always do, I accidentally exited it through one of many exits finding myself on the street or some logistics area, fearing they wouldn't let me in again. Some sandnigger teen girls in headscarfs passed by laughing, seemingly unaware of the distress I was in.
Then I was in a posh shopping area that was inside an old 19th century building. Everything was a bit 'artsy', like a green party voter's nest. I decided to eat something and saw people lingering around in a small restaurant in a plaza of this shopping mall. Next to some guy was a red sign saying 'bison burger', undoubtedly inspired by Kashtan's roadkill discussion. It was surprisingly cheap, so why not. I asked if the restaurant was still open and the guy got up from talking to his friends (all art student type) and said yeas sure sit down what you wanna drink? I asked what they got and he said pear and apple juice, showing me the bottles, which were from a local discount supermarket. I asked if he had just water and he flinched, but said he'll organize it and I should wait a minute. So he was the owner. He placed my order on my table while passing by and said that's 329€. Now I was the one flinching, but he was collecting the bill from the group where he had sat and didn't mean me. A young woman was sighing. So it was expensive. I somehow never paid but found myself walking through an unfamiliar city that was supposed to be Munich, but looked very different. More like Italy or Spain. Very green. I positively noted that there were no niggers anywhere, talking to myself aloud when a nigger overtook me on a bike. He didn't hear it and looked decent, like all the other art-student people. I again remarked I don't mind a few niggers if they behave decently.
I noticed that in several places, strange young people stood around, holding a pale rainbow flag behind them with both hands. Often on stairs. I had to evade them while walking. They didn't talk or even look at me so again I mused to myself that young people strive to belong to some group or find a common purpose and it was sad that this homo or tranny shit was the best society had to offer to them. Well whatever. At some point I had a dream revelation. I (falsely) remembered having read that those were autists 'raising awareness' that they needed personal space and didn't like others coming to close, let alone accidentally touching them (does this sound familiar to anyone here?).

I don't like people who 'raise awareness' or activists in general, so I decided to test my hypothesis. Soon there was another such 'person'. 'They / Them (I couldn't find out if this was supposed to be a boy or girl but looked more like a girl) stood in the middle of the sidewalk, sticking out their stupid flag. Alright! I passed the 'person', literally having to squeeze by and purposefully brushed against 'it' then stopped pretending to check my phone while we were back on back. I heard an outcry from the autist behind me. "Noo, are you serious? I have to change all my clothes now!" A Karen came rushing in comforting the autist and yelled to me "You'll have to pay! We'll make it so you'll have to pay for what you did!

I pretended I didn't hear anything while walking on like a boss. Felt good man. I woke up laughing. But then I realized the whole thing might become a reality in a few years and you could go to jail for not keeping an arm length of distance from others as a disgusting cis white neurotypical man. I wouldn't rule out any madness at this point anymore.

>>7444
Haha, what the hell? At least you got trips.
I dreamed I was renovating my kitchen but nothing worked and everything constantly warped and disappeared. I almost realized this was a dream because I would not renovate my kitchen myself. Almost!

>>7450
>Bear even more racist than Bernd
lol what kind of time-line is this?

>>7455

I'm not saying it's not fair to say, only that I'm really bad and hypocritical wrt rasism considering my best friend since hs is half Jewish and married a muslim woman. Exgf was half Hispanic.

Still, we know who, statistically, has the issues.

>>7458
It does not happen very often that people lecture me for being too friendly to niggers. But I appreciate it and vow to do better. But niggers are less of a problem here in Europe - simply because they are still very few. Our main issue are arabs as they are magnitudes more. Also they are way more organized. Niggers are just wild animals. Arabs are mafia clans. Needless to say, both should not be here, but it's not their fault. It's ours for letting them in.

Well, regarding retards, the only option is Aktion T4. That would be the best and final solution as well as an act of mercy.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Aktion_T4

>>7460

>not their fault

Jesus Christ

The Black Iron Prison (Philip K Dick)

You are in it, you potentially don't even know you are.

It is not a single walled box but many layers, each constraining individual responces to stimuli. It is programming (conditioning) that compells you to act within confined corridors.

Some can be removed through modern psychotherapy, some or the strongest ones, triggers, compulsions, and moods can be removed through self-directed regression therapy, started by simply asking yourself, "what is the root of this behavior?" Discovering the original trauma and resolving it by telling yourself that you're not the same person you used to be (distancing), putting in safeguards to prevent it happening again (security, root), and resolving, accepting, repairing or forgiving it so that it doesn't keep triggering the compulsions. You repeat this for several months on each trigger or compulsion and eventually the prison isn't as constraining.

You can go from mostly constrained to mostly free. True freedom may ultimately not quite happen but it will feel like it's good enough relatively early in the process.

Complacency is both a gift and a curse, as you can feel good enough yet still suffer occasional problems. Pushing the process to remove those will pay back benefits.

Time and reality itself becomes arbitrary, personality becomes fluid and arbitrary, reactions become a choice, not a compulsion. Emotions are something to experience rather than be controlled by.

It's up to you.

>>7463
good shit
but i guess the problem is te ppl who need this the most lack the discipline to do it. or self awareness in general. i quit smoking long ago. same with drinking myself under the table. feels good man. i cant even imagine doing such stupid shit i did in my youth anymore

>>7464

The awakening usually occurs when you get kicked so hard in the butt you taste shit. When you're suicidal or broken, utterly suffering, then you're willing to give up on status quo.

You have to break the foundations of what you are and question everything you believe, then after this you understand that even belief is arbitrary, truth is subjective, reality then becomes a fuction of your take and beliefs.

In the end it's all a huge cope but it's good because you stop giving a shit. About what losers say.

>>7462
You can't blame a nigger for doing nigger things, a retard for doing retard things or a venomous snake for doing venomous snake things. It's their nature. But you must keep all of them out of Western society - unless you want utter chaos.

>>7463
Yes, you gave this advice before. It works, but it's hard. Like Kashtan said, for NPCs merely reacting to stimuli without any internal self-reflection, this is unobtainable. Even for me as HSP this is really hard even thouh I over-analyze things. But not being controlled by certain emotion is difficult. I try. It's much better than when I was younger and any negative response from another person was world-shattering. Not that I cared about their opinion, but the words still hurt.

One remark - the problem is less 'me' but the BodyOS which reacts to stimuli with certain emotions. Even if I realize that these reactions are nonsense, the body still acts this way. The Body OS is lazy and stubborn and doesn't like interference.

>>7472
I guess I've never been even remotely this low. Which is both good and bad.

>>7473

>can't blame

I can and will blame them for committing the atrocities and you and your kind for allowing leniency and making up excuses. When a Puma bites a hiker here, it dies. No trial, no peers, no suicidal empathy. I'd rather a puma live then these monsters that rape and plunder.

Your notions that they can't help it is leftist bullshit, comrade, we are all equal in rights and accountability.

>it's hard

It's hard to let go, even to let go of suffering, as if you own this suffering. You don't own the suffering, the suffering is a consequence of believing you own it.

The root of suffering is attachment. Belief is an attachment.

>It's unattainable

Your beliefs make your reality; with this belief, indeed it is.

>controlled by emotions

The emotions being in control is a symptom, the cause is unresolved trauma from long ago. Find it, resolve it, and the control evaporates without further effort.

>hurt

As assholes full of themselves on Reddit would say: Who is the one hurt? Who hurt them?

I add: Was it just now or long ago and this is just resonating on the original trauma?

What they mean is, you must identify with the one who is hurt to be hurt. And that comes back to attachment. What and who are you?

>BodyOS

You are not the body, you are not the conscious mind, these are tools and machines that are designed for you to identify with, but you don't have to. They control you because you let them, the laziness is on you though, all you have to do is resolve the underlying issues, ask yourself why and seek that answer.

>not this low

Good because it sucks, good because you don't have to walk through hell to experience heaven, bad because you may never see heaven and it's nice, it's really nice. Nirvana is the goal because it is both worthy and very nice. It's freedom to feel and think without attachment and that's quite a gift if you can manage it.

Joy was named ironically because she was so beat down and suffering so badly (as a character) that she was incapable of experiencing "joy" and I can tell you now that she is joyful, more so than anyone else in this family because she had that contrast and can therefore appreciate it the most. She may not have been that character in reality, but she can choose to identify with any part of it as it suits her, just as we all can. We are simply all soulbonds and our history was written in time and memory instead of some book. Wake up and realize this and you no longer have to be that NPC character. From that moment forward you write your own story, and it's completely arbitrary so make it a fun one that you enjoy fully.