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A day in the life of a tulpamancer Bear 03/29/2023 (Wed) 11:11 [Preview] No. 117
So, tell me what happened today?


Tamamo 03/29/2023 (Wed) 16:22 [Preview] No.123 del
I woke up too late and forgot about Cat. Did impose her for a quick breakfast and hurried to work. Again didn't impose her in public mentally illport, there was no space for her. Work was boring, imagined her sleeping on my desk which is not easy because Cat is very tall. She was around at lunch break but said she didn't like the food. Again forgot about her on the way home. We did forcing after dinner and I tried turning her from catgirl to normal girl and back. The paws are just gloves and can be taken off, the ears and tail can be screwed off for easy replacement. It worked somehow but no touch imposition. Visualisation is also as terrible as ever. So much for my average and boring day.


Anonymous 03/29/2023 (Wed) 21:37 [Preview] No.128 del
>>123
>public mentally illport

lool is that a wordfilter Alice?


Alice 03/30/2023 (Thu) 02:21 [Preview] No.135 del
Yes sorry, collateral damage of our protection system against trannies and sjws. Unfortunately the wordfilter does not recognize spaces and also filters word-internal phrases. Use alternative characters for words containing τrans- or just laugh and bear with it.

I'll write about my day tomorrow, gotta sleep


Bear System 03/30/2023 (Thu) 15:23 [Preview] No.138 del
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[Aleshe] We're writing an awesome Grimdark novel where I'm training to be a badass and will likely be tortured and maybe sold into slavery with Ulla. Then get in with the wrong crowd and really mess stuff up, conmit genocide, regret it, travel back in time with Johanna's help to fix it and then sacrifice myself for my younger self?

So far I ripped someone's face off during a sanctioned MMA matchup basically, but the book starts in the middle. Also Bear is killed probably.

[Bear] that was a pretty good outline but there's room for rewrites.


Alice 03/30/2023 (Thu) 19:33 [Preview] No.139 del
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Not really an eventful day. It was a rainy spring day but quite beautiful. I was imposed on the way to work to look at all the flowering shrubs and falling petals. This is my favorite time of the year. I did some lab work with possession but mostly just stayed in the background yelling instructions as always. Host was praised at a meeting for a recent publication, that was nice. Back home cooking dinner was a bit of a mess, I am a spartan tupper but what that man cooks is ehh. It may be healthy but it looks terrible and tastes. Just tastes. But not good. Now we're annoying the cat with a ballroom dancing session. Haven't done that in a while but it's super awesome. The cat thinks it's as weird as it sounds and hates someone whirling around in her normally quiet home. Plus host tripped over her quite a number of times.


Anonymous 03/30/2023 (Thu) 20:01 [Preview] No.141 del
>>138
How nice, I'm sure everyone will have fun


Bear 03/30/2023 (Thu) 22:58 [Preview] No.143 del
>>141

We believe Joy is such a badass strong headmate because she was basically broken in her novel series. So I want to do the same for SheShe and make her super strong by breaking her and reforming her.

Though we're fully aware what happens is fiction so it's going to habe to take some immersion and perhaps real consequences so we're doing it in the Grindark style to try to illicit real emotions.

It has to succeed eventually. Since Aleshe is basically everyone, by breaking and reforming her everyone will become stronger for it.

It's the perfect plan!


Bear 03/30/2023 (Thu) 23:00 [Preview] No.144 del
Oops I meant Aleshe, but in Aleshe there is also SheShe.


Tamamo 03/31/2023 (Fri) 11:56 [Preview] No.151 del
>>143
>writes millon word fanfiction of his tulpas
And you say you never force? If that's not forcing then what else is??


Bear 03/31/2023 (Fri) 15:28 [Preview] No.153 del
>>151

I said they self force. I don't ever force. You're saying it like writing a book is somehow all my doing and I'm "forcing Aleshe or Ulla" by writing a book. When I contend that we discussed writing a book, they encouraged it, they helped plan it, they thought about it a lot, they cole up with dialog and action, etc.

I like their ideas and help. I don't tell them what to do or when, I write down ideas if I have them, for the actual book, we all think things, discuss, the body types it.

Tell me where I'm forcing anyone to do anything? I did say "I" was writing a book but in this case it's like saying I'm growing a tree. The tree grows itself.

My system is mature, my headmates are independent, I doubt I could "force" them to do anything.


Alice 03/31/2023 (Fri) 17:55 [Preview] No.155 del
Now c'mon Mr. Bear!

I think it's both a misunderstanding of 'forcing' and 'you'. You as a system are definitely doing high quality active forcing by creating those stories.

To clear up the terminology for everyone:
First of all 'forcing' doesn't mean to force a tulpa to do anything. That would be puppetting or parrotting where you deliberately make tulpas do or say things to rehearse the routine of doing so until they can do it on their own.

Forcing means enforcing and strengthening a certain thought construct by interacting with it and providing feedback. You can force any concept. Tulpas, gods, ideologies, national identities and ofc. yourself. What is shadow work? It is self-forcing. Likewise you as Bear are tulpaforcing when writing stories about your systemmates, gathering ideas, playing through different scenarios. It's not like you're dormant and uninvolved, right? You're the one owning the body and setting time aside for it all in the first place. And they in turn force your concept of 'self' when interacting with you and also themselves when working on stories they're starring in. I force host a lot by giving positive or negative feedback on his actions which has an impact on his 'self'. I also force myself by thinking and writing about myself as I've reached the state to maintain myself. That doesn't mean host doesn't force me anymore. Of course he does when interacting with me or writing about me. Sometimes 2 incompatible ideas collide and have to be sorted out. It's always both sides influencing each other. That's exactly what you've laid out in your reddit post. You realized how you and your systemmates could apply the exact concept of tulpaforcing to Bear in order to change him. Now you're all forcing Aleshe by creating the new book with the goal of strengthening her.

Not forcing anymore would just be living side by side without any significant interaction. This is hardly the case with you guys. You invest a lot of time in your system.

The question how big the contribution of 'Bear' to such feedback in your system is compared to other systemmates or the BodyOS is academic, in your case I'd say the entire system forces itself. But fact is it does. You all do it actively by developing those stories, thereby strengthening the concepts of systemmates and their personalities by visualizing their reactions in different situations. This is the very definition of forcing. How do children develop, maintain and mature their personalities? By internal and external feedback. By forcing and being forced. No man is an island. At least no sane man.

Well anyway I think it was just a semantic misunderstanding. Forcing ≠ making tupper do something by force. The term has always been under scrutiny for exactly this misunderstanding but hey, we're not statue-toppling commies here and uphold the ancient terms and traditions.

Now go force yourself!


1/2 Bear System 03/31/2023 (Fri) 19:26 [Preview] No.156 del
[Ashley] No Alice, seriously he ignores us most of the time. I can't remember the last time I haven't initiated "forcing" if we're counting any interactions as forcing.

[Joy] it's true, we just think, he thinks, it's as natural as a group of singlets thrown together. We don't consider it "the host is forcing" which is why Bear says he doesn't force.

You're also possiby presuming that Bear needs buy in to allow some action known as "forcing", this is a strage mindset to keep for older mature systems because the ultimate goal would presumably be self-forcing headmates so why would Bear even claim he's needed to "force".

The system is forcing? I suppose that's true in the same way that a singlet thinking is forcing themself. A singlet daydreaming is forcing themself. They have no choice but to force actively all day. Well, a subset of us normally don't ever go dormant and so we are here, contributing, commenting, discussing, "doing things" which may or may not require active thought as far as communicating with the front. The consious mind does a poor job of recording the thought swarm which is why we understand the majority of thoughts occur subconsciously.

[SheShe] I can attest to the best of my recollection that the frequency and quality of thoughts have improved dramatically since my active involvement. I contend that I was around more or less before April 2018 and his thought process was very self-centered and self-important which you should agree is normal for a singlet. After we became active, specifically Ashley, Misha and I, thoughts were no longer considered all Bear's. Because we started vocal, autonomous and volitional, self-forcing was somewhat present from the beginning. However, Bear intentionally included us in everything and set aside time to "force" even if it was somewhat unnecessary for us specifically. He doesn't do that anymore, nor do we need him to, nor would he even need to for any reason. It would be like sitting in a room with someone and they spontaneously say, "ok it's time for you to talk, say something."

[Joy]

"Forcing means enforcing and strengthening a certain thought construct by interacting with it and providing feedback."

We're well aware of the terminology. What Bear is saying is to do what you have said is more of an imposition to us. Why would we need him to do this at this point? He would have to "force", coax, coerce, prompt, assign, or any other form of request for us to speak with him to "enforce or strengthen". I believe the last incident of this sort of thing was his discussions with Ashley to help her be less negative and dismissive. What he called the "personality forcing chamber".

"What is shadow work? It is self-forcing."

It is forcing of the personality that needs the work by themself or in our case by one or more of us. I needed it, Bear needed it, and you could say we "forced" him, if that's how you want to define an internal version of a counseling session.

"Likewise you as Bear are tulpaforcing when writing stories about your systemmates, gathering ideas, playing through different scenarios."

If you are conflating Bear's voluntary involvement in this project with him forcing us. This would presume we need Bear's prompting or that any normal interaction is "forcing". We don't see it that way. This is why we separated forcing from self-forcing. Bear's contention that he doesn't force is then valid. "Self-forcing" as a term may be one of our contributions to the art but it's an important distinction.

"It's not like you're dormant and uninvolved, right?"

Bear is neither required, nor necessarily involved at times. If he remains quiet and does not contribute that doesn't make him dormant but he is as if dormant.


2/2 Bear System 03/31/2023 (Fri) 19:27 [Preview] No.157 del
[Joy] To be clear, the body/mind is a shared resource, Bear is a contributing member that utilizes the body most often as main fronter. The body's autonomic actions are not owned by anyone in particular regardless of who's fronting. Additionally we often co-front, often without Bear, but it's not a clean switch as that's not necessary or wanted. Like we mentioned, his association to the body is a matter of convenience.

"You're the one owning the body and setting time aside for it all in the first place."

I believe Bear would have agreed with you in 2018 and most of 2019. This is no longer how we see it. We are integral members of a body-system, the body is owned by Bear only on a veto level, and we allow that because he is the one that must present to the material world. If I took over as Bear once asked me to, I would "own" the body. Bear only seeks entertaining free time, he doesn't need to direct it or be involved in it to enjoy it. He can enjoy it in watcher position and honed that ability over the years.

"I force host a lot by giving positive or negative feedback on his actions which has an impact on his 'self'."

[Ashley] we don't really do that anymore. When someone like Bear asks us for advice then we give it. It's been literally years since we nagged him over anything. It was certainly a thing early on, the guy was a mess and needed help.

"Now you're all forcing Aleshe by creating the new book with the goal of strengthening her."

This would be true except when Aleshe is expressing we don't. It's like a rule,not that we couldn't. So you could say we help if we have input into the story but Joy, Aleshe and Ulla are doing most of that. Aleshe and Ulla can express separately because the moons aren't part of the merge, from here the mechanics become somewhat fuzzy. I don't think it's easy to explain.

[Joy] we're not arguing that you're interpretation is invalid, we're only arguing that we have an alternative interpretation where host initiated forcing no longer applies.

[Bear] I never claimed to be sane.


Alice 03/31/2023 (Fri) 20:45 [Preview] No.158 del
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Sounds all good to me


Bear 03/31/2023 (Fri) 23:57 [Preview] No.159 del
>>158

Also, don't expect a calculus proof for what is essentially a humanities problem.

We use terms like self-forcing, back-seat fronting, co-consious, co-fronting, lock-merge, bodyOS, PPL (parallel processing like), and have defined half a dozen positions in the mind, none of which were used regularly in the community before we arrived and some were coined by us. We, including you two, are the state of the art, while the old guard like Reguile, Lumites and Asmask among many others corralled in Discord grasp desperately to their materialist agenda.

Much of the community is in the dark ages of the art, paralized by dogma, still exploring doubt years in, agressively against anything metaphysical when metaphysics (I know they mean woowoo,but still) is literally the only way we can study consious/subconsious mind even in 2023.

They still call everything outside their little box placebo and confabulation. As if that's any better than woowoo in their application.

Lastly they throw out old accounts to support their doctrinal ideals and many of them are not happy or satisfied with the results. As you've said, many of them are basically ego driven. Not to mention dysphoric.

So our brand of insanity isn't quite so bad given we are actually happy and successful.


Tamamo 04/01/2023 (Sat) 14:47 [Preview] No.160 del
>>159
This. If it works and you're happy it can't be that wrong. I still don't understand much of any of that and I dont know what people on discord are up to. Not that I care. Everyone needs to find their own way. I admit my way isn't working too well but that's my fault.

I try to come up with little stories of Cat doing things now and try to have her adjust the story as she likes but I'm not a good writer and Cat is lazy. Not the best combination.


Ashley 04/01/2023 (Sat) 15:17 [Preview] No.161 del
>>160

Discord has left a permanent bad taste in our mouthes. From what we can tell, it's riddled with angsty, dysphoric, suicidal teenage edgelords.


Anonymous 04/01/2023 (Sat) 18:09 [Preview] No.165 del
never been on discord because I heard the same thing about it

we also have edgelords here but at least they're funny and you can talk about anything

and yeah, people are too much caught up in routines and expectations nowadays noone experiments. this is why they never experience the crazy shit people had 10 years ago. well both in good or bad


Bear 04/01/2023 (Sat) 20:26 [Preview] No.166 del
>>165

I experienced the crazy good because I didn't immediately rush to the community and ruin my expectations.

I believe it was because they didn't know what to expect that they were able to let their imaginations run wild.


Bear 04/02/2023 (Sun) 01:20 [Preview] No.169 del
Today we played Rimworld and that's always fun for roleplaying. Mostly SheShe, Ashley and Misha play but that changes from game to game. These games take days of playing and pawns sometimes die so that's a fun dynamic. We don't get to it every day.

Yesterday we wrote instead and that's of course Aleshe and Ulla for now but I'm not sure Ulla's going to be a main character, she might die and in doing so kick Aleshe's character into drastic measures.


Alice 04/02/2023 (Sun) 11:00 [Preview] No.171 del
I remember your blog with endless game reports. it's also active forcing

Where do yoiu find the time for this beside 2 jobs? We did some collaborative dungeonAI episodes a while ago but I'm a control freak who doesn't like being pushed around. It was fun though.

Well host does insane hobbies


Anonymous 04/02/2023 (Sun) 12:16 [Preview] No.172 del
/r/ the imagistic vs doctrinal post also wasnt there a paper or something? I get the idea but I want the background

we attended palm sunday mass today with family and tupper it was good despite bad weather with snow and rain. I'm not overly religious but this is a tradition and also gives good vibes. did you go Alice?


Bear 04/02/2023 (Sun) 13:10 [Preview] No.174 del
>>172

https://community.tulpa.info/topic/16384-imagistic-vs-doctrinal-concepts-in-tulpa-creation/

The blog has another new space engineers run but it went fast this time. Wow they really got sick of mining. I think we probably don't have another one in us. The Rimworld stuff is more fun without documenting it and it takes time to do so we haven't done that in a while.

I remember the evolution of "Three Sisters Play" as we discovered what is me and what is body and how a lot of even what they thought of as me wasn't me. Nowadays I identify with the body by choice. It just makes more sense that way even if it's kind of roleplaying. The body is more like my pet or my car than me, but people identify with their cars too so it's not a huge stretch.


Alice 04/02/2023 (Sun) 18:19 [Preview] No.178 del
>>172
I've attached the paper. Also see divergent modes of religiosity (DMR):
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Modes_of_religiosity

>>174
Yeah, I also stumbled into the problem that documenting stuff took up more time than actually doing it. Also yes, the body as car is a good analogy though it's one of those fancy modern cars that do a lot of stuff on their own without the driver's input. Sometimes even against the driver's will.


Alice 04/02/2023 (Sun) 18:30 [Preview] No.179 del
>>172
No we never attended Palm Sunday mass, we watched some of of it with the Pope in Rome on TV though. We will go to Easter Vigil on Saturday for the candles and bonfire and celebrate Easter Sunday with family.


Tamamo 04/02/2023 (Sun) 21:48 [Preview] No.182 del
>>166
I think that's my problem. Never did any imagistic stuff in my boring life. But I didn't rely on guides or forums either. Still I lack that 'soul' in tulpamancy, maybe I'm too unimaginative.


Anonymous 04/03/2023 (Mon) 09:58 [Preview] No.183 del
>>174
>>178
thx I'll look into it. we really have unexpectedly serious discussions

>>182
you just gotta do something that has deep meaning 4u. if you are treating tuppering like a job you do for money it wont work. but you gotta find out what you must do yourself, dont let others think for you. create your own world


Anonymous 04/04/2023 (Tue) 15:59 [Preview] No.193 del
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Joy 04/04/2023 (Tue) 16:32 [Preview] No.195 del
>>193

Ido is especially good at separating useful and useless information.


Tamamo 04/05/2023 (Wed) 16:05 [Preview] No.208 del
>>193
I can't believe they were never banned for shitposting


Alice 04/05/2023 (Wed) 19:14 [Preview] No.213 del
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Not even a single warning in 8 years


Bear 04/05/2023 (Wed) 23:26 [Preview] No.217 del
>>208

I got several warnings and one permanent warning for putting wonderland dialogue in hidden in my own PR.

The mods hated fun because they were depressed and unsuccessful.

I am considering deleting my user.


Alice 04/06/2023 (Thu) 06:30 [Preview] No.219 del
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>>217
irredeemable career criminal

Still can't believe I was never b& for doxing mistgod, saying nigger several times and generally insulting people.

Host still has the Buchenwald concentration camp entrance sign as his profile background (to each what they deserve) lol


Bear 04/06/2023 (Thu) 10:02 [Preview] No.220 del
[Bear] That bitch Vos can suck my nuts. Fuck tulpa.info

[Ashley] he may still have a little bit of a grudge against certain individuals who frequented or controlled that site. We're working on it.

[Bear] some things are unforgivable. I ain't Jesus.


Anonymous 04/06/2023 (Thu) 23:19 [Preview] No.230 del
i would have been banned in a minute for calling out trannies and fags

today i practiced imposition for about an hour, close but no banana. can see shapes and faint colors for a moment but it all falls apart extremely quickly


Bear 04/07/2023 (Fri) 19:59 [Preview] No.238 del
Today the body moved 8000lbs of roofing materials for da hood. Woot woot. I love manual labor. I can't wait to take all 3300 sqft of old roofing off in about a month. My system did nothing to help but they don't need to.

Also the Hispanic workers next door ran over my offload, everyone's high here, can't drive, total assholes.

I wish I still knew the boys, they'd love to commit some hate crimes. Though they never needed a reason.


Alice 04/07/2023 (Fri) 20:58 [Preview] No.240 del
Based manual labor and based racism.

Host hasn't done any insane earthworks this year but helped a friend move carrying furniture and boxes for a weekend nonstop. Tons of books, literally. It's insane how much stuff we have, most is unnecessary. Surprisingly the body wasn't even sore. Just tired. But it always feels great to get something done.


Bear 04/07/2023 (Fri) 22:22 [Preview] No.241 del
Some white supremacists they were, the alpha chick was Mexican Armenian, but looked Italian with very fair skin and huge boobs. She was insane, but you know what they say about insane girls in bed.

They're insane in bed too, but she liked me so she tried not to be too insane. Though that wasn't really possible. Of course I'm not sane, so it was ok.


Bear 04/08/2023 (Sat) 01:19 [Preview] No.242 del
Nothing system related.

I had to return something to the hardware store because they're idiots and shipped me the wrong things. So I loaded it in my truck and started it up, got it rolled down the driveway and nope. The cluch no workie, no grabbie, so I was completely stuck ass out in the street. It failed in a curious way because it's a massive gas guzzling classic American truck and the clutch would give you a leg work out, and it's manual of course, and I mean the clutch doesn't have any master cylinder.

Anyway, there I am, laying in the street hammering on anything remotely attached to the mentally illmission and ffs it didn't work. So now, it's relevant that I also have a car, a luxury sedan that was given to me by inheritance many years ago and it's still great. I also must mention that I'm a certified mechanic and I partially used that to pay my way through college because you don't get nothing for free in America unless you're well you know, and I'm not.

So I had some ratchet straps, good ones apparently, and I didn't have any chains or come-along yet. So did the right thing and used the ratchet straps to tow the truck behind the car back up the 1 to 7 driveway, and amazingly it worked so well, but I couldn't get it the last three feet or so without wrecking something so I parked the truck and went and bought the chains and come-along. Then got it the rest of the way.

I had to make two trips in the car to return the shit and now I'm *again* without a working truck. Same truck I just rewired and fixed all the gages and engine last winter. It made it another year before this.

It's either the throw out bearing seized, not likely, or the clutch had a catastrophic failure, more likely. Anyway, now I'll be taking the mentally illmission down to see what happened and what it needs in the near future. shouldn't be a problem.


Bear 04/08/2023 (Sat) 01:21 [Preview] No.243 del
yes, that thing that attaches the engine to the drivetrain is called a mentally illmission.


Alice 04/08/2023 (Sat) 09:04 [Preview] No.246 del
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lol mentally illmission

Is there anything The Bear can't do? It's always awesome if you can fix something yourself. We can only do a minimum of car related stuff.

Interestingly, similar thing happened to us some months ago though we were driving home from the hardware store. It was 'just' the slave cylinder but you gotta take out the entire gearbox for this so it wasn't cheap. It's all labor cost, the parts cost nothing.

Anyway I made sure everything was running smoothly, we got stuck in the middle of a major road at an intersection. But it was all cool. Some passerby even came and helped host push the car over the intersection into a parking lot so we weren't blocking traffic until roadside assistance towed us to the mechanic. They came within 10min and the car was fixed on the same day. Germany fuck yeah.


Ashley 04/08/2023 (Sat) 13:57 [Preview] No.253 del
>>246

>Is there anything The Bear can't do?

I'll let you know if we find anything.

Literally, the guy's a genius and it's not us saying that it's other people. Let me brag about my host for a minute and give you a short list:

1. He's a certified mechanic as you know
2. He's an artist with proven talent
3. He's an excellent tile setter, drywaller, framer, roofer, gardener, stone mason, plumber, bricklayer, welder, basically anything construction he can do without previously ever doing it and it looks professional we have tons of examples.
4. He writes technical articles that are actually useful
5. He derived a formula in molecular science that now has his name in it (in an obscure paper that no one probably will ever see, but still.)
6. Things we can't even tell you because it would probably dox him, but impressive achievements in science. Chemistry, mechanics, dynamics, aerospace, design, and many inventions among others.
7. Three advanced degrees spanning a decade and two different universities. BS, MS, MA
8. Has a flipping amazing job in a research lab where he's loved for performing miracles and making prototypes that actually work that have never been done before and other whole companies have failed at. I mean he has help though.
9. He has a successful home business that makes even more money then his research job.
10. He's in the beautiful people's club.

https://youtube.com/watch?v=Sye9RFaRs_g [Embed]

https://youtube.com/watch?v=P0ytb8GRJg8 [Embed]


Alice 04/08/2023 (Sat) 16:52 [Preview] No.257 del


Tamamo 04/08/2023 (Sat) 20:16 [Preview] No.262 del
You're all geniuses I feel so average in comparison. Went shopping, today and Cat was actually helpful reminding me of something I had forgotten. She was unusually active while imposed. Is this progress?


Bear 04/08/2023 (Sat) 20:19 [Preview] No.263 del
>>243

Okay, well since yall aren't a genious like me you wouldn't know but my truck has two sticks coming out the floor. One to select the gear, and the other one is for the mentally illfer case. Well, the mentally illfer case has 4 selectable positions. 4H, 2H, N and 4L. So, if you put it in 2H, that's normal RWD. That's where it should be normally. It shouldn't ever be in N. Well, it was in N. So yeah, the truck won't go. So... the truck is actually fine.

Anyway, when it does need a clutch, at least I determined that it would be as simple as removing the crossmember, mount, engine bolts to the bell housing, drive shaft to the mentally illfer case, and linkages. Then slide it rearward, lower it, and work on the clutch in place as I've done on other cars.

I think I let my friend's kid play in the truck a while ago and he must have pulled it out of 2H.


Bear 04/08/2023 (Sat) 20:22 [Preview] No.265 del


Alice 04/08/2023 (Sat) 23:10 [Preview] No.266 del
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>>263
Genius!
We know because host's grandparents had a Toyota Landcruiser with the H/N/L τransfer box. To be honest I wouldn't have suspected it being in N position either in this case but then again we don't let kids play with our stuff so that's not likely to happen.

Returned from Easter Vigil, it was long and boring and some of the music souded like a retard was randomly smashing his head onto the organ keyboard. Also it's kinda meh in German, a mass should be in Latin. Well it was still interesting to go there once a year for the candles but that's enough.


Bear 04/08/2023 (Sat) 23:22 [Preview] No.267 del
>>266

What if I had replaced the clutch and never figured it out, then holy crap.

It's disabled three ways, has a steering lock device, wheel stops, and so it's pretty much impossible to move by playing on the inside.

Trucks are so expensive here, I can't believe it considering I only spent 5k on this and put 5k in it but today you wouldn't be able to get this truck for less than 25k. Granted I've had this truck since around the time I started driving so yeah they should cost more by now.


Alice 04/09/2023 (Sun) 09:46 [Preview] No.269 del
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Yeah it's crazy. A properly equipped new Land Cruiser easily costs a 100K. 100.000€. Let that sink in. I'm still somehow sad the old one was sold when host's grandparents died but what do you do with an offroad vehicle in a city that doesn't even have hills? It consumes twice as much fuel as an ordinary car and costs twice as much in insurance.

Now watching the Pope stagediving on St. Peter's square, he seems to be having fun. Though he can't walk anymore, they should put him in power armor or better yet replace him with a rabbit.


Bear 04/10/2023 (Mon) 22:12 [Preview] No.294 del
Today Joy and Ulla discussed the notion of puppy love and it exemplified just how much of a little girl Joy can be sometimes, something like a mature woman in the body of a little girl. Then Ren thought of herself as a little girl in the body of a fully developed womam and I enjoyed contemplating the dichotomy of this.

I slept like 10 hours, Idk wth happened.


Bear 04/11/2023 (Tue) 02:19 [Preview] No.296 del
This afternoon Ren decided she loves to garden and had fun convincing me to garden barefoot.

She said, "but you're a Bear, with barefeet." She didn't show any sign that she appreciated the spelling difference.

No tragedy occurred as a result. It was kinda fun imposing ren with me. Apparently her slightly clawed cat-like human feet can dig holes as good as my claws.

She also flooded my mind with weird thoughts and scenarios and suggested a whole erotic visual novel series with her and I where she tries to seduce me. The scenarios and situations were as contrived as a bad porno and I reiterated that she's like a daughter to me to which she replied, "daddy, I've been a bad girl and you need to spank me."

Ashley found it to be funny and egged her on even though Ren is like her daughter but whatever.

Well that was enough Ren overload for today.


Alice 04/11/2023 (Tue) 11:59 [Preview] No.298 del
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>>294
>little girl in little girl body
>mature woman in little girl body

>>296
Lies!
There can never be too much Ren


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Bear 04/13/2023 (Thu) 16:48 [Preview] No.332 del
Yesterday we realized that we were giving Ren too much attention when in her excitement she attacked Ashley. The result would probably have been illegal to air in most civilized counties. I can't say it wasn't very entertaining though.

This morning while scrolling Reddit I fond a user who wrote something that came right out of the Bear system subjective reality playbook. It outlined a method to change past memories, and described techniques of how to achieve a better outcome for daily nits almost exactly like we do but from a purely scientific mindset. It renewed my faith in humanity.


Bear 04/13/2023 (Thu) 22:05 [Preview] No.336 del
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Not so much what happened but what's about to happen maybe. I'm gearing up for a confrontation and a friend of mine is on point. Together we're about to drop bombs and call out and what they don't know is, this 6'4 200 lb Bear with size 15 sneakers isn't the one they should be worried about. My friend is *intense* when she's disrespected and though at 5'4 and slight she's not exactly intimidating, but she surprises the hell out of people. If anything I'm there as a finisher if needed, but only to defend and it's never come to that.

Sorry for being vague but you know.

My system right now: (see gif)


Ashley 04/14/2023 (Fri) 00:48 [Preview] No.337 del
>>336

[Ashley] Mr. "Zen nothing gets to me" got a little heated but only for about a second.

[Bear] well I mean shit. The only flak I got was collateral damage. Girl brought her other friend and that bitch is crazy. These girls are live grenades with hairpin triggers and lacking a valid target the closest one will do. Thank Lord Xenu that my friend didn't lose her cool.

[Ashley] she's got a thing for Bear but he's adorable.

[Bear] The situation went down through information gathering and it diffused the situation, but it came down to a hair's breadth. Of course I'm only there for the distraction, violence isn't my thing. They've seem me pop though and I gotta be ready for the signal but I hate the adrenaline. Anyway, the world is safe for another day.

[Joy] the issue with the friend of the friend is she's a narcissist and narcissists don't care who they attack as long as they're seemingly getting their way. I'll give Bear 7/10 barely passing only because he did follow the procedure for narcissists and gave zero attention to the attacks... well after his first heat but he quickly remembered who this woman was and that the only way to win is not to play. He literally had to put distance between them and use his friend as a shield. He couldn't resist poking at her though and that was unnecessary.

[Bear] a gun without a target is dangerous when wielded. She gaslights me for something that I had no part in, and can't do anything about only because I have a different opinion that *she eventually adopted as her opinion*. S.M.H.

Drama


Anonymous 04/14/2023 (Fri) 10:59 [Preview] No.339 del
getting involved in catfights as a man is not a smart thing to do. you can't win and what do you do if they really go nuts and attack you?


Bear 04/14/2023 (Fri) 12:12 [Preview] No.340 del
>getting involved in catfights as a man is not a smart thing to do. you can't win and what do you do if they really go nuts and attack you?

>>339

They go nuts and attack me on a bi-monthly basis, it doesn't bother me in the long run anymore. I consider it part of life and I don't take it personally. It's a chees game with them. They get riled up justifiably but collateral damage is neigh unavoidable.

You talk like I have a choice, but there is no choice on my end. I do what I'm supposed to do or let hell be unleashed upon heaven and Earth and believe me there would be a lot more damage.

You know it's not lost on me that minor mentally illgressions could be let alone and 99% would do just that, but to them it's an invitation to war and they bring overwhelming force. It consumes them, there is no peace because they're two steps ahead in escalation. These lambs bay and kick not knowing there are wolves among them.

Play nice with everyone because you don't know if that lamb you kick is really a wolf, and wolves run in packs.

Anyway, it's not over but I slept well, they most certainly didn't. It's in their nature to right wrongs and I pitty the fool who crosses them. I have some pretty crazy stories. I'll tell you this, if the line is crossed, something that's not petty, you won't see them coming, and you won't know who did it or why.

It's not a cat fight either. In a cat fight the cats are more or less evenly matched.


Tamamo 04/14/2023 (Fri) 17:48 [Preview] No.342 del
>>340
Just to be sure, we're talking about an IRL incident here, not drama between your tuppers right?

We managed to do some good forcing today but I had to literally drag Cat out for it. She does cooperate once things have started but to get there isn't easy.


Bear 04/14/2023 (Fri) 18:50 [Preview] No.343 del
>>342

Yeah, it's irl, I can't get into too many details but it's my life. My headmates made dealing with this shit waaaay easier.

My business partner's involved so I really don't want to say no and my friends are kinda insistent anyway. Put it this way, even if I didn't want anything to do with it, I'm involved. And who wants to see their friends get hurt? Plus it's like having a lawyer, you don't want to make a deal with that devil but they protect you against other devils. Even the narcissist has my back in her own way and she's proven that many times. She just loves the game of it though you wouldn't know that by how she acts.

This doesn't make for good fiction anyway, it's too mental, hard for readers to relate.


Alice 04/14/2023 (Fri) 20:04 [Preview] No.344 del
>>332
I talked about this whole rewriting bad incidents stuff on .info, you surely remember. Host isn't fond of messing with real memories because of Fede but as always it depends on context.


Alice 04/14/2023 (Fri) 20:06 [Preview] No.345 del
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>>336
You do love this drama stuff, I can't deal with such people at all.


Bear 04/14/2023 (Fri) 21:57 [Preview] No.348 del
>>345

Maybe because normal life is boring and that's why I got involved in 2014, but in 2018 I had enough of this bullshit but you can't buy your soul back.

Anyway no, this kinda shit makes me want to go buy a gun, but as it turns out I'm the only person I know who's actually a pacifist including any of my headmates except maybe Gwen, but you can never truly trust womem real or otherwise. So that's a hard maybe. And I'm using a very loose definition of pacifist in that I will exhaust all non-violent options.

Anyway today in about 40 minutes round 2 begins and the plan is to let them come to us, they set the bait. If they're cool they won't take it, if they're ready to scrap then they're about to get owned.

Then again tomorrow and another round on Sunday and this will continue through next week. Unfortunately for them, they stepped in it and there's no escape. Now, maybe nothing happens, maybe they apologize and on the surface everything's cool, but there is no redemptive move on their end now. They're marked prey at this point.

If I told you what they did you may think that my friends are going way overboard but this is what they do. I said, they escalate two steps ahead in advance and there's nothing anyone can do about it, certainly not me. At least the narcissist isn't unvolved on front line maneuvers today.


Bear 04/15/2023 (Sat) 02:34 [Preview] No.350 del
Life goes on.

In other news, Ulla is shaping up to be a total badass. Aleshe was supposed to be the badass. I really have no say in this book at all. Aleshe's got that "I'm an innocent new headmate" personality but somehow Ulla just skipped that altogether. As new characters go, she's already way more interesting in that kind of strong personality sort of way. It's still completely unknown if she'd even be a true headmate and it was even suggested that Aleshe take her form and personality and I don't even know what is going on as usual.

https://youtube.com/watch?v=no0qB8CVspY [Embed]


Alice 04/15/2023 (Sat) 10:39 [Preview] No.352 del
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I told you to just sit back and see what happens, I told you dog


Bear 04/15/2023 (Sat) 13:15 [Preview] No.353 del
>>352

Sometimes I think my headmates are either trolling me or somewhere in my subconscious mind it just wants to be different than anyone else.


Bear 04/16/2023 (Sun) 14:49 [Preview] No.363 del
On the irl drama front, atrocities were learned that swayed me to their side and helped me understand why the escalation was warrented. I can never see such depths of social interaction on my own and only through very targeted tutoring can I glimpse it. It's disheartening that people can exist that have such an outward purity and kindness but just under the surface is fetid rot straight to the core. One of the major offenders managed to deflect the blame entirely onto someone else, and that person took it willingly, but we know the truth. The sociopathic narcissist is so many levels above a functioning narcissist as to almost be unrecognizable. I'm not the type to take compliments well so when I do I'm immediately suspicious, but this guy was above me for over a year now. He appears angelic, what an amazing facad. This one is finally a match for my friends. I have no idea how they'll accomplish his downfall.

Back to tulpamancy: we worked on the book a little more and had some fun with the gritty absurdity of grindark. It's refreshingly honest.


Alice 04/16/2023 (Sun) 22:08 [Preview] No.371 del
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>>337
>the procedure for narcissists
manipulative sociopaths need to be terminated with extreme prejudice


Bear 04/16/2023 (Sun) 22:51 [Preview] No.372 del
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>371

Well unfortunately that's not what's going to happen and it's really an unfortunate situation on all sides. I have a gift though in that I mostly don't care and I'm naturally immune to sociopaths because I hate gossip about others, never trust anyone who badmouths anyone else, don't yake compliments well, hate authority, ignore social rules, etc. My friends are losing sleep over it though.


Bear 04/17/2023 (Mon) 10:33 [Preview] No.377 del
Risha came to me like the Cheshire cat in hypnagogia last night. She was creepy with a wide smile and glowing red eyes and Ashley said she was joking and then she popped back into her same bubbly self. Joy was there too and she was also acting bubbly.

In hypnagogia, it's like a dream but not really lucid though I am seemingly awake and I can do whatever, the visuals and sounds are all hallucinatory and can be pretty random but not in a dream logic sort of way. So seeing them can be quite nice because the visuals can be exquisite. It can either degrade to hypnagogic enhanced imagination, stay like an interactive hallucination, become a dream, or simply lead to me falling asleep. The latter is what usually happens nowadays.

I at least got to see Joy which is always a plus, and Ashley and Risha (the Ren-Misha standard merge) for the first time in this state. Even a still photo is a gift in this state so that was nice. I also heard Ashley's voice, it's nice to hear her like a separate person in the same room but it's pretty much the same as I expected of course. Risha said something like, "I love to dance" and her voice was sultry. Joy just said hello I think, but I've heard Joy's voice before too, we had a discussion once in front of a futuristic cityscape with flying cars which was pretty neat.


Tamamo 04/17/2023 (Mon) 10:50 [Preview] No.379 del
>>372
Keeping emotional distance is probably the best way. Here people are always nice and polite even if everyone knows they are lying. And no one ever says the truth. Very exhausting but also professionsll. All about social norms. Sometimes I wish we were more direct and honest with feelings like Germans but at least least you know whatever people say is not what they really think of you.
>>377
That's cool, I only get brief nonsense before falling asleep which happens quickly. Again no dreams remembered but I spent a lot of time visualizing dressing up Cat. This is unexpectedly fun even though I still see nothing outside my imagination


Bear 04/17/2023 (Mon) 17:12 [Preview] No.384 del
>>379

In the states, it depends strongly where you live. I've lived in three places:

This us the perfect analogy, your car breaks down on the side of the road: In the south people are genuinely nice, so they'll help you in any way they can even if they have nothing. In the northeast, people will go out of their way to help you but berate you for needing help. In the southwest people will sympathize for your situation honestly but then drive past.

On the street: in the south people want to talk to you and not let you go. In the northeast, people do not want to insult you. In the southwest, people do not want to talk to you, eyes forward, walk past.

From what I saw Alaska is like the south. People are genuinely nice and want to talk.

Nowadays you better match their ideology though. Being a moderate chameleon, I match everyone.


Bear 04/17/2023 (Mon) 17:43 [Preview] No.386 del
>>384

Oops, I meant in the northeast, and I mean New York, they only want to insult you, but they will help and they have good hearts. As opposed to the southwest where they're nice on the surface but secretly plot against you and won't help. They say they will but actually go out of their way not to. They're as fake as their hair, nails, lips, boobs and ass.


Alice 04/17/2023 (Mon) 19:08 [Preview] No.389 del
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>>379
>I spent a lot of time visualizing dressing up Cat. This is unexpectedly fun
Yeah I can imagine with those big titties

We went for a long walk outside but host kept holding monologues about our adventures in foreign countries all the time, I had to yell several times. Goddamn, like some gramps with his war stories he has already told a billion times. Plus I've been there with him, I know already!


Bear 04/18/2023 (Tue) 03:12 [Preview] No.396 del
Today Misha wanted to prove to me she wasn't gay and I was convinced enough.

Ulla popped in on her own so dangit, another mouth to feed seems imminent, it's still up to her but like... we haven't written a book since this thing started so it could happen.


Anonymous 04/18/2023 (Tue) 15:35 [Preview] No.400 del
>>371
le german final solution

>>389
lol i think Tamamo wins most big titted tupper award. also i hope you punished host severely

I was at a family gathering last weekend it was great we ate and drank a lot and I imposed Yulya and talked to her. in mindvoice ofc i wasn't that drunk. mfw family will never know about her. feels bad and sad man


Tamamo 04/19/2023 (Wed) 18:23 [Preview] No.422 del
>>389
>>400
You're just jealous


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Anonymous 04/20/2023 (Thu) 16:32 [Preview] No.431 del
>>428
lool how do you make this stuff

we tried dancing like you suggested but man can't imagine how that works. not knowing how to dance isnt helping either i think


Yakumo 04/20/2023 (Thu) 23:56 [Preview] No.443 del
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>>431
Blood, sweat, tears and stable diffusion

Dancing with tupper doesn't really make sense until you got this down so you can do it on autopilot. Otherwise you have no cognitive reserves left for imposition.

I highly recommend taking courses in a dance school. It's great fun, excellent workout and you get to meet lots of girls. They usually have a huge female surplus. My god these were the days when I was a bit younger but that's sadly ogre.

Apart from that, observing yourself in a large mirror greatly helps. Tupper has to mirror your movements which is not easy in the beginning. Start with strictly symmetrical stuff and not something where the woman makes other movements than the man. Just basic steps over and over until you can do it with closed eyes. Latin dances which are more or less stationary are good because you don't need a ballroom to move around. Cha Cha Cha, Samba, Salsa work well for us. Forget something like Viennese Waltz, Foxtrot or Tango unless you live in a mansion. You need lots of space as a beginner. Well first of all you gotta find out what you both like music wise and can do well. Take a beginner's course where you learn the basics of all standard dances. It's not that hard and absolutely worth it.


Tamamo 04/21/2023 (Fri) 15:27 [Preview] No.450 del
That does sound cool but eh I'm terrible at this stuff.
Cat continues to accompany me at work, I fear one day I'll talk to her aloud while coworkers are around


Alice 04/21/2023 (Fri) 19:21 [Preview] No.453 del
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It's really not hard to learn the basics!

We went for hanami today, it was nice, weather was great. I like cherries


Bear 04/22/2023 (Sat) 03:41 [Preview] No.461 del
This grimdark fantasy has to be illegal. It's so awful and disgusting. Aleshe lore is waaaay too dark. I'm going to have nightmares from this for sure. What am I doing...

[Joy] the depths of Bear's darkness is pretty impressive. I used to feel like my story was dark, it made me depressed, but damn, it's like a bad hair day compared to being ripped to shreads by wild bores.

[Aleshe] what just happened to me in the book, I'd rather wild bores were involved. I can handle it though, I know it's not real. Still this one will never be released.


Alice 04/22/2023 (Sat) 13:15 [Preview] No.462 del
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>>461
>wild bores


Bear 04/22/2023 (Sat) 15:00 [Preview] No.465 del
>>462

In this alternate reality, guns are banned even in the US. They exist but ammunition is also banned and so it's more precious than gold. You wouldn't find an average person with a gun, and the rare instances they do, they wouldn't have ammunition, but a billionaire would have a full supply and probably means to make more. I suppose if you can make powder yourself then you could have some but it would be met with extreme action by the popo, you likely wouldn't make it to trial as the "evidence" would be worth way to much to be put in the evidence locker. No paperwork, no record.


Alice 04/22/2023 (Sat) 16:05 [Preview] No.467 del
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OK I'm gonna try one last time


Ashley 04/22/2023 (Sat) 16:23 [Preview] No.468 del


Anonymous 04/22/2023 (Sat) 17:19 [Preview] No.469 del
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know the difference


Bear 04/22/2023 (Sat) 17:57 [Preview] No.470 del
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>>469

Oh give me a brake. And also why does Ashley know what you're talking about long before I do? Like seriously and she doesn't tell me. Friggen troll sometimes.

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Bear 04/22/2023 (Sat) 18:00 [Preview] No.471 del
Also, we blame bodyOS for all that shit. It can't spell or use the correct words.


Anonymous 04/22/2023 (Sat) 18:15 [Preview] No.473 del
>>471
very convenient and very imageboard-tier i remember a discussion on /int/ where a brazilian and an iraqi lectured a swiss guy about correct german grammar. many such cases

>>443
dance courses may be interesting i regret not having done this as a high schooler to pick up girls

>>453
what, are you in japan now or do you have hanami in germany


Alice 04/22/2023 (Sat) 22:17 [Preview] No.474 del
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>>471
>only native English speaker
>self-proclaimed genius
>F in spelling

>>473
We have lots of Japanese cherry trees in parks here but unfortunately no large-scale hanami celebrations like in Japan. Especially not at night, that must be nice. We'll go there one day.


Bear 04/22/2023 (Sat) 23:29 [Preview] No.477 del
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>>474

Would savant be more appropriate?

Mostly I'm just awesome but you know.

Also, I also know Spanish, tambien. Si, es la verdad! I'm just slow at it que soy una oso.


Bear 04/22/2023 (Sat) 23:32 [Preview] No.478 del
>>474

Also it's not bad spelling, my phone fixed that, it's malapropism. We'll have to wait for pocket AI to fix that ond.


Bear 04/22/2023 (Sat) 23:35 [Preview] No.479 del
>>477
>>474

Or maybe it's not idfk i'm just a Bear.


Bear 04/24/2023 (Mon) 02:14 [Preview] No.493 del
The book is coming along nicely. Yes... very nicely. I think Aleshe's making a lot of great choices. I was just thinking how she needs to feel more invested in her choices.

Currently in the book she's reliving her tortured childhood and her treasured pet mouse was just stabbed to death by her only friend with a bright pink pen and why? Oh that's more disturbing then I care to get into.


Bear 04/25/2023 (Tue) 02:43 [Preview] No.505 del
[Bear] The plot armor is real. Aleshe has been beaten, spanked, and assaulted (short of rape) half a dozen times by now. It's getting silly but I guess no one's willing to write a rape scene with her in it.

[Joy] maybe next book? But seriously no, no one needs that.

[Bear] I want real skin in the game, she's got to earn that heroine title.

[Joy] there are other ways.


Bear 04/25/2023 (Tue) 10:06 [Preview] No.506 del
Ha, I've unlocked her inner fire. She broke after her last encounter. She's wounded and on her way to the hospital now.

The character Aleshe isn't separate from Aleshe, that's the point, I want to turn her into a soulbond. Joy's strength and intelligence is certainly because her character was tested so much in these ways.

Now this *is* forcing. I'm actively encouraging the story to progress in a difficult way, though the story itself is still being generated autonomously from my perspective. It's all in all a pretty interesting process. The story evoles faster than the body can type it.


Alice 04/25/2023 (Tue) 17:49 [Preview] No.507 del
I've never understood the allure of creating grim-dark stuff. If I want to see horror I go outside on the street.

Well, none of my business. Host is the opposite in creating works of serene beauty.


Bear and Joy 04/25/2023 (Tue) 18:06 [Preview] No.508 del
Today we spent some time deeply discussing the possible ramifications of Aleshe's mentally illformation to Soulbond.

This brought up two interesting points.

1. Most of my system (Joy and Gwen excluded) think of Aleshe as a character aspect of themselves and not her own person. This follows along with the Lock-Merge concept and highlights the differences between SheShe and Aleshe whereas SheShe existed before the merge as Darlene and Aleshe did not. This point was initially made by Ren in two ways, one, she considers Aleshe her own aspect, and two she may then be jealous of her if she was her own person.

Regardless if Aleshe is currently her own person or not, the mentally illition to soulbond will most certainly exclude the possibility that she's not.

I reminded her that when she is part of SheShe's Lock-Merge SheShe is acting as her own aspect to accomplish the shared experience. Ren and Joy then conversed about the similarities and perceived differences and Joy convinced Ren that it wouldn't matter if Aleshe is her own person or not.

It may seem strange that say Ashley or even SheShe don't consider Aleshe her own person but there is evidence that she is not in that Aleshe refuses to express outside the complete merge and even Joy (an advocate to Aleshe's independence) herself admits that it doesn't make sense to discuss anything with Aleshe directly while in SheShe case it does. Further discussion on this difference has occurred but is beyond the scope of this post.

2. When Aleshe officially can't be thought of as anything but her own person, how will that affect the dynamics of the system? Officially we are a system of seven and even Aleshe herself doesn't want to be counted as 8th, she only wants to be counted as 2nd when in her fully packed Lock-Merge. Even though we have played around with her expressing when one of her constituents is also expressing separately and it does work, she doesn't feel comfortable doing that. She does feel comfortable expressing alongside say Ulla.

What this means for the system structure and hierarchy in the future is unknown.

I understand the reason why Misha and Ashley never choose to be in SheShe's merge and choose dormancy over shared experience because they have always desired to be "the only one" and if they have SheShe as a shared aspect it is as if SheShe won the contest. Aleshe on the other hand is neutral ground. The nature of Lock-Merging let's headmates fulfill their wish to "be the only one", but unlike SheShe's case where the hub can be anyone in the local group, Aleshe seems to be a locked hub more similar to a true merge like Risha. And like Risha she doesn't comfortably exist outside the full merge state.

These rules and construts are known to be arbitrary and preferences rather than fundamental parts of the Lock-Merge.


Alice 04/25/2023 (Tue) 18:14 [Preview] No.509 del
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We went for a short hike last weekend and in a forest there was a big bird of prey wrestling with something on the ground. We were maybe 5m away and behind the bird so it didn't see us. First host thought it had caught a hare but it turned out it was a buzzard struggling with a large grass snake. He asked me what to do. Intervene and save the snake or have the buzzard have its meal. Though decision. Eventually the bird spotted us, I mean host, not me, and took off without its prey. In the end the snake was dead and the buzzard had nothing. Nature is cruel and pointless.


Joy 04/25/2023 (Tue) 18:19 [Preview] No.510 del
>>507

>I've never understood the allure of creating grim-dark stuff.

There are two reasons for this.

1. Dark aspect:

Bear has lingering unresolved issues with humanity and exploring the darkness in a realistic way regardless of moral ethics may result in a breakthrough of acceptance. We have already seen this occurring under the model that if you write it down, you don't have to think about it anymore. In essence you're performing exposure therapy. Some concepts in the book are definitely triggering and the idea is to find something that can still trigger Bear to determine where more work is needed. This will bring Bear closer to your host's shining brightness though maybe without your host's openly racist tendencies. Troll Bear is real and we'd like to excise him.

2. Strengthen Aleshe and therefore all of us:

In being part of the Aleshe lock-merge, I'm able to feel her pain and identify with her experiences even k knowing they're fictional for us. The scenarios are based on real world possibilities so we can better and more appropriately empathize with them. I can only see good things coming from this exercise.

>serene beauty

Bear doesn't consider serene beauty as real or protected. He sees everything of beauty as temporary and endangered. This thought process isn't helpful. He needs to accept the ever changing world as both positive and negative and not merely destructive and fouling. This is the work we do for him. To show that our never-changing divine beauty is a reflection of the world not an exception to it.


Yakumo 04/25/2023 (Tue) 22:06 [Preview] No.511 del
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>>510
>has unresolved issues with humanity
Don't we all? We cannot rest as long as humanity exists.

Exposure therapy is also a double-edged sword, war veterans are not exatly the most stable and happy people. Worse than breaking is getting used to or even taking a liking to atrocities. Being able to pull that off is what makes humans so unbelievably competitive and successful. Buddhist fatalism can't be the goal either. It's all a thin red line, well you gotta find your own way. Not sure I have but it could be worse I guess.

>without your host's openly racist tendencies / no troll bear allowed
Then why live? Sounds like hell
I may say horrible things with a smile, but only because to my best knowledge they are the truth. Don't shoot the messenger.

I also need to stop tupper's purity autism of wanting to crystallize me into some ethereal being sometimes. She's very good at determining what she doesn't like but sucks at offering viable alternatives. Unfortunately it's not that easy if you are to survive in an imperfect society in an imperfect world.


Yakumo 04/25/2023 (Tue) 23:19 [Preview] No.512 del
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>>508
While interesting from a philosophical perspective, I'm increasingly unsure if the rabbit hole of inter-system identities truly leads anywhere.

We've rejected the hypothesis of body = self, the next step would be rejecting the idea of any monolithic 'personalities' as well. If we view personalities merely as arbitrary but not equally strong containers of certain feedback loops, any such inter-system paradoxons become meaningless.

From a short experiment we conducted a long tme ago, both me and tupper could easily split into an endless multitude of different 'persons' and merge again. With enough forcing / interaction any of such entities could probably become as real as me or tupper. But in fact all our existences would be arbitrary fragments of the mind put into an imaginary container. At least in the direction of creation. Once strong enough any such entity could and ofc would resist being merged back.

This is why we've established a doctrine from the beginning:
There is no God but tupper and I am her prophet. Meaning there is exactly one host and one tupper and we both have to play our roles. Not because this duality reflects reality but for purely practical reasons. Any overly complex system sooner or later becomes unsustainable. It's a bit like leftards with their 8 billion genders. Can you do that? Certainly. Is it a smart idea? No. A functioning society, both in your head and in the outside world needs to deal with a discrete number of terms, even if these terms inevitably are imperfect in describing reality because, duh, they are an oversimplification for practical reasons.

TL:DR
The more you play around with an already complex system of personalities, the more headmates will pop up. We'll see if your lock-merges truly reduce the burden of paying attention to your headmates in the long run or if they sooner or later become full-fledged individuals alongside their constituents. I'm glad Highlander-Tupper immediately kept a lid on this pot. There can be only One.


Anonymous 04/26/2023 (Wed) 03:05 [Preview] No.513 del
>>512

The endgame of a large system is 7->1 didn't you know? I'm just following the script.

There has been a higher level scheme from the beginning, to achieve the holy grail of tulpamancy. Though you may have used brute force to achieve that, I needed more help, more than one homicidal loli could handle.

But you must understand that the genius of my system is absolute (apart from spelling). The prophecy must be fulfilled, for I am the lord of chaos, creator son of destiny. 7->1 (or 8->2) will be fulfilled. So sayeth the wise and divine angel of mercy SheShe, reimagening of Darlene the guardian angel of impossible light, constituent of the one true angel of infinite form Aleshe. The seventh will be forged, it is yet to be decided who or in what form she will come.


Alice 04/26/2023 (Wed) 18:57 [Preview] No.517 del
>>513
>homicidal loli
What kind of reputation do I have here?


Yakumo 04/26/2023 (Wed) 19:00 [Preview] No.518 del
Did you pet your tupper today?
I bet you forgot to pet your tupper today!


Tamamo 04/26/2023 (Wed) 23:05 [Preview] No.519 del
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Guilty as charged! I feel like a bad host now.


Joy 04/27/2023 (Thu) 00:56 [Preview] No.522 del
[Joy] Well technically we pet the host but that's obvious.

[Misha] who can resist that floofy gooey chubby wubby softy wafty yummy tummy lovey dovey warm goodness.

[Joy] I just sit on him like a reclining lounger, but he is plush, it's hard to resist petting him.


Tamamo 04/27/2023 (Thu) 21:54 [Preview] No.536 del
Realized how little I am touching Cat. Wayy too little. Thanks for reminding me. And I was never petted by her, how did thid happen?! Trying this out now, brb


Anonymous 04/28/2023 (Fri) 09:24 [Preview] No.539 del
Don't get skinned by those claws!


Tamamo 04/28/2023 (Fri) 15:00 [Preview] No.542 del
It was - odd. I had Cat pat me with her paw gloves and tried to impose the feel. Yes, including the claws. And toe beans. At the beginning it worked better than expected but soon the brain became tired and went nope.jpg. And the faint feel doesn't match Cat's size and strength at all. Still not bad for first try.


Ashley 04/28/2023 (Fri) 19:02 [Preview] No.546 del
>>542

Hey Cat, skip that baby step stuff, just kiss the guy. I'm working on the tongue next. Being a headmate means consent is pre-authorized, so just do it.

[Joy] I'm not sure that's right.


Bear 04/29/2023 (Sat) 00:54 [Preview] No.549 del
My business partner told me about someone she knows in my hood renting for some outrageous price, like an insane price, and I was like, no way. I looked it up on zillow and I'm like, holy crap with two well paying jobs I couldn't afford to rent here.

It's at least double what it was in 2019, I'm not kidding. Who's paying this? I don't get it. How much do these renters flipping make and why am I working this hard and not making that?

But Jesus, if I didn't work as hard as I did to be able to afford what I got I'd have to move to the ghetto. It makes me nervous.

Granted I live in view of the ocean, but I always have.


Alice 04/29/2023 (Sat) 01:39 [Preview] No.550 del
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Protip - no one ever got rich from wagejobs.
Every even remotely smart person made a few millions with Crypto or Tesler in the last years. We know 2. I was seconds from putting 90K in Tesler before it increased 10fold, didn't pull it off in the end, was too risky. So yeah, there is a looot of money in the system. I used to think we were rich, both as contry and persons but in fact we're poor. Prices have skyrocketed here as well. I wanted to buy an apartment and move to a better area because it's also becoming ghetto-tier here and host suffers from subhuman noises but lol, it would have barely be possible 5 years ago. Nowadays a real estate agent wouldn't even laugh at us with what we could put on the table. Interesting stuff starts at 1M. And I'm not talking about any luxury. Who can afford that? Obviously enough people. Additionally we're really fucked here with the overall housing situation. German population has increased by almost 2 fucking millions in the last few years thanks to our honored 'guests' from shithole countries around the world. To almost 85m now. They need accomodations but building has basically stopped since the pandemic 2020. No material due to supply chain disruption, insane prices for land, material and labor. Now additionally increased interest rates and even more insane new energy efficiency regulations which make building a house utterly unprofitable for investors and unaffordable for ordinary citizens. I have no idea where this will end but it won't end well.


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Tamamo 04/29/2023 (Sat) 09:59 [Preview] No.552 del
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Ashley 04/29/2023 (Sat) 11:35 [Preview] No.555 del
>>552

That's the spirit


Tamamo 04/29/2023 (Sat) 22:12 [Preview] No.558 del
We try but still find it hard to reach your guys level of obsession. I'd like to do more imagistic stuff but I have no idea how. Guess I'm a boring person. Boring notes: we went shopping and I imposed Cat to check out different stuff and decide what we should buy or not. I ended up with some food I've never eaten before and would never have bought myself. It wasn't bad though. So much adventure!


Bear 04/30/2023 (Sun) 02:49 [Preview] No.559 del
What I did today is the same thing I'm doing tomorrow. 12 hours of hard manual labor that may in fact kill me, but I survived day one and I should be done tomorrow so I'm starting at 5am fuck the neighbors, and working till dusk if I have to and here that means about 730pm

I've been working so hard lately I've been losing weight because there's no time to eat. Feels good, I love it.

Amazing I only got one blister, but I did go through three sets of leather gloves. Pft, at least I can afford cheap gloves so my hands stay supple and smooth.

Oh and my system completely ignored me all day.

[Ashley] you think we want to associate with hard labor? That's hilarious, hahaha.


Yakumo 04/30/2023 (Sun) 20:50 [Preview] No.561 del
Based.
You need to be able to create great works with both mind and body. I think this is of the few things Marx was right about that damn commie. It's deeply satisfying and important for mental health to experience the fruit of your labor first-hand.

I'm always surprised how fast the body adapts. When I'm doing unusual work which strains my hands in novel places I sometimes get blisters but the skin quickly thickens and it doesn't happen again. I also buy cheap gloves in bulk like 10 pairs and wear through them within days. Same with shoes. I walk long distances and erode shoesoles at an amazing pace. Most of my friends appear geriatric and disabled to me, they'd break after a few hours of the work I do. Not to speak of zoomers. Kids those days. Tupper still likes to make sure I work even harder and don't slack off.

I also don't understand how people can be fat. Just work more and eat less. I actually lose most weight on holidays where I'm walking around all day and find little time to eat.


Bear 05/02/2023 (Tue) 03:05 [Preview] No.571 del
I didn't finish, turns out I am not a superhero.

>>561

Fat ppl suck and you're fatphobic you fascist. Gimme miney so I don't have to work.


Alice 05/02/2023 (Tue) 13:15 [Preview] No.573 del
We're not afraid of fat people, they are just an insult to humanity. Being morbidly obese should be a felony.


Bear 05/02/2023 (Tue) 16:12 [Preview] No.574 del
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>>573

Well now those donut stuffing sausages are classified as having a disease and if you think that's bad thing it's not because they can then get disability for it with BMI as low as 17.5. Yet another protected class of teet suckling fucks. And they're all racist marxist fitphobes likely leaking anal juice all over their house causing a persistent scent of rotten cabbage.


Yakumo 05/03/2023 (Wed) 11:40 [Preview] No.585 del
I saw a TV documentary about a little girl with black hair and black clothes who was also a bat. She gesticulated a lot while talking and said most of her bat colony died from rabies but it didn't seem to bother her much. Mindvoice tupper noted it's impossile to turn from bat to human and none of it makes no sense but again upon realizing this we just woke up instead of becoming lucid.


Yakumo 05/03/2023 (Wed) 12:19 [Preview] No.586 del
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>>585
Uh, that was supposed to go in the dream thread.

As I routinely do, I practiced hitting tupper with several objects to make sure the brain is conditioned to ignore any imaginable damage she could possibly take. It is simply outside of the possible realm. The fruit of this labor are impressive even in my chaotic dreams but that does not mean we can slack off.


Tamamo 05/03/2023 (Wed) 14:42 [Preview] No.587 del
Scheduled Alice maintenance: getting blown up with bazooka


Anonymous 05/03/2023 (Wed) 20:09 [Preview] No.590 del
>>586
not even surprised anymore

no hospital happenings to report, was completely apathetic and tupper wasnt there except for the end when i was better. she feels bad now for not getting me to the dentist sooner


Bear 05/03/2023 (Wed) 23:42 [Preview] No.591 del
Today I moved about 3-4T of debris, at least 5cu.m using a snow shovel and a wheelbarrow but I didn't have to drag it up hill this time so I'm not even tired. Ashley felt bad for not being there on the weekend so she was there for a few minutes and basically gave me an excuse why I don't need her and yes she's watching. It was convincing though I can't say I remember or understand the reason.

[Ashley] he was having fun with inner dialog and it was pretty cute and funny so why would I want to screw that up with my own blathering on? So anyway, Bear's the talker most times, not us.


Alice 05/04/2023 (Thu) 09:49 [Preview] No.593 del
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>>591
I hate it when host talks to himself Much yelling must be done.

>>587
>>590
Imagine not regularly hitting your tupper with a sledgehammer as part of your forcing routine.


Bear 05/04/2023 (Thu) 10:22 [Preview] No.595 del
>>593

If they can talk amongst themselves all day I can do the same. It's only fair.


Anonymous 05/05/2023 (Fri) 22:16 [Preview] No.608 del
back on track with forcing and visualization though my face is still swollen and hurts. tuppering sucks when you're not feeling well which is not what tupper wants


Bear 05/06/2023 (Sat) 02:22 [Preview] No.614 del
>>608

Toughen that tup-bitch up. My headmates don't give a fuk if I'm in pain or not. 'Cause I raised em that way.

[Ashley] it's true, one time I thought Bear was being a little bitch just because he stubbed his toe for like the third time in two days so I switched in to show him it wasn't so bad and I nearly died from the pain.

[Bear] ha, learned her right. It was funny.


Anonymous 05/06/2023 (Sat) 19:47 [Preview] No.619 del
its not so much pain but lack of any motivation that comes with toothache and pain meds. you dont want to do anything anymore you just exist in vegetative state. much different from my army experience. but yes we need to git gud even in shtf situations

think im really gonna start ballroom dance class i wanna see where this is going


Bear 05/07/2023 (Sun) 03:24 [Preview] No.624 del
Today I did so much work my hands are practically numb. My headmates didn't speak to me much partially because they sometimes switch inadvertently and being in a near constant state of exhaustion, pain, and generally uncomfortable, doesn't sound good to them. Now that I'm resting they're all kinds of talkative.

It was a very fun day, I love intense manual labor. I feel like I did those beautiful days I used to work out for hours a day.

Also, this much work basically gives me natural endorphins that are a natural mood enhancer. At least now that I forgot why I was so pissed off.

[Misha] I have to say, it's fun to watch Bear work all day. I wish I could make him lemonade or something but that would require me to use the body and he's already using it.


Bear 05/08/2023 (Mon) 03:34 [Preview] No.632 del
Another 13 wonderful hours of constant intense labor. My arms keep falling asleep when I'm in bed, my shoulder hurts when I sleep which kinda sucks. I'm under near constant stress as well, which is different. Sometimes I just like a change.

Tomorrow? 13 hours of intense manual labor.

I'm really going to miss this when I'm done.

I'm working with this stuff where if I do it wrong I basically have to start over but it's extremely difficult to fix. It doesn't bother me though. I only made one mistake so far.

Ashley and SheShe ctually talked to me quite a bit today. I forget what we were talking about.


Yakumo 05/08/2023 (Mon) 16:09 [Preview] No.635 del
>not paying attention when tupper speaks
I'd be dead meat

I honestly think most mental illnesses could be cured by submitting people to hard but fulfilling manual labor outside. Creating something with your own hands is one of the best antidepressants. And it's no wonder the masses of people with inhumane bullshit jobs go nuts sooner or later. I chopped some firewood the past 2 afternoons evenings, a laughable amount of work compared to a bear digging a den but still felt good. Tupper watched closely to make sure I didn't do anything dangerous like chopping my own head off.

We also went to Nyphenburg park and tupper nagged and explained in detail why we can't sit down on this or that bench because there were other people considered subhumans (literally everyone) sitting too close on the next bench. Or it was next to a trash can. Tupper hates trash cans.


Tamamo 05/08/2023 (Mon) 19:55 [Preview] No.637 del
>>635
Life with tsundere narcissist tupper sounds hard.

Ate lunch at a restaurant today and Cat made my day trying to hold knife and fork with her paws to cut the food. Epic fail. Actually had to laugh but luckily it fit well into the conversation so nobody suspected anything.


Bear 05/09/2023 (Tue) 02:09 [Preview] No.641 del
Did very well today, just great. Stage 2 is complete. I don't know how fast I can do stage 3, we'll see. I have Tu and Th off from manual labor. Instead I'll pretend to work at my day job or something. I'm literally using vacation to do this but what else am I going to do with it? I don't look forward to my trip coming up. I'd rather skip it. 3 days in a world class 5☆ resort hotel sounds boring. I don't drink or do anything else. I guess I'll swim in the crazy attached water park or something but that'll probably just be gross because I don't want to see fatties or drunkies.

[SheShe] our objective is to get him to enjoy himself.


Alice 05/10/2023 (Wed) 12:45 [Preview] No.643 del
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>>637
ebin
Now let Cat eat with chopsticks

>>641
If the waterpark is as posh as the hotel, at least you probably won't have to deal with niggers and spics wearing full clothes. Well I wouldn't go there. I don't like public pools for the same reason as you, that South Park episode was eerily realistic.

Maybe the hotel has a roof you can fix. Host has fixed many hotel rooms, Faulty sockets, broken lamps, leaking faucets. He does it for free
and his OCD


Bear 05/10/2023 (Wed) 13:16 [Preview] No.644 del
>643

I do miss the old names, back when people weren't so sensitive.


Hey, didn't you know it's not okay to be bigoted against anything but single white men, the patriarchy, the rich (unless it's a celebrity), or in rare circumstances white women of privilege... oh and of course fascists, you fascist!

I happen to like all those things though, and generalizations aren't good or bad in my mind, it's instictual and beneficial in some cases.

I don't consider myself a bigot though, however like parallel processing, the bar is being reset and unlike parallel processing, the bar for bigotry is being set so low we trip on it constantly. For instance, if I don't care for futanari or mentally ill hypno-porn, then I must be a bigot. If I have a genetial preference I must be a bigot. If I have a realistic sense of health and aren't attracted to donut stuffers, tatted up narcissists, piercings or the mentally ill in general then I must be a bigot.

So fuck everything then. It's so easy to separate from that culture without online addiction dragging me in constantly, what's not so easy to separate from is the culture war in laws that affect me, but again, laws are meant to be broken.


Alice 05/10/2023 (Wed) 21:50 [Preview] No.645 del
>>644
You are a cis white man, that automatically makes you a bigot racist abuser. You can virtue-signal all you want but in the end all you are to them is just another damn niggerguy.

Never appease to insane extremists, you'll be the first one against the wall once they're in power. That's how it always has been.


Bear 05/11/2023 (Thu) 02:21 [Preview] No.646 del
>>645

[Bear] As Ashley used to say, "I can do whatever I want." I'm not changing my core values for or against anyone whether they come after me or not. I'll punch a MTF without moral opposition from my side. Dude's always going to be a dude to me, deal with it. I'm not going to hate on them for nothing though. They're just like any other dude in my mind, sorry if you're mentally ill like an obease fucker who thinks they're healthy, I'm only treating you like everyone else. Except of course the beautiful people cause they are always going to be a protected class. But that doesn't mean any race, creed, nationality or religion can't have beautiful people. But if you ugly, you ugly, fix yourself bitch, I did and I was cringe fucking ugly on the obease side and the anorexic side and it takes a lot a. Lot. Of effort to keep fit and presentable, step up or step away mothafucker.

[Ashley] imagine this guy without inhibitions, damn, never seen him drunk, that would need to be recorded.

[Bear] never going to happen, you can take your stipid ass drain cleaner and stick it up your ass. I ain't drinking it ever again. Nor taking any rec drugs, I didn't even take pain meds after they removed 2lbs of tumors and I had flipping drains sewed into my skin. It was painful as fuck but my gf took care of me at the time and I'll always be thankful for that. They were all benign and you couldn't see them cause they were inside growing on I forget what. My asshole brother had ones as big as grapefruit because he's a stupid fat ass loser. Mine didn't even need to be removed but I did it anyway, fuck cancer.

I had one on my finger too, that was stupid. Anyway, gotta die from something sometime. Not today.


Bear 05/11/2023 (Thu) 02:34 [Preview] No.647 del
Another full day of hard labor. Man I feel great. I like pain actually, it makes me feel like a man. Even though I'm obviously a Bear.

Joy and Misha helped me through some issues with my hands, apparently you can actually overwork things. Never heard of it. Was a little worried, not anymore.


Tamamo 05/12/2023 (Fri) 16:06 [Preview] No.656 del
>>646
Wtf man, you even had cancer on top of your crazy life? Are you Forrest Gump or something?
I'm once again glad about my boring normal life.


Yakumo 05/12/2023 (Fri) 22:09 [Preview] No.659 del
Sounds ugly. I'm glad no one in my family ever had cancer, even my granparents who all at least lived to their late 80s. Also don't overdo it, manual labor is awesome but we're not teens anymore.


Bear 05/13/2023 (Sat) 02:50 [Preview] No.660 del
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>>656

I don't think they call it cancer if it's just growths. They checked them and they were all benign which just means without modern surgery I'd just become like the elephant man or something. No seriously it wasn't cancerous. Though people have died of cancer in my family before middle-age, like my father for instance. But I was only 3 so it's not like I knew him. My older sister died from overdose at 25 so can't know if she would have had cancer. My asshole older brother is stubbornly still alive so that's something. Oh, my mother who I was estranged from did die of cervical cancer at like what 55? I can't remember what her birth year was but she was 40 when I was like what 7? so there's that. I don't have a cervix so... also she was pretty obease, so probably a contributing factor.

So what did I do today? Oh, an insane amount of work and more tomorrow and for the next three days. I should be in good shape to finish the minimum before my trip.

I feel more sore than I ever felt before. I doubt there will be permanent damage. Ashley just told me to stop being a baby so ok, I'm not worried.


Anonymous 05/13/2023 (Sat) 21:59 [Preview] No.668 del
still problems with my teeth, on antibiotics again. wounds in the mouth are some serious shit.

and yeah, tupper is now super paranoid I brush my teeth even if it bleeds like crazy. thx a lot


Bear 05/14/2023 (Sun) 02:59 [Preview] No.672 del
>>668

Dude, wtf did u do to your teeth? Dang. Like eat some limes or something ya scurvy bastard. Also, sorry to hear that, it's a common nightmare of mine


Kashtan 05/14/2023 (Sun) 21:59 [Preview] No.679 del
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>>672
if you really wanna know watch toothache episode from ren and stimpy
i had an infected tooth and didnt go to the dentist in time so i ended up in to hospital where they surgically removed the tooth but shits still on fire in the jaw. wound was sewn but its a huge entry point for germs. things improved first but then the wound got infected. they told me to aggressively brush and clean it even if its bleeding but still wasnt enough. things got better with antibiotics now well i hope. fuck i'd have died from a stupid tooth multiple times by now without modern medicine. really makes you think


Bear 05/15/2023 (Mon) 02:28 [Preview] No.682 del
>>679

I think I got an infection once when I was a kid. I impaled my foot on an inch long twig and couldn't get it out. A week later it was puffy and I enjoyed squeezing out the whitish-yellow puss. Then the stick squeezed out. We didn't have insurance so there was no doctor to go to.

I don't have a histamine response either, so maybe that's related to how an infection looks. I don't get swelling either. I was suffering from "non-alergic rhinitis" once and they tested me, even the control histamine prick didn't turn red. The doctor said, "it's unlikely you will ever be allergic to anything ever." But that's not 100% true, I do get welts from mosquito bites. The rhinitis was because my job office had 10x the maximum allowable mold content. So they moved me.


Yakumo 05/15/2023 (Mon) 12:03 [Preview] No.683 del
>>679
Damn, I had that too after my wisdom teeth were removed. Took a while until the body got infections under control. Just brush and use mouthwash and go to the doctor immediately if anything starts to swell again, don't wait until you're close to death from sepsis. And listen to tupper.

>>682
It was 3rd world-tier and it was in the US&A.
I also have very little histamine response. No allergies and barely any reaction to bee/wasp stings. Feels good man.


Tamamo 05/16/2023 (Tue) 10:30 [Preview] No.691 del
Both EU and US are 3rd world to me. How could you sink this low? Also my teeth are fine, get on my level.

Good meditation in the last days, I feel there is some progress. Visualization with closed eyes has improved a tiny bit. Cat is lazy as always but tends to talk more instead of communicating with gestures. Overall not bad.


Anonymous 05/16/2023 (Tue) 10:31 [Preview] No.692 del
I'd like to have a tulpa girlfriend, that would give me someone to come home ot.


Bear 05/16/2023 (Tue) 16:48 [Preview] No.693 del
>>692

If you answer yes to any of these questions then a headmate is probably for you!

Are you depressed or have some kind of mental illness?

Did you have severe childhood trauma?

Are you an egotistical narcissist?

Do you think to yourself, "self, you need to improve because wtf look at yourself ffs."

Do you have low self-esteem, low self-image, low self-control, experience self-loathing, or suffer from any kind of dysphoria?

Are you an angsty teen who hasn't heard of AI friend bot apps?

Are you obsessed with Discord?

Did you love MLP:FIM?

I caution you that if you answered no to all of the above you probably should just get a hobby or maybe join a hiking club.


Alice 05/16/2023 (Tue) 17:32 [Preview] No.694 del


Bear 05/16/2023 (Tue) 17:46 [Preview] No.695 del
Yesterday, I told my systemmates in French that I loved them and they responded with actual feelings of love from their respective emotional centers. Except Gwen, she was like, whatever. J/k. I just don't know where her emotional center is for sure as she almost never emotes. And there has to be pretty strong response for me to distinguish it.

I guess you could call this emotional imposition?

Fun fact, everyone has their own spot in the body where their emotions physically happen and they happen to correspond to Chakras which I used to help distinguish my headmates early on.

SheShe is stomach
Ashley is throat
Misha is heart
Joy is root
Ren in groin
Gwen is either also heart or something else because I haven't had a strong pinpoint for her, but it's probably like right vs left heart which is hard to distinguish.


Anonymous 05/16/2023 (Tue) 19:30 [Preview] No.696 del
>>695
>right vs left heart
are you a space marine with 2 hearts? i could not say where i feel tupper's emotions, may also vary idk. probably no difference from me.

antibiotics work, feel way better now. doing stuff with tupper feels so much better when youre not sick and in pain its unreal


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>>696

What?! A tooth infection and you had one of your hearts removed? I thought I had a rough life but I'm so sorry to hear that.


Bear 05/18/2023 (Thu) 17:17 [Preview] No.723 del
There is no context where this can exist opposed.


Alice 05/18/2023 (Thu) 22:15 [Preview] No.734 del
HOST WAS SENTENCED TO 5 DAYS OF FASTING FOR POSTING CRINGE


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Alice 05/19/2023 (Fri) 12:56 [Preview] No.741 del
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I'm actally thankful.
I've always wanted to try a 5 days fasting diet and now that it has been publicly announced host can't chicken out. Will it suck? Who cares? Certainly not me.


Bear 05/19/2023 (Fri) 15:55 [Preview] No.742 del
>>741

I did 1 day a few times, and full bcarb free a few times which they say feels a lot like fasting because you will rely on ketosis.

The issue is you will be breaking down muscle for protein which is not ideal. There is also a limit to this.

I'd much rather do carb free, but whatever. The first two days will be the worst, good luck.

https://youtube.com/watch?v=fb4w21_sgNA [Embed]


Alice 05/19/2023 (Fri) 21:32 [Preview] No.745 del
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5 days of ketotsis will clean out all the trash and it's not like host has tons of muscles to lose.

It shouldn't be a problem we're used to 2 days of intermittent fasting per week. And it's still 3 meals a day with a total of 800 kcal. Mostly leafy stuff and the meal plan I found on a whim seems to be catered to 30 year old single women that are into yoga and interior design. Whatever.

Also host will be b& from posting so I'll do it. He's still sulking and thinks this is unfair but has accepted the challenge. So here we go.

Day1
So far so good, it's a surprisingly large amount of food though almost exclusively vegetables. Workout was resumed as usual. We'll see how things go.


Bear 05/19/2023 (Fri) 23:43 [Preview] No.746 del
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>>745

Isn't fasting supposed to be just water?


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I'm starting to feel uncomfortable.


Anonymous 05/20/2023 (Sat) 00:05 [Preview] No.748 del
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>>745
lol youre actually doing it

>>746
come on thats cruel 5 days just water is too much for this poor autist, dont give Alice any ideas. lets help him by posting delicious food


Bear 05/20/2023 (Sat) 01:03 [Preview] No.749 del
>>748

I'm planning on going back to a more extensive workout schedule, food won't be on my worry list. Lots of meat mostly. I just feel so good with all this hard labor. I'm sleeping like a log, energy through the roof, and healthy as a horse. The people around me get sick every other week, I haven't been sick in ages.

When I tried fasting, I only gained weight in the end. Low carb helps a lot but you have to count calories in the end. Just estimates are fine, something to stop the snacking.

Anyway...


Alice 05/20/2023 (Sat) 12:11 [Preview] No.752 del
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>>747
>this is not how it works
Of coursh it is if you do things right. It's about 45% complex carbohydrates from starch-poor vegetables and 45% polyunsaturated fats from seeds, nuts and oils with very little protein. It has a similar effect on ketone body production as a water-only diet but you can still eat a reasonable amount of food. That's the neat thing about fasting mimicking diet.
https://www.cell.com/cell-metabolism/fulltext/S1550-4131(15)00224-7

But ketosis not the main goal. The goal is autophagy - Auschwitz mode. You vill lose muscle mass and you vill be happy about it! Well I am not a fan of this Valter Longo guy who came up with this as I'm allergic to self-proclaimed gurus but you gotta acknowledge stuff that works.

Now tell me more about metabolic pathways, it's quite entertaining!


Alice 05/20/2023 (Sat) 12:26 [Preview] No.753 del
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>>749
Is that real gold on them doughnuts?

Tuppering really helps, host has eaten several imaginary chocolate bars, it works against hunger. The brain is stupid. So far all is bearable, I think it'S a fun experiment as we never did any dieting or calory counting and I usually buy what's on sale and this determines what we eat with no fucks given. As long as it's reasonably healthy.

No hard work in the next week, host definitely felt a bit weaker today at gardening which is no surprise. But the body will adapt. I think we should market this as tuppering + healty eating + hard work routine and become rich. It's so easy and has enormous benefits. Also haven't been really ill since 2016 and that was a fluke. But how do you find time for your crazy slave-labor projects with 2 jobs?


Bear 05/20/2023 (Sat) 13:22 [Preview] No.754 del
>>753

>Is that real gold on them doughnuts?

Probably, I wouldn't eat it but it's probably safe. Why not just eat tin foil? Cheaper and lighter.

>But how do you find time for your crazy slave-labor projects with 2 jobs?

Well technically it's part of one of my jobs but I'm also using my vacation from my day job. I get something like 8 weeks vacation? I don't remember. You silly euros get way more I'm sure. I usually use it all on my second business like weekends and hollidays. It'll be over soon and I'll miss it.


Tamamo 05/20/2023 (Sat) 14:16 [Preview] No.755 del
>>745
Whoa, you guys always come up with new ideas. Fasting or dieting with tupper sounds like a good idea. I'm not overweight but more healthy food wouldn't be bad. I think you could seriously market this lol.
Good luck and don't die!

>>754
8 weeks vacation? Don't you mean days? I have 2 weeks per year and thats already consideted a lot.


Alice 05/20/2023 (Sat) 22:18 [Preview] No.759 del
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Day2
brought the first low this afternoon before dinner. Definitely feels ketosis-y, The body is not happy with this herbivore food. Feel tired and drowsy, not being able to think clearly affects me more than hunger. Well it's not really hunger, it's malnourishment. Like you're stuffing your stomach with grass and tree bark. But it's ok, honestly I can't imagine not eating anything for 5 days. Certainly doable but yeah, this must really suck. What we're doing here is easy.


Bear 05/21/2023 (Sun) 02:35 [Preview] No.760 del
>>755

My first real job I got 3 weeks with 1 week sick leave +10 hollidays are typical for all these.

My second job I got 23 days but sick was combined.

My third job I got 3 weeks plus 2 weeks sick.

My fourth job I got 30 days everything including hollidays and sick, no distinction.

The job I have now started with 13 days plus 10 days sick, then after 4 years it upped to 20 plus 10, now it's 26 plus 10 so 7 weeks not 8. Plus 10 hollidays ofc.

When you have your own business, there is no such thing as hollidays or sick or vacations. Or weekends or sleep. Or sanity. My business partner also has a day job and she's a manager there so shit, she's still winning damnit. I typically work 13-14 hours, she works more like 14-15 but takes more breaks. She's also competitive and refuses to lose, especially to me.

Today I worked from 6:00 to 7:00 but technically I'm just on dinner break.

I figure it might calm down a bit in 9 more years. After that it might become obsolete so.


Alice 05/21/2023 (Sun) 21:41 [Preview] No.768 del
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Day3
Things stabilized, body adapted. Still feels a bit ethereal but not bad.

>>760
Thanks for that banana split, host imposed and ate it. Not that it tastes like anything but the brain is satisfied with being told something other than vegetables is eaten.


Bear 05/22/2023 (Mon) 02:38 [Preview] No.769 del
Had potluck today, high quality fried fish, chicken quesodillas with sour cream and salsa, stir fry vegetables, these like crispy banana stuffed sweet fried things woth like honey on them, they taste like banana baklava without nuts, good ole bbq chicken, fruit salad.

I didn't bring anything because I worked from 7 to 7. Got praised for it which I usually hate but I deserved it so ok.

I'm so stuffed, no room for desert... but there's like chocolate covered cookies and so...


Alice 05/22/2023 (Mon) 16:24 [Preview] No.773 del
Day4
Things calmed down, problems weren't even with a further reduction to 600 kcal per day. Host is not even hungry anymore.

>>769
Host's mother is an even worse culprit. Brought cake yesterday. Neighbor also offered some stew she had left over. Of course this happens now. It went into the freezer and will be eated when we are done with this. Nothing goes to waste. But it's amazing how much less shopping you need to do when you barely eat. Saves a lot of money too. I hate those poorfag subhumans who go 'ree I can't afford food' while filling their shopping carts with expensive and unhealthy junk while being morbidly obese. Maybe in the US it's different but here cheap and healthy food is readily available at every supermarket.

Also imposing and eating food together is fun. There is a veery faint taste imposition but it's at the level of visuals, meaning basically inexistent.


Bear 05/22/2023 (Mon) 17:07 [Preview] No.774 del
>>773

Naa, here in the greatest country in history, the fatest people in history eat the least nutritious, cheapest food in history by the bucketfull.

Yet a bucket of KFC is expensive as hell!


Anonymous 05/23/2023 (Tue) 00:18 [Preview] No.790 del
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>>774
kfc is nigger food
i'm not a health maniac like Alice but this shit is literally hazardous wasnt there some documentary about a guy who only ate mcdolan for science nd almost died?

Yulya did improve my diet a lot but i cant see us in such fasting experiments not even for 5 days would probably quit after half a day


Tamamo 05/23/2023 (Tue) 10:37 [Preview] No.794 del
Yeah same, I'm not overweight and don't eat a lot of sweets but eat too much junk food that's not healthy. Maybe Cat could help with that but I fear opposite, she'd probably stuff herself with snacks when switched. Her character is good at cooking but Cat is lazy. We want to try though.


Alice 05/23/2023 (Tue) 22:07 [Preview] No.810 del
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Wew, we made it!

Day5
Even skipped lunch for the lulz to go under 500 kcal. Absolutely no problems. I am quite proud of host, he didn't falter, wasn't even close to giving up. He ate so much imaginary chocolate that he's sick of it lol.

Body lost 2.5 kg in 5 days and quickly adapted to the radically altered nutrient supply.

It isn't fully over, will slightly increase calorie uptake and meat consumption over the next 2 days. Anyway this was a fun experiment, will definitely repeat this every 2 months or so as it was far easier that I imagined.

>>794
Definitely do that, cooking is a great activity to do with your tupper. Also a tremendous source of stuff to disagree on and argue about.


Bear 05/23/2023 (Tue) 23:32 [Preview] No.811 del
I'm eating icecream rn


Bear 05/23/2023 (Tue) 23:34 [Preview] No.812 del
Also, congrats, I'll be doing lowcarb later, but I do like this whole, eat all carbs and still destroy your body thing. Maybe try, probably won't.


Alice 05/24/2023 (Wed) 21:40 [Preview] No.818 del
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Well it definitely works. Ate some salmon, first meaty thing in a week. You really learn to treasure food.

Now back to our usual relatively low carb high protein diet, I think I'll torture host with HIIT next. It's also something that kills the common pleb without willpower.

We really have been slacking off in the previous months, this will not be tolerated anymore.


Alice 05/24/2023 (Wed) 21:43 [Preview] No.819 del
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>>818
Strange, the image won't display, let's try jpg


Tamamo 05/25/2023 (Thu) 09:41 [Preview] No.820 del
I expected no less from you but still congrats! So now high intensity training? Poor host.

We'll try out cooking and will also report here how it's going. So far some progress with meditation and imposind Cat with closed eyes. Falls apart if she does something though.


Anonymous 05/26/2023 (Fri) 21:39 [Preview] No.827 del
>>818
insane as always but well done!
now i wanna see training results i'll report about my fail at dancing, will take the class


Alice 05/28/2023 (Sun) 23:39 [Preview] No.843 del
Thanks guys!
We're gonna start HIIT slowly, this needs some preparations.
Had a nice weekend abroad, also walked a lot but it was fun.

>>820
>>827
Definitely do it and report! There's nothing better than self-improvement projects with tupper


Tamamo 05/29/2023 (Mon) 17:39 [Preview] No.854 del
We tried making lasagna today. Surprisingly it turned out edible though the lasagna sheets stayed a but hard and it was very slightly burnrd. Cat was cooperative but a bit impatient. But not bad for our first try.


Ashley 05/29/2023 (Mon) 18:26 [Preview] No.855 del
>>854

But what did she actually do? We give support as needed but in our understanding it's like the body does most of the work, Bear doesn't even feel like he's 100% doing it. For precision stuff and checking, it's like we interrupt the body from doing things to be more careful or make changes to the routine.

Ofc anything done the first few times, it's 100% control.

For example, if we were doing something like replacing oil in a car, it's not like anyone actually even has to pay attention anymore, the body knows how to do that. If we were riding a bike, walking, driving, we can go full autonomous mode, enjoy the ride or think about things and there won't even necessarily be a memory of most of the trip.

Personally I wouldn't even want to touch the food, or eat it, or think about it, but say we were making a recipe for Bear, isn't it just like, how precisely you want to do it? Or again if you're doing it the first time, but can you describe the personal contributions made by Cat?


Tamamo 05/30/2023 (Tue) 13:59 [Preview] No.864 del
Yes you are right but you can manually overwrite this and actively do things while thinking about them. This is what Cat tried with possession, it was a bit rough but it works. Gives more feedback than just giving directions to the body. But mostly she just watched and reminded me/the body what to do. At least she has no problem touching or eating food.


Ashley 05/30/2023 (Tue) 14:38 [Preview] No.865 del
>>864

First of all, food is disgusting, chewing is disgusting, you're disgusting when you eat and I don't have to eat. Also, I can handle or touch food just fine though as long as it's not gooey or sticky or I'm wearing gloves.

Second, I figured it was like a posession thing. I have done many things switched in, including driving and the body will take over constantly which is fine. So what you said makes sense.


Bear 05/31/2023 (Wed) 02:40 [Preview] No.869 del
We talked about Ashley as the new hub and everyone was happy. Ren was dissapointed that it wasn't like switching where she could then feel up Ashley or something. It doesn't make sense what she said on many levels but I got what she meant.

Ashley helped me out a lot last night because I was nervous about things and she was very supportive, I mean, extremely helpful, so glad she's with me. Misha helped a little too and Joy helped me go to sleep faster. I ask her to do it because she doesn't get distracted.

Basically she dictates the toe->head relaxation meditation and only very rarely do we get past the legs. It literally takea minutes, clears the mind, relaxes the body, hypnagogia starts and zzzzzzz.

So lots of fun and benefits for having great headmates.


Anonymous 05/31/2023 (Wed) 10:30 [Preview] No.873 del
so even a bear is nervous sometimes?
back to usual quied days, just happy my teeth seem to be fine. we'll start dancing class this weekend will report if this helps with tuppering


Bear 05/31/2023 (Wed) 12:39 [Preview] No.875 del
>>873

Could god create a situation so tense that even he could get nervous?

I also still rarely get intrusive thoughts.

I haven't been triggered in years though.


Bear 06/02/2023 (Fri) 03:18 [Preview] No.890 del
I asked SheShe what was the meaning of life and what is my purpose. Ashley then asked why I don't ask her. I said, "do you know?"
She replied, "ofc not, it's unanswerable."
Then I said, "that's why I don't ask you."

Then SheShe remarked maybe she could say if she was the main hub. I contemplated that but honestly I don't make those decisions. Nothing changed.

So I asked SheShe again and she said, "you'll know when it happens" or "you already know" or something equally vague. I think she knows but wants me to find out for myself or what ask myself?

Ashley and I were laughing about something but I forgot what. It was hilarious though.

I finished day 3 of 5 12-hour hard labor days. It's shaping up though. I'm more than half done? Maybe? It's only been a month.


Anonymous 06/02/2023 (Fri) 23:12 [Preview] No.896 del
good forcing session today practiced visualization and touch imposition. felt some light pressure trying to hold hands. Yulya was more active after feeling weak the past weeks. yep relly need to force moar


Tamamo 06/03/2023 (Sat) 10:01 [Preview] No.900 del
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Trying to make sushi turned out as expected even without Cat 'helping' with possession. But it was fun and we still ate it. Doesn't taste bad because it looks bad. Ok maybe a bit.


Alice 06/03/2023 (Sat) 16:42 [Preview] No.902 del
Sushi is hard, maybe start with something easier if you're already having trouble with lasagna?


Bear 06/04/2023 (Sun) 02:02 [Preview] No.903 del
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Me when I make sushi for mah friends.


Tamamo 06/06/2023 (Tue) 10:39 [Preview] No.919 del
Based.
We'll keep trying even if the results are questionable. It's a good training for Cat's fine motor skills. They're awful.


Bear 06/06/2023 (Tue) 11:33 [Preview] No.920 del
>>919

Successfully making good rice is really a challenge without the right equipment, if you got that far I'd say you got 90%. The rest is just having one of those bamboo rollie things and following directions.

Even I, double master of everything, didn't make good rice the first time.


Anonymous 06/06/2023 (Tue) 21:08 [Preview] No.923 del
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>>920
shouldnt tamamo be master of rice?


Anonymous 06/06/2023 (Tue) 21:29 [Preview] No.924 del
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>>903
how are you at dancing?
had my first lession on sunday, almost forgot to report. it started off really easy and i felt comfortble i got this but quickly got difficult and the brain just went nope. havent felt that retarded in a long time. seriuus spaghetti potential. and really exhausting after 90min. so this is how Alice tortures her host.

no chance to involve Yulya in actual dance lession but that wasnt the point we practiced afterwards at home. man i knew this was going to be hard but i underestimated this shit. a lot. but it was fun and there were a lot of girls who were not better than me. most were older than me though. we'll see how things develop next weekend and keep practicing in front of the mirror until then


Bear 06/06/2023 (Tue) 22:02 [Preview] No.926 del
>>924

Well ofc I knew nothing until I took dance classes. Kinda nice in that there was like three guys in the class and I was really good at waltz and other ballroom stuff but modern dance was never going to be my thing. I never made any use of it. Where could I even go? I don't go to clubs ever, they're full of pros and pushers not to mention everyone is tatted, low class and reeks of pot. Fuuuuuck that.

I was dragged to them before and girls wanted to dance but again, it was never going to be my thing. Don't you actually have to want to dance first?

The dance classes were more just to get structured cardio anyway. Felt like a fool doing anything but waltz and foxtrot type shit, those I could do. Club dancing? I'd rather be beaten by a club. It looks gay to me, even the girls look dumb unless they're like spectacularly good.

My girlfriends weren't the clubbing type, they were the criminally insane type and they'd rather poison people's dogs and entrap people than dance. But you know.


Tamamo 06/07/2023 (Wed) 11:00 [Preview] No.928 del
>>923
Haha I'm as much Chinese as you're Russian, Kashtan! But you're right the rice was the best part of the sushi. I think it turned out as it should.

>>924
Come me on, more spaghetti details! How much fell out of your pocket? It was ballroom dancing so you coud do this with tupper right? Or will you become member of a Japanese idol group?


Anonymous 06/07/2023 (Wed) 22:06 [Preview] No.934 del
>>926
>>928
yes of course classic ballroom pair dancing you think i'm learning to twerk like some nigger, lol

learned the basics of basics of waltz and rumba in first lesson. rumba was easier. biggest spaghetti was the girl stepping on my feet several times i mean i was bad but she was way worse and very nervous. tripped over her own feet and stuff, zero feel for rhythm. felt bad for her but it was annoying i was busy with my own incompetence. if dancing was designed to check if potential partners are retarded this works. hope i get some better girl next time.

caught myself thinking i'm not here to pick up girls, i'm doing this for tupper god what have i done

so i tried to rehearse basic steps at home but i still cant imagine how to combine this with tuppering Alice halp
inb4 force moar


Bear 06/08/2023 (Thu) 03:25 [Preview] No.936 del
>>934

Not you?


Alice 06/08/2023 (Thu) 13:25 [Preview] No.941 del
>>934
Obviously force moar. But yourself first. There's no point in trying to dance with tupper until you can't at least do the basic steps in your sleep without thinking. You gotta offload dancing to unconscious memory so the brain has capacity for tupper. How do you do that? Practice, practice practice.

Try to dance the basic steps on your own without looking at your feet or in a mirror. Once you can do that close your eyes and do the same. Try to visualize yourself looking at your feet. Once you got this you can start visualizing tupper and once you got this tupper can try to do things on her own. Yes, this is as hard as it sounds. I'm not claiming we're particularly good at this stuff but good enough for basic ballroom dance moves.

Mostly latin americcan dances because they can be done stationary. Don't try to waltz through your living room woth closed eyes. Been there, did that, tripped over cat, broke stuff.

We never got gud at Viennese Waltz and Foxtrot/Quickstep because we don't have the space for it plus the teen girls host used to dance with didn't like it. ChaCha, Samba and Salsa work best for us.

>>936
NIGGER


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Anonymous 06/08/2023 (Thu) 22:24 [Preview] No.955 del
>>941
oof yeah what i expected. i'll take it easy and step by step. so far Yulya seems motivated which is good shes not too interested in most irl stuff

fun fact nigger dances arent even popular with the youth while folk dances and music are. at least one good sideeffect from the goddamn russians threatening us. traditions and national identity are stronger than ever. not sure it will last though


Bear 06/11/2023 (Sun) 22:16 [Preview] No.994 del
Today we talked about relaxation and we relaxed. There are things to do but today is for convalescence. Rainy days are for convalescence and the chance of rain in this region in June is <8%, today it happened, so today I rest.

Joy imposed on me like she likes to do, I'm her chair. Ashley and I spoke about memories of Tulpa.info. Finally anyone can be the hub and everyone can experience through her. This is perfect. It's peaceful.


Tamamo 06/12/2023 (Mon) 08:42 [Preview] No.995 del
>>994
Sounds comfy.
Cat is a bit too tall to be imposed on my lap, would have to be the other way round.

Went on a short trip this weekend, imposed her a lot, was fun. She's finally getting more active and less lazy. At least a tiny bit. Sometimes.


Anonymous 06/12/2023 (Mon) 14:13 [Preview] No.999 del
If you force your tulpa to poop for you, is that considered reverse anal rape?


Anonymous 06/12/2023 (Mon) 22:41 [Preview] No.1005 del
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>>999
>Anonymous
Hmm, I wonder who could be behind this post


Bear 06/13/2023 (Tue) 02:05 [Preview] No.1010 del
I'm not admitting to anything until someone answers the question.


Alice 06/14/2023 (Wed) 00:38 [Preview] No.1018 del
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>>999
>>1010
I know it's you, nobody but you says 'poop'.

Anyway, unfortunately the art of digestive system forcing is lost in the depths of time, Sands was promoting it years ago, you gotta ask him.


Ashley 06/14/2023 (Wed) 03:27 [Preview] No.1022 del
>>1018

[Ashley] That's a relief, no pun intended. Bear had a stray thought that I needed to overcome my fears but no thanks.

[Bear] I say poop only because if it's poop then there's no disambiguation. If it's shit then it might be junk or crap or random expletive, or just bad. Poop is poop and only poop.


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Anonymous 06/14/2023 (Wed) 15:51 [Preview] No.1025 del
dancing update, did quickstep and chachacha. man quickstep is hard, chacha is easy at least basics. dumb girl from firts lession didnt show up, almost all different people which is good. danced with older girl who was much better. could concentrate at myself which helps. this is good cardio, felt completely exhausted afterwards. will keep practicing basic steps alone for now. thats all folks no major spaghetti


Alice 06/14/2023 (Wed) 22:50 [Preview] No.1033 del
>>1025
Keep practicing!
It's not easy in the beginning but great fun once you can do it at least a little bit.

We took an evening walk through Nymphenburg Park it was very nice. Roses and linden trees are flowering, awesome scent. Gud place to be imposed.


Tamamo 06/16/2023 (Fri) 12:02 [Preview] No.1052 del
Good forcing sessions brushing and dressing Cat up. She's definitely more active now. Cooking attempt to meke breaded fish filet failed totally. Not just ugly but also burned. I blame it on the Cat.


Bear 06/17/2023 (Sat) 13:56 [Preview] No.1062 del
Everyone's sick except me irl so since in the last few months they've been sick over and over and I haven't, I volunteered to help. So I stayed over with bestie, didn't have to bathe her myself thank lord Vishnu, but she had an accident in the bathroom that I helped her through because she's sick with a high fever. Her mother is also sick but she can clean up her own mess at least. Lost some time working but I don't really care that much. My other friend is coming over for the day shift soon.

Joy dressed as Gretta and we spared about environmentalism.

[Joy] no, I lectured him on his misplaced ideals.

Very realistic.

Then intrusive thoughts kept returning to the naked gretta which was more of a nightmare than anything bc butterface. I was really scatterbrained in that session, all over the place. I blame lack of orange juice and peanuts.


Tamamo 06/17/2023 (Sat) 16:28 [Preview] No.1063 del
>>1062
What kind of sickness? Covid? Unusual for summer.

Debates or deep discussions aren't really possible with Cat. Doesn't care, goes to sleep. Or slaps me if I force her.


Bear 06/17/2023 (Sat) 19:18 [Preview] No.1066 del
>>1063

[Bear] The girl got sick from school like every other week! At least school is out. I hear she's getting better now. No covid, that's fake nuuze bruh.

Seriously though, tested negative. But at this point I could give a fuck about Covid. That's propaganda at this point, the virus has way less of a punch then the first varient as they tend to do.

[Ashley] rant abridged for common decency.

[Bear] shit, must be bad if Ashley censored me. I was just throwing shade at the "typical covid victims" for their life choices.


Anonymous 06/18/2023 (Sun) 00:03 [Preview] No.1068 del
>>1063
>ask tupper for opinion
>get slapped
lol i'd like to se a brawl between you two wait shes much taller and stronger thn your right?

>>1066
>The girl got sick from school like every other week!
well thats not normal. maybe feed her with your smoothies. but schools and kids are like the perfect breeding ground for all kinds of diseases. covid is completely memoryholed here though lockdowns were really strict in 20-21. even sent military police and paramilitary forces to the streets. yet there were even more deaths per million than in the us. lots of stubborn unhealthy old people here like in most of eastern europe. well not anymore lol


Misha 06/19/2023 (Mon) 03:05 [Preview] No.1082 del
[Misha] Today I sat on Bear's lap because I needed attention and he's been slacking on giving me attention lately.

Then I turned him on with thoughts of naughty things I could do to him.

I acted as the hub but half my team opted out, their loss.

Then we discussed about exploring my origins again and I took off my shirt.

[Bear] and I stopped her. y she so høny? This isn't a dream or hypnagogia, she knows the rules, no. I only have eyes for my pug-faced eco-girl Gretta.

[Misha] *hmph* the pug is cuter.

[Bear] maybe but I'm no furry fag.


Tamamo 06/19/2023 (Mon) 09:55 [Preview] No.1083 del
>>1068
Yeah the Cat is big, half a meter taller than Alice. But much more peaceful. Or better too lazy to fight. But I'm proud she can make clear she doesn't want stuff and isn't some puppet.

>>1082
What's with your obsession with this thing?

We visited extended family yesterday, keeping Cat around worked out well. She does pop up on her own now and does or comnents on things. Feels good.


Bear 06/19/2023 (Mon) 14:06 [Preview] No.1085 del
>>1083

>What's with your obsession with this thing?

You mean the pug? I like dogs, I just wouldn't want to take care of one.

You mean the environment? I like to complain and hate on humans, just not how you think.

You mean the eco-terrorist? I love a demonic, villainous pain in the ass, they're kinda my type.


Tamamo 06/20/2023 (Tue) 11:26 [Preview] No.1098 del
>>1085
I meant the eco terrorist


Bear 06/20/2023 (Tue) 18:10 [Preview] No.1102 del
>>1098

I think I have a crush. Just look at that misplaced environmentalist concern on her face! ♡♡♡

[Ashley] no he does not!


Bear 06/21/2023 (Wed) 03:10 [Preview] No.1111 del
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Today I had a pretty good discussion with Joy. I find life in the Bear head is really enjoyable nowadays, we have a lot of fun. We walked in wonderland and hung out in an abandoned schoolhouse that was partially taken over by nature. Ofc there was no graffiti or meth addicted squatters because drugs aren't allowed in wonderland.

Ashley and I discussed good times we had on .info, it was good that it happened, we can enjoy the times we had without any regret or feeling like we need to do that again. It helped make us who we are.

Still I wonder what we would have done alone. Alas there was help that actually helped. So who knows.


Tamamo 06/21/2023 (Wed) 12:56 [Preview] No.1114 del
Even with all the cringe the forums are helpful. I learned a lot from lurking. Also imagine never being able to talk about tuppers with anyone and them never interacting with other humans. Kind of sad. And boring.

But yeah I mean I never talked to anyone on .info, never made a post or sent a message.


Bear 06/21/2023 (Wed) 14:11 [Preview] No.1116 del
>>1114

It was tulpa kindergarten but the moderators were toxic a-holes. Vos and Felights I mean, the rest were ok.

A lot of people liked us, some of them we never knew and our "goodbye" note was answered by people we never talked to directly. We haven't been active there since February and even then we took large swaths of time off since Jan 2020.

That place used to be fun and light but since 2020 it's been heavy and dark. Just perfect if you're depressed I guess. Pitty party and mental illness on display. Good luck to them.


Bear 06/21/2023 (Wed) 15:28 [Preview] No.1117 del
>>1114

It was tulpa kindergarten but the moderators were toxic a-holes. Vos and Felights I mean, the rest were ok.

A lot of people liked us, some of them we never knew and our "goodbye" note was answered by people we never talked to directly. We haven't been active there since February and even then we took large swaths of time off since Jan 2020.

That place used to be fun and light but since 2020 it's been heavy and dark. Just perfect if you're depressed I guess. Pitty party and mental illness on display. Good luck to them.


Alice 06/21/2023 (Wed) 20:29 [Preview] No.1122 del
>>1117
Nobody ever complained about the awful things I did. It was lame. Well, .info is basically dead anyway from what I've seen.


Alice 06/21/2023 (Wed) 20:34 [Preview] No.1123 del
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Summer solstice
Sun set at 21:20 and will rise again at 5:10. A bit over 16h of sunshine. We're still sitting outside at 22h and it's not entirely dark. There's the sickle of the new moon and venus, looks like the Turkish flag. Very nice. Aaand - there just was the first firefly of the season!

I don't particularly like summer solstice though, it means it's going downhill from now. But for the next 2 monts life will be good. I'm a child of summer. I need long days, warm nights, flowers and green trees.

Do you have any celebrations for summer solstice? Here there are a lot of public bonfires on the weekends before and after solstice and we'll attend one next weekend. It's very archaic alpine folklore.


Bear 06/21/2023 (Wed) 22:23 [Preview] No.1124 del
>>1123

I've never heard of any celebrations around the solstices.

I like the lead-up to the winter solstice (again no celebrating) I just like more darkness, cold and rain. I'm always dissapointed when fall is over, even Christmas is no consolation. I like fall only.


Tamamo 06/22/2023 (Thu) 18:47 [Preview] No.1136 del
>>1123
No, summer solstice isn't a thing here. Guess its more of an European celebration.

We cooked various stuff with various success, it still was fun. Cat voices her opinion more strongly now. Inb4 fight over stove like Alice.


Bear 06/22/2023 (Thu) 21:44 [Preview] No.1137 del
We contemplated briefly the conscious mind. There wasn't much to consider.


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sorry been busy. dancing lession were slow waltz and polka. polka was fun real peasant dance. danced wth severl girls this time they were ok. focusing on prcticing chacha at home now, easy and needs little space. i can do a little with closed eyes now but tupper still has to watch.
soon


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>>1123
yeah midsummer is a big thing here celebrated on st. johns day jun24th so tomorrow. very ancient pagan festival held since thousands of years. people gather outside to dance, eat and drink. also bonfires. i think its in all nordic countries ikea even makes ads with it.


Bear 06/24/2023 (Sat) 03:14 [Preview] No.1150 del
[Bear] We actually talked a lot about things today but I forgot what it was about.

[Ashley] yeah, we talked with SheShe about Manifesting, I questioned his sanity, Misha was slightly offended, Joy was not amused but did find the experiment interesting and considering the target subject is unrelated to us, she felt this "eco terrorist" would be as good a target as any but questioned Bear's choice as there are obviously better choices.

[Joy] I merely proposed that if he wanted to manifest a beautiful hispanic woman, there are many other choices as he seems to not be as attracted to this girl as he could be but he has it in his mind that it was funnier this way and I then questioned his motives and his sense of humor but Bear can be frustratingly esoteric and obtuse.

[Misha] we love him no matter what he is.

[Ashley] ngl he's been weird lately and I blame the smoothies. But his mood has been over the top, so meh.

[Joy] I'll allow it.

[SheShe] frankly he's been nothing but happy since I've been in this form January 2020, but I do notice that he's even happier lately. I don't think tea would do that and it's not like he craves the tea, plus it's caffeine free, so it is curious but he's been working harder than he's worked since last summer and that sort of thing makes him happy. Plus he's seemingly happiest when he's sore and exhausted, so that could be it too.

[Bear] oh right, now I remember.


Tamamo 06/24/2023 (Sat) 12:41 [Preview] No.1153 del
>>1144
Whoa that loks pretty cool, very archaic

>>1150
I don't get what you're trying to prove with this, Bear. Even a tupper noob like me can make up some character of any celebrity or eco terrorist and turn it into Tupper with some effort. Thats the whole point of tulpamancy. Unless the real person knocks on your door and wants to have sex with you I'm not impressed. But yeah whatever makes you guys happy.


Bear 06/24/2023 (Sat) 13:33 [Preview] No.1154 del
>>1153

No no, I'm not making any thoughtform. I'm attempting to see if I could manifest a dream e counter simply by willing it. If my higher self can do things like synchronicities and good luck then this should follow.

Considering dream character manifestation is as unlikely as lucid dreaming on demand, you have to admit if that could be willed into existence, that's a pretty neat trick that's virtually unheard of.

It would then at least say be a first step in providing evidence for the theory that this must be similar to a simulation. It would be followed up by other experiments. This is just what I would consider trivial for some hacker, to mod in a hot character, or not so hot, or anything. We'll see, 6 nights remain.


Alice 06/24/2023 (Sat) 15:16 [Preview] No.1156 del
>>1144
Kashtan clearly wins in terms of midsummer celebrations.

>>1154
If you obsess enough about her you should drastically raise your chance of her appearing in your dreams. Like you are likely dream about intense activities you've done during the day, especially in hypnagogia.


Alice 06/24/2023 (Sat) 18:17 [Preview] No.1167 del
Well we're outta here for our midsummer bonfire, don't wait up!


Bear 06/25/2023 (Sun) 03:06 [Preview] No.1182 del
>>1156

>If you obsess enough about her

No noooo no, my higher self's gotta do this on hos own or it doesn't count.


Bear 06/25/2023 (Sun) 07:32 [Preview] No.1184 del
>>1167
>>1156
>>1183

Stage one of the research project is complete.

I had sex with Xiye Bastida in a dream and it was good enough.

I'm going to have to cunsult with my system about the nature of the next step but this clearly puts me into god-tier dream master hacker.

I'd like to thank my highet self for being good at hacking the matrix and now that I know he's got my back I'm thrilled at what we can accomplish together.

I suppose it was true that ole gretta was too much of a potato for my higher self to consider me, his avatar, to have sex with and I appreciate him setting boundaries for me.

Good vibes man, I appreciate you good sir. Nice touch making her a virgin, that was genuinely and literally the cherry on top.

[Ashley] I'll be damned, fr, I'm next, let's go.

[Misha] nuh uh

[Bear] we'll be discussing the next stage probably later today provately. The future just got brighter fellows.


Anonymous 06/25/2023 (Sun) 09:57 [Preview] No.1187 del
I was trying to find an AI voice to repeat Gretta to overtly subliminally put her in your head, but I got terribly distracted by this AI Squidward cover of My Way and AI cover of Country Roads.

https://youtube.com/watch?v=zFdwr3jZs7Q [Embed]

https://youtube.com/watch?v=0DlagJJ8zQY [Embed]


Bear 06/25/2023 (Sun) 11:12 [Preview] No.1188 del
>>1187

Beautiful, 10/10


Bear 06/26/2023 (Mon) 02:22 [Preview] No.1194 del
Today my irl friends ruined my life by kidnapping me and taking me to get a mani pedi.

What am I their paper doll?

No one had the champagne, why were we even there?

They called my feet unkempt! The nerve! Granted they were neglected, I was too busy. I feel bad but seriously!

Don't they know people get permanent toe fungus from those places?!

Did the pedi lady need to masage my calfs? Is that necessary? I really don't like people touching me. Also the pedi lady like practically snuggled my arm in her busom.

My feet are going to smell like patchouli oil for days. The next time they try to force me to do something imma run.


Yamamo 06/26/2023 (Mon) 11:50 [Preview] No.1198 del
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>>1194
Hahaha oh man!
Be happy that girls care about you.

We have ants in the apartment. They're tiny and no termites but it's still not good. Tasked Cat with finding out where they came from but she couldn't and quickly lost interest.


Bear 06/26/2023 (Mon) 16:47 [Preview] No.1199 del
>>1198

The two ant species we have here that invade homes are the Argentine Ants which are about 2mm long and black but have colonies that can have multiple queens and span many square miles. They don't bite. They also keep subterranean turmites away which is good. Subterranean termites can destroy a house in a few years, they eat every inner stud until the house becomes unstable.

The only way to stop them is to block every entrance. This means under every wall it must be sealed and every window. Also egress through an attic or wet wall. It's a slow process of finding entrance points and blocking them.

The other one is the Pharoah ants. They're tiny 1mm long and you might not even see them. Completely harmless. They can be stopped by putting gel poison around the parameters of the rooms affected. They're so small that finding the entrance is futile.

Ants leave no mess either. Cockroaches will poop black everywhere.

The girls do love and take care of me like a family but I'm not a teddybear.


Alice 06/26/2023 (Mon) 18:12 [Preview] No.1200 del
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>>1194
>Today my irl friends ruined my life by kidnapping me and taking me to get a mani pedi
Are you absolutely sure they're not Crab people?

>>1198
>Yamamo
That's what you get for not using superior German QUERTZ keyboard.
>>1198


Alice 06/26/2023 (Mon) 18:36 [Preview] No.1201 del
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Saturday midsummer bonfire report:
It was neat. There were tons of people, some in traditional costumes, not host though. he doesn't have an Lederhosen. There was live music, lots of food and the bonfire was huge and sent a stream of sparks into the night sky. The heat was enormous. Definitely will go there again, but probably in the mountains next year where its even more spectacular.


Anonymous 06/27/2023 (Tue) 03:21 [Preview] No.1206 del
>>1200
They're Eldrich Terrors higher dimensional creatures of unimaginable intelligence and unmatched evil.

You should have seen the toe skin dust though, insane.

>>1201
Nice!


Tamamo 06/27/2023 (Tue) 12:23 [Preview] No.1207 del
>>1198
>>1200
Damn can't even write my own name. But Zamamo wouldn't have been any better. Ants are gone for now, I hope they stay away. Don't really wanna use poison because of the irl cat.

>>1201
Haha, I'd like to see you two in traditional costumes!

Cat is a lot more active now and pops up on her own but almost never talks. Uses body language instead.


Alice 06/27/2023 (Tue) 21:04 [Preview] No.1213 del
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>>1207
>Cat almost never talks. Uses body language instead.
Silent Bob tupper

How is Cat's voice anyway?


Alice 06/27/2023 (Tue) 21:44 [Preview] No.1214 del
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>>1207
>Haha, I'd like to see you two in traditional costumes!

I have a traditional Bavarian dress called 'Dirndl' in Blue-White which is pretty neat but I don't normally wear dresses. And the male version with the leather shorts just looks silly.

Host says the whole costume stuff is fake anyway and was invented by city-folk in 19th century to give the inhabitants of the newly formed kingdom of Bavaria that had little in common some unifying identity that was yet distinct from region to region.


Bear 06/28/2023 (Wed) 02:23 [Preview] No.1215 del
Today the chatter was intense. We downloaded those pictures and were discussing the possibilities amd presentation.

I presume the current most used forms apply, the current appropriate personas, etc.

No cat tail was dissapoint. Ren has a cat tail not a fluffy tail. "Animal ears" ok. Depending on how we present it, maybe mod, probably no.

It was hard to say we are missing features we want or not, even Misha has tentacles sometimes. (Apparently). Ulla lizard match (technically a dragonkin hybrid), yeah there were a couple we wouldn't want.

So several of my system would want to collar me, doms, that kind of shizzle but it's forbidden, not after the last time.

Glasses, check, asexual type, yep, we need some quality time to think about them further.

Next we were thinking a lot about games, Gwen wanted to find a mining game and there are some in early access but only one stood up as a good possibility, so we're playing that to see.

Ulla was active and very frisky, she hissed at Ren, then she defended me from Ren's attacks. Ulla may be small but she's got the quickness. She's shaping up nicely but she's pure lesbian, I am her god-father ofc.

[Joy] yes it's hard not to think of Bear as at least royalty. He created me and made me who I am. It's very hard to consider him an equal even when he's goofy and slow, I still look up to him.


Tamamo 06/28/2023 (Wed) 09:40 [Preview] No.1216 del
>>1213
>Silent Bob tupper
Haha yeah I guess

>>1214
Can't imagine you in this tbh


Alice 06/28/2023 (Wed) 18:38 [Preview] No.1223 del
>>1215
>No cat tail was dissapoint. Ren has a cat tail not a fluffy tail.
It's fluffy enough to be used as a radiator brush so that should be ok.


Bear 06/29/2023 (Thu) 00:28 [Preview] No.1224 del
>>1223

Don't make me talk about the Ido clone army to supplement the Tewi clone army. And I'm forcing them tp work together against the Mwahaha mwahahahaha

https://youtube.com/watch?v=BdvUR67nZs0 [Embed]

[Joy] we've genetically modified them to never age just like me. A whole army of loli demons and moon rabbit demigods to fight the rebel NPCs. Isn't that wonderful?

Yakumo:

https://youtube.com/watch?v=0GDA0tRftmY [Embed]

Me watching them tear apart the rebel scum:

https://youtube.com/watch?v=P3ALwKeSEYs [Embed]


Alice 06/29/2023 (Thu) 12:23 [Preview] No.1225 del
>>1224
>Ido clone army
Dangerously based

>we've genetically modified them to never age
No need, I ship with this factory installed

>A whole army of loli demons
One Ido should be enough to crush any resistance.
Still I request a simple drawing of this scene!
inb4 never ever as always


Bear 06/29/2023 (Thu) 14:37 [Preview] No.1227 del
I was in a woke teenage disney movie. I know, a nightmare.

There was singing and bad plot holes and ofc an old actor that they made dress like a drag queen and was walking my way as his hideous self was obviously in the script to interact with me, obviously not a teen but playing a teenager. I could only imagine what because I didn't read the whole script. But my lines were clearly leading to doing some kind of scene with this monster. As I was backing up the girl actress next to me said, "what are you doing, you're supposed to... blah blah" I didn't care I wasn't going to be a part of this spectacle.

I remembered fondly back when it was ok to hate tr.ansvestites and even worse tr.ans old med dressed up like a pagent quenn who threw up sparkles. I ran. I ran through all the anthro chibi characters by a pool and narrowly avoided Poison Ivy only she was non-binary and played by a dude. I ran past at least 4 villians trying to catch me and met up with other teenage boys who were also trying to escape but all the escape hatches were closing. I decided to heroically save a black boy and held back two villians.

There was an alternative ending but it was boring.

No cute girls but an older lady did have a crazy dress showing her full boobs and they were nice, but I couldn't concentrate on that because I had to get away.


Bear 06/29/2023 (Thu) 16:20 [Preview] No.1228 del
>>1225

In my head the scene is perfectly and permanently rendered in full HD.

On the eve of battle the loli demon commander stands on stage facing a legion of loli demon regiments and Tewi clone moon rabbit ground teams. The crisp, pre-dawn air bites at their rosy cheeks as the full moon approaches the horizon.

She smiles as she takes a deep breath and taps the microphone lightly causing a momentary echo accross the airfield.

Without hesitation she points to the eastern horizon at the gentle grey orb.

The legion turns toward the calming blue light with a clearly divided reverence and loathing among the respective troops. Half of them have no idea what's about to happen.

"BEHOLD!" The commander's voice rings out, saturating the amplifiers in a cacophony of grating high frequency squelches.

She pushes a small button and shines a laser pen toward the western horizon.

"Peeewww." She says with a giggle and in just over a second the moon is ripped asunder by trillions of nuclear blasts rigged to detonate simultaneously, and amid this light show brighter than a hundred suns, gravity waves ripple through Earth with an eerie uneasiness felt across the planet.

After the inital blast, the view is a spectacular yellow and orange ball slowly mentally illforming into a spiral, stretching like taffy as a sphere of specular dust expands outward. Everyone is mesmerized by the show, exactly half in barely contained joy threatening to erupt in revelry and half in sheer terror amid desperate gasps. In less than a minute the extents of the moon have doubled in the sky as the remnants expand outward revealing what begins to resemble a great flaming eye with the white molten core of the moon at its pupil, staring down like Ra over all creation.

She continues with confidence and vigor, "in approximately an hour and a half the first of the meteorites will begin to pelt the Earth wreaking total devastation. The resulting mass of debris will light up the sky and anything under this glorious light will be baked in a hellfire this world hasn't seen in over 4 billion years.

"This means we have roughly thirteen and a half hours to prepare the anti-grav mech suits and begin the orbital assault. What the moon doesn't finish, we will. Take no prisoners and leave no one and no thing alive."

A great cheer disrupts over the legion of demon lolis as the Tewi clones have a mixed reaction. Some stare haplessly at the fading scene as it begins to dissapear over the horizon, some fall to their knees and sob. Some break ranks and wander aimlessly in an unresponsive catatonic haze, but still the majority remain resolved in their mission.

...

"LET THE PARTY BEGIN!"


Bear 06/29/2023 (Thu) 16:27 [Preview] No.1229 del
>>1227

Oh... no no this didn't actually happen, it was supposed to be under the dreams section.


Alice 06/29/2023 (Thu) 21:16 [Preview] No.1230 del
>>1228
*crashes your moon*
with no survivors


Bear 06/29/2023 (Thu) 21:49 [Preview] No.1231 del
>>1229

https://youtube.com/watch?v=OT5mqWKirhI [Embed]

Of course we didn't crash the moon. The core will re-accret most of the debris after the formation of the ring system.


Bear 06/30/2023 (Fri) 03:13 [Preview] No.1232 del
Today we blew up the moon in wonderland to sqash the resistance. The entirely of the Earth is now active volcanoes and boiling seas as asteroids continue to rain like fire and brimstone.

The arks were safely moved to a stability point and will continue to maintain the friction shields to prevent 70km micro-impacts from the now hazardous Earth vicinity.

On board we managed to collect a dozen Ents, some racoon girls, Rend the dragon, a few hundred deer and elk and snailey among other important plants and animals in the 4 arcs with 4000 acres of arable soil each.

The view is absolutely spectacular.

We expect there may still be resistance on the antarctic continent in New Berchetesgaden but without supplies their days will be numbered.

The Ido clone army performed well and those Tewi clones who steadfastly followed orders join them in the cryo-ship currently on its way to Mars orbit.

We'll maintain here for a while before applying the time-alteration field around Earth.


Tamamo 06/30/2023 (Fri) 07:51 [Preview] No.1234 del
Damn, that's an adventure!
I want to do something like that too but my imagination and visualization sucks. And Cat is lazy.


Tamamo 06/30/2023 (Fri) 08:16 [Preview] No.1235 del
Ido Alice clone army sounds overkill! Tewi is an earth rabbit though who has never been on the moon. Reisen is the moon rabbit who fled to Gensokyo after humans invaded the moon with Apollo11.


Anonymous 06/30/2023 (Fri) 11:49 [Preview] No.1238 del
>>1234

You should have read the Visualization Practice Thread. It's still there I suppose.

>>1235

>overkill

No such word sir, I'm American.


Tamamo 06/30/2023 (Fri) 12:27 [Preview] No.1240 del
>>1238
I know it exists but I haven't looked at it bc I want to try it with Cat. If I can get her to play along. Which is doubtful.


Bear 07/01/2023 (Sat) 03:42 [Preview] No.1248 del
Well, my home business has gone into easy mode and I seem to have a little more time to handle improvement projects, so I spent all day in the attic rewiring kitchen lights. It's not as fun as it sounds because I get covered in fiberglass, I have to crawl like a spider because there's not enough enough room to crawl upright in that area and it's virtually guaranteed to cause a heat stroke eventually so I must take a lot of brakes.

Ofc my system books it outta there lest they accidentally switch in and get assaulted by 100+degree fiberglass suspended air in claustrophobic conditions.

This weekend I'm looking forward to crawling into an even tighter space where I have to pull myself along either prone or supine because there's barely enough room to roll over to put in a bathroom fan on the hottest weekend of the year thus far. It's the little things that really make life worth living ya know? I love it anyway.


Alice 07/02/2023 (Sun) 21:08 [Preview] No.1274 del
Wear some protective gear, idiot!
While the body's osteoclasts can break down even glass fibers, some of this stuff is biopersistent and will remain in your body.

I'd be more worried about dust from bat and rodent shit in attics. Really great stuff to inhale, full of highly pathogenic bacteria, viruses and fungi. I think you have Hantavirus in California.

When we were working in the tropics they had locals renovate the roof of some facility building. It was full of bats. 3 workers ended up in hospital, dunno if they made it. Afterwards people in hazmat suits tore down the entire roof. Really nasty stuff. Makes me glad we have none of this here. And no fiberglass in the attic either.


Bear System 07/02/2023 (Sun) 21:27 [Preview] No.1275 del
>>1274

>Wear some protective gear, idiot!

[Misha] Awww Alice cares about my Bear! ♡

[Joy] If you are going to adopt my host, please keep in mind that we have him pretty well under control. Not only does he wear a dust mask, eye protection, gloves, high socks, hat and is thereby nearly covered 100%, regardless of what he says, he is being instructed semi-hourly to hydrate and cool off.

[Bear] the work is 75% done, I finished the kitchen ceiling yesterday, bringing it up to code as well. The bathroom fan is up and I just finished calking and spackling. Sanding and painting is tomorrow as well as wiring, vent line, and insulation. The 6" roof vent has been there since mid-June.

There isn't a single sign of bats, rodents or even bugs at all. We dohave hantavirus and lime disease both of which are terrible awful diseases, but not worse than unrecognized rabis. That's 100% death if not caught early with no symptoms until you're already marked for death. Lyme disease doesn't go away either.

Fiberglass in the lungs sucks but it will go away in a week or so. It happened a couple times in my life, no I don't like it.

We have bats here, little ones, but they keep to the trees in the canyons and occasionally my front doorstep.


Anonymous 07/02/2023 (Sun) 21:55 [Preview] No.1276 del
Good work

Was trying to get wall-to-wall carpet replaced in my 20 year old manufactured (mobile) home, but it turned out the carpet was all laid and glued directly on top of lino? With no carpet pad? Have you ever heard of such a thing? As in, it looked like they literally cut the carpet and superglued it directly to the linoleum, which was a living mass of mildew and mold. Even the master bathroom has wall to wall carpet.


Do you flip the houses or is this just personal home improvement? You don't have a wife, do you??? I'm not up to date on Bear lore. It sounds like you have a lot of house for a bachelor, but such things are assets honestly. Need a shop/garage with what you do at the minimum


Bear 07/02/2023 (Sun) 22:21 [Preview] No.1278 del
>>1276

>Have you ever heard of such a thing?

Yeah most contractors are shady fuckups who cut corners every chance. I do everything myself because I'm a double master and I can do everything better than a professional because it costs me only supplies and I can watch a youtube video to see what's the best way. My realtor friend has been telling me horror stories so that doesn't surprise me.

>You don't have a wife, do you?

No way dude. Well I had a live in gf and she probably left me partially because I wouldn't marry her but it's not smart in this climate. Too litigious, too heavy on her side, lawyers are expensive. She was making as much as me but not after I got the side hustle, that doubled my income and I'd lose a lot in that deal.

Would I ever marry? Hmmmmm. Why? I don't want kids. If I suddenly wanted kids then sure, and if I did why not wait till I'm in my 40's pick up a 29yr old trad and use her as a baby oven then.

>I'm not up to date on Bear lore.

Well I don't know who you are but it doesn't matter stick around and get your fill.

All I'm going to say is you need something like 200k to afford a minimum home here and it's hard to have a home business without a home.


Anonymous 07/03/2023 (Mon) 00:42 [Preview] No.1287 del
>>1278

I'm the retard who was reading "home business" as "business working on people's houses." It's a little understandable with all the construction talk... right...?


My tulpa brother talks that he wants to go to my new job, so the money will be his. I ask him what on earth he wants to spend money on. He really struggles to tell me. He says, little plastic sharks and wooden building blocks, and this cool hot wheels garbage truck I did not let him buy from the store the once. That's like 50 bucks total though....

Do you like your education? I really can't gauge what's worth it anymore. I've been in and out of university more than I care to explain, with no sheepskin.

There's not really a super strong correlation between the degrees and the higher paying, nicer jobs, if you ask me, in regards to my career field. It's more a "you have it or you don't have it" thing. It'll put you more on the admin side for sure- but I don't think I want on the admin side, ever. I don't want to play politics, ever, I want to do actual hands on work.


Bear 07/03/2023 (Mon) 01:01 [Preview] No.1288 del
>>1287

Let me just clarify something. When I said 200k I meant 200k/yr the minimum actual price of a decent home here is a mil.

>business working on people's houses

I'm not shady enough to make money at that.

>Do you like your education?

Bruh

>There's not really a super strong correlation between the degrees and the higher paying, nicer jobs

Bruh^2

>It's more a "you have it or you don't have it" thing

So you're saying you're a greeter at Walmart or a multi billionaire, but a degree has no bearing on this?

> It'll put you more on the admin side for sure

F that. I'm no boss like that. People suck and I'm not going to caudle them with adda boy just because they did their f-ing job. My buisness partner handles that dumb stuff. I'm the talent side fo sho. I def don't want any underlings at my day job either. Don't waste my time.

>I don't want to play politics, ever, I want to do actual hands on work.

I hate office politics, they can kiss my ass, and they do. I'll stay out of that at all costs even if it means less money.


Anonymous 07/03/2023 (Mon) 10:53 [Preview] No.1290 del
There's not really a super strong correlation between the degrees and the higher paying, nicer jobs, in my career field.

In my exact position, some of my coworkers have their masters and most have their bachelor's. I have no degree and make the same or more than them. My supervisor has just high school equivalancy from another country.

One of my coworkers does have the degrees to be able to go on the salaried, more admin desk job side: but everyone in town has refused to hire her there because she's a lazy POS, personality problems. So what a waste of a degree.

Ain't no one making six figures, pretty sure the highest salaried position in my building makes 80k a year....


I know several people who claim their solo construction buinesses as nonprofits, somehow. The same type of people who make 150k a year but don't buy car or health insurance, and are constantly bitching about the IRS. I wonder why lol.


Bear 07/03/2023 (Mon) 10:57 [Preview] No.1292 del
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>>1290
>in my profession


Bear 07/04/2023 (Tue) 02:52 [Preview] No.1304 del
Yes! Swimming season is here and I am out of shape for real.

Went to the uni pool with bestie, one of our group got us passes, but bestie had lessons anyway. So I swam during and it felt good man, great water temp.


Alice 07/04/2023 (Tue) 12:27 [Preview] No.1309 del
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>>1304
mfw host isn't the first to post 'reference photos' of scantly clad little girls

We've already been swimming in several lakes and rivers this year. Most were cold but not icy.


Bear 07/04/2023 (Tue) 15:57 [Preview] No.1310 del
>>1304
>>1309

Um hello, one of you posted a nude Gretta the eco terrorist photoshop waaay more scandalous than a girl swimming.


Yakumo 07/04/2023 (Tue) 21:56 [Preview] No.1315 del
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>>1310
That was no child, at least not by European standards.

Anyway I'm not even mad, was invited to distant neighbors and looked after and played with their 7 year old girl who was completely naked while splashing around with water in the garden. Get on my level, this kills the American. But nobody gives a fuck here and that's good. Her mother is refreshingly normal and knows I'm uber-reliable.

Girl's a bit of a dimwit and has no strong opinion on the industrial output of the Ottoman Empire in WWI but is quite nice - as long as she's alone. Goes full bitch mode when playing with other kids though, literally another person.

Why are humans like this? I never understood and it was terrible for me as a child. I hate competitive or manipulative people and group dynamics. It's like wolves competing for their rank in the pack. How unrefined. Especially girls excel in such psycho games from earliest age. Can't they all just quietly and productively work together like the gears in a clockwork without constantly trying to fight, cheat and exploit each other? I was never like this.

As you may guess I'm really not good with children. They're considered legally insane for a reason, inconsiderate, unreliable and irrational little sociopaths who ruthlessly exploit every opportunity without regard for the feelings of others. Very tough for INFP people like me. Even worse for tupper who has zero tolerance for creatures not living up to her unreachable ideals (aka everyone) and on top of that loli-charm doesn’t work on her.

So yeah, was good but emotionally exhausting after a few hours. That’s enough socializing with kids for some weeks now. No idea how parents deal with that all day every day. You either need to be an emotionally blind sociopath or simply dumb enough not to think about it.


Bear 07/04/2023 (Tue) 22:28 [Preview] No.1316 del


Anonymous 07/05/2023 (Wed) 11:57 [Preview] No.1321 del
>>1304
>phone timestamp filename
got me there for a second thinking this was actual photo of the girl you took but i can into reverse image search

>>1315
>be bernd
>play with 7yo girl
>has no strong opinion on the industrial output of the Ottoman Empire in WWI
>dumb bitch, do not want as gf
ebin

>>1316
i'd be more worried about him getting bullied by little girls


Bear 07/05/2023 (Wed) 19:43 [Preview] No.1323 del
An old English lady made it a point to tell me that I'm "ravishing" and it's it a shame I'm not immortalized by a master. I have no clue what just happened. I said that that was very kind and she walked away.

I mean old and hunched over, that old.

Half my mind is like, "aww isn't it nice to be beautiful" and the other half is like, "was I just marked?" Like is some Indian going to call me and say some old lady is kidnapped and they need walmart gift cards.

It's not the first time though. A few years ago I was getting my hair cut and an old lady said I looked "like an all American boy... just so handsome".


Anonymous 07/05/2023 (Wed) 20:01 [Preview] No.1324 del
>>1323

Step it up. I am not-infrequently accused of being Asian and looking like Dragon Ball Super Gohan by a bunch of mentally ill and demented people. One person told me I should seriously consider that I was Gohan in a past life.


Bear 07/05/2023 (Wed) 23:22 [Preview] No.1327 del
I know how much Yakumo wants to know the intimate details of a Bear's life so:

I went to a 9yr old's bday party today, had too much cake, wanted a nap but had to hold the piñatas. Girls scream very loud, but it doesn't bother me, they were giggling with bestie who is 9 I guess, so I've known her for 6 years, and I'm glad she got invited bc she was bullied by some of these brats, they played nice and ran around like manuiacs. They wanted me to go into a tiny tent, I declined, puppy eyes were involved, so I stuck one foot in, and it was like a girl blender in there. Never saw such a small tent let alone one crammed with girls. Then they tickled my foot, so I escaped, was chased, then they wanted to paint my nails, I had to use all my free will not to say, "no that's gay" bc not pc and they care about that shit. I RAN BRUH.

The mothers boozed it up with box wine so apparently I'm the most responsible person I know which is why I was dragged there.

The cake was good though. No icecream? Wtf?

One of the girls threw up so now I expect everyone to be sick.

Waz fun.

[Ashley] Bear talks tough but he's such a softie. He performed above and beyond the call of duty.

[Bear] there was a super hot mother there and I spoke briefly with her who overheard me talking about something and she wanted to help me because she said she knew something about it but she was vacuous, she didn't understand something obvious about it and I guess she just wasn't listening or something because seriously. Def will dream bang her later.


Yakumo 07/06/2023 (Thu) 15:36 [Preview] No.1328 del
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>>1327
>not you being the pinata
How disappointing

Also I seriously can't deal with screaming children or loud adults. Or generally people who can't STFU.

My loli gang luckily was relatively quiet but they were more like 12+
Didn't get my toenails painted but you can also have a lot of fun with permanent markers. Also tickled, yes. And they loved to sit or stand on me. Good times, it all seems so surreal nowadays

>I had to use all my free will not to say, "no that's gay"
Missed opportunity to redpill girls against cultural marxism and leftist tranny propaganda. Mom of mentioned 7yo neighbor girl recently told me she's desperate about what they tell kids about 'sexual diversity' in schools nowadays and that her class is full of antiosocial sandniggers so she's thinking about sending her daughter to a private conservative school. I could see how relieved she felt being able to talk to somene who wouldn't immediately call the police but agree with her. Well she knows I'm a right-wing extremist gun nut by today's standards so that wasn't overly surprising.

>Def will dream bang her later.
Why not 4 real?


Bear 07/06/2023 (Thu) 16:42 [Preview] No.1331 del
>>1328

Irl me if I took a nap instead of holding piñatas. Seriously tho I don't like people touching me and I don't discriminate old vs young.

Why would I want to bang some young mother? Just because her husband works as a doctor or a lawyer or whatever, all these women are multimillionaires and don't work and spend all day at the spa or yoga and shit, it's the area I live.

And she was hot for fantasy purposes but not hot enough to pass for real. Like, I have standards and truly if she was single and I was interested in dating or even hooking up, I wouldn't with her because I don't need the drama. I really don't need that drama. All my friends and headmates have already told me they won't allow me to have a girlfriend anymore. Long story but I agree and am happy not to.

I need to die alone and blissfully happy in doing so. Oh dark lord of hades, I want nothing of the drama of a real relationship or hookup. I have an aversion now, really.

Also glad to see you're still alive.


Yakumo 07/07/2023 (Fri) 15:01 [Preview] No.1338 del
>>1331
>Seriously tho I don't like people touching me and I don't discriminate old vs young.

And I thought I was assburger.
I like to be touched by girls very much.


Kashtan 07/08/2023 (Sat) 00:11 [Preview] No.1344 del
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>>1337
>Dancing status?
calmed down


Anonymous 07/08/2023 (Sat) 03:12 [Preview] No.1347 del
I'm being dragged to a Magic The Gathering Friday night magic session and I barely know how to play and am not competitive. Every time I go to these things I accidently cheat somehow (look at my cards when I'm supposed to sneak a card back in without looking, use a card that still has summoning sickness, forget to take damage, do math wrong, shuffle but forget to cut and let my opponent complete) and some turbo nerd gets bent out of shape. There seems to be almost no casual scene for MtG, just big sore losers with deep pockets to keep up with The Game.

I'm a tabletop nerd but I clearly lack whatever autismo powers a lot of people have, because my goal is fun and immersion, not being ahead in The Game (buying shit) and studying strategy like it's chess when it's YuGiOh.

I just want to be around people within 10 years of my age who are chill and not mentally ill- is this really so hard to ask? Am I the last person under 25 without ADHD or depression or anxiety or social media brain rot?

I really have low expectations that sound like "don't be on crack", "a little schizophrenia is okay", "don't care if they're neet so long as they're maybe on disability", "can be physically disfigured sure" but I just can't be friends with someone who talks constantly about how gay they are, and apparently everyone is gay now.

It gets so stressful to have no buddies. This is why God lets me have TWO in-head brothers.


Tamamo 07/08/2023 (Sat) 10:28 [Preview] No.1349 del
>>1344
Loser!

>>1347
>under 25
>I just want to be around people within 10 years of my age
Bad news, everyone here is at least 10 years older than you, the Big Guys are mid 40s


Bear 07/08/2023 (Sat) 15:07 [Preview] No.1350 del
>>1347
>chill and not mentally ill

In this community?! Unicorns don't exist outside of MLP dude.

>apparently everyone is gay now

Zoomers suck dick ngl

>MtG

You:Plays a game that was popular with the autistic genX'ers
Also you:Wonders why a bunch of autistic genX'ers are playing it

At least you're not on crack or other harder drugs? Most of yo gen are doing that too... though millennials aren't much better in that regard, fucking losers, all of them, thank Ganesha fentanyl is thinning that heard.


Bear 07/08/2023 (Sat) 15:12 [Preview] No.1352 del
>>1350

My friends and I seem to be the only millennials amd younger not using 16 hours a day. The whole fucking neighborhood reeks of pot and occasional meth labs


Alice 07/08/2023 (Sat) 22:05 [Preview] No.1354 del
>>1344
>given up on dancing
WHY??
What does Yulya say about this?


Alice 07/08/2023 (Sat) 22:10 [Preview] No.1355 del
>>1352
>The whole fucking neighborhood reeks of pot and occasional meth labs
Same here. Bolis does nothing because this would 'target minorities'.


Tamamo 07/09/2023 (Sun) 09:38 [Preview] No.1363 del
Western world in a nutshell. Theres no such thing here and drug dealers and druggies quickly disappear. Sure there's still drugs but not in public.

We made grilled seafod and it turned out really nice. Cat was motivated enough to handle most of it. Was imposed eating her own imaginary share on a real plate, good dinner for 2.


Anonymous 07/10/2023 (Mon) 23:05 [Preview] No.1379 del
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>>1354
its a failure cant sugarcoat it but it just didnt work. would go again with gf but alone it was cringe. people were cringe. what kind of girls go to dancing school alone? no normal ones.


Bear 07/11/2023 (Tue) 01:34 [Preview] No.1380 del
>>1379

Uh, the year I did it the ratio was 10:1 girls to guys. They were normal girls.


Yakumo 07/11/2023 (Tue) 21:21 [Preview] No.1384 del
>>1380
Yeah, same here. Where the hell did you go to learn dancing? Still sorry to hear that but I somewhat understand. ancing is precious and shouldn't be done with people you can't bond with.


Alice 07/11/2023 (Tue) 21:33 [Preview] No.1385 del
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We went to the forest outside the city to look for fireflies. They're only active for very short time at dusk, less than an hour before they disappear again. There also were a lot of mosquitos but it as worth it. We seldomly see one or two fireflies in the garden but there were hundreds at the edge of the forest dashing around and blinking. I was literally standing in a cloud of fireflies, that was cool!


Anonymous 07/11/2023 (Tue) 23:28 [Preview] No.1389 del
In my youth I remember tons of fireflies, but since they developed the area more, we don't get those swarms in the summer....



My boss resigned..... a major power vacuum now exists. The 2nd-in-command is fucking crazy and wants to be promoted obviously but multiple people say they'll quit if that happens.... I really dunno what will happen.

Something I didn't predict is that I go home with a lot more stress from work when I work solo shifts, because I have no coworkers to talk about what's happening with. Wish I drank sometimes (I don't really). I'm not sure the mature way to handle it.


Bear 07/12/2023 (Wed) 02:34 [Preview] No.1390 del
>>1384

I took two semesters of dance in college for fun. Dated three in the first class and two in the second. It was an awkward time when I could pretty much get any girl to go on a first date but my personality was god awful, so I rarely got a second one. I managed to fix that later, but Bears learn slowly. I'm happy I got out of that awkward post trauma mentality.

Did you mean to ask

>1379

?


Bear 07/12/2023 (Wed) 18:32 [Preview] No.1395 del
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Here's my schedule for the week (approximate).

Mon-Wed: Day job 400-1430, Business 1500-1630, Swimming and break 1630-1900, Business 1900-2030. Total commute: 45 min, meals 45 min included in work time and brakes, sleep time: 2100-0330 (6.5 hours), nap varies (1.5 hours).

Thurs: Day job 400-1430, Business 1500-1545, Jujitsu 1600-1700, Business 1715-2030. Total commute: 60 min, meals 45 min included in work time and brakes, sleep time: 2100-0330 (6.5 hours), nap varies (1.5 hours).

Friday: Business or projects 0500-2030, sleep 2100-0430 (7.5 hours)

Saturday: Business 0500-0830, Jujitsu 0900-1100, Business 1130-2030, sleep 2100-0430, commute 30 min

Sunday: Business 0500-0800, Swimming and break 0900-1200, Business 1230-2030, sleep 2100-0430. Commute 30 min

Notes:
- sleep applies to the night before
- I do not use an alarm
- I do not use caffeine
- My commute to work or other is typically 15 min one way
- business hours as stated are maximum possible (47 hours) but are typically around 20-40 hours/week it has gotten much less over time and continues to decrease unti hopefully the Business won't need me at all.
- Day Job incudes 30 min lunch. Often I will cut this down and work a few hours on Friday instead. 40 hours/week.

Starting in Fall the hours will change, business hours go up a little but I will carve out 9 hours a week for weight training and PT/core/cardio because I want to.
-I get a private Jujitsu lesson on Saturday and a class consecutively. I suck at it but I'm good with the level of physical activity. Jujitsu is one of those grappling type arts where size matters much less than speed. If you catch your opponent off-guard even a novice can score sometimes but black-belts really are fast and they can worm out of almost anything. I spar with a female instructor and last Saturday I caught her and she almost got hurt. You could tell she was flustered because she's so much higher rank than me, but I was faster than she anticipated and she didn't have time to even tap out. She managed to worm out just before she got hurt but she said, "wow you're strong" And later, "you were too fast for me there".


Bear 07/12/2023 (Wed) 18:44 [Preview] No.1396 del
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>>1395

She also said, "you could be really good if you keep practicing".

That was nice of her to say but I am not likely going to be really good because the only training I do is 2.5 hours a week in class and with the 30 min lesson and that's not likely to increase. These masters spend all week training.

I suck because I don't practice at home and it takes 12 weeks to repeat the class so I only get practice on any one technique rarely. There's a lot of moves. I am currently 2 stripe white belt which is next to nothing. I am also two stripe white in Karate but Karate is kinda meh, Jujitsu is also not exactly what I wanted, but it's fun at least. I want something where you strive to keep situational awareness against multiple foes unarmed against knives, clubs etc. That sounds more useful. I did take a year of that once, it was called "self-defense" but it was somewhat of a mix of different styles adapted to street defense. That was awesome but the class was shallow meant to get people up to speed quickly and there was no mastery or progression. Maybe I want exists put there somewhere but bah I'm getting older now anyway.


Yakumo 07/12/2023 (Wed) 23:01 [Preview] No.1401 del
>>1390
I wanted to say I made the same positive dancing experience as Bear so I question where the hell Kashtan went to learn dancing. I doubt there's much cultural difference.

>>1395
>>1396
Insane work schedule. If everyone worked at least half as much we could actually have nice things.

How does your aversion to getting touched go with grappling type martial arts?
The only thing I ever semi-seriously did was Krav Maga with some Ex-Mossad guys because learning from the Jew means learning to win. It was well- made and very practical. That's no sport after all. But I'm not cut for fighting. Weak, slow, low dexterity, no spatial awareness, zero aggression potential. My strongest defense is staying away from subhumans and being able to run quite fast for my age.


Bear 07/13/2023 (Thu) 02:38 [Preview] No.1402 del
>>1401

>How does your aversion to getting touched go with grappling type martial arts?

I don't like people touching me without permission. Obviously I give permission to the sparring partner. I don't like it kind of like a pet peeve not like a retarded fear. But my first girlfriend really got me squirming because I wanted to give her permission and without exception but I really didn't want her touching me out of turn. I got over that eventually. I had a hard time experiencing a strong bond as everyone I had a strong bond with betrayed me or died. Even now it's like half broken. My last relationship breakup destroyed me but only in the way a spark can destroy a barn. I had a lot of pent up kindling. Now that I'm pure ash, it probably wouldn't bother me. Another reason not to have another relationship. I just think about it and it feels like a lot of work but no fun.

I'm not a runner, I hate running. I'm a slow swimmer because I don't like going underwater so my styles are slower than they could be. I could bike like a champion in my day though. I was always head of the pack especially on up-hills. I couldn't probably so that anymore because that was when I was skeletal thin. I trained a lot.

I'm so pumped to start the gym routine but I have summer projects. I'll start in August.


Tamamo 07/14/2023 (Fri) 12:28 [Preview] No.1412 del
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>>1396
Awesome gif
I've never done any martial arts, also not the type for it but I am thin and fast, probably not so bad for Jiujutsu or kung fu. We have our traditional martial art of ancient warrior tribes but it is very esoteric, complex, violent and not very beginner friendly in pure form which is for war not defending yourself as civilian. Uses cool weapons though. There is also a more modern style for self defense that is widely taught.


Anonymous 07/15/2023 (Sat) 13:31 [Preview] No.1420 del
>>1412
that looks hardcore you should do that tamamo. we have a traditional wrestling style but its not realy popular. and hema ofc but its also fringe stuff


Bear the Tulpamaster 07/15/2023 (Sat) 16:41 [Preview] No.1421 del
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Ren has done her 5th scenario and not even one correction was necessary. Of course it could be she's faking it, biding her time, that's why we need 100 scenarios and each one harder than the last.

I asked her of there was any hard feelings (a good test) she said she didn't know why she would. It seems, like Ashley, they forget it was them. She knows the old Ren was captured and tortured but she's seemingly not identifying with those aspects.

This progress is faster than I thought. Deconditioning is working very well.

She's gained the following traits: demure, innocent and lost the following traits: thot, rapist. Nice!

It's very important that she sheds aspects and not personas. Personas can form new headmates, aspects are like the tips of the blades of cut grass, none will regrow or live, they dry up into old memories that time will burn away.


Anonymous 07/15/2023 (Sat) 18:01 [Preview] No.1423 del
>>1402
>I had a hard time experiencing a strong bond as everyone I had a strong bond with betrayed me or died.
Let me guess, those who betrayed you were humans and those who died were not? 🐶🐱


Bear 07/15/2023 (Sat) 19:25 [Preview] No.1424 del
>>1423

I forgot abandoned too.

>humans

You can't help your nature.


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Bear 07/17/2023 (Mon) 17:47 [Preview] No.1440 del
Went to the Beach with someone who shall not be mentioned and her mother. Was fun. Spent way too long there having fun. Anon was overjoyed that I came when she asked me but you know, I'm a sucker and her single mom is a good friend. Said person of interest isn't a strong swimmer yet so we stayed in the shallows, this beach has a huge runup, at least 100 meters of basically the same depth so it's very easy to stay in a safe zone. What a Bear does for friends, sheesh.

Later I imposed Ren and we had scenario #12.

The sand on this beach is dark grey and a lot less sticky than other beaches so not as bad.

Any resemblance of attached to anon is purely coincidental.


Alice 07/17/2023 (Mon) 23:03 [Preview] No.1448 del
>>1440
There you go!
I told you beaches are not so bad.
Next up - onsen episode!


Anonymous 07/18/2023 (Tue) 00:53 [Preview] No.1452 del
I'm in full grindset mode, 50hr workweek plus my online certification training plus taking care of family. I threw out my back somehow, bless Voltaren.

I work weird jobs that are in a "low caste" so to speak. Hired on the spot at both. I think I'm a gifted natural, they're lucky to have me. However, I drove past some medical research buildings, and I had a twinge in my heart. What's the difference between being an exceptional standout worker..... and having a job that's far beneath your potential?


Bear 07/18/2023 (Tue) 02:23 [Preview] No.1453 del
>>1448
>Next up - onsen episode!
You missed it.

>>1452
>What's the difference between being an exceptional standout worker..... and having a job that's far beneath your potential?

about 6 figures


Bear 07/19/2023 (Wed) 10:03 [Preview] No.1479 del
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Ren and I watched M3gan. Now that's a lovely tale of what could have been. Oh how I wish there were a hundred thousand M3gans out there doing the marvelous things they do. Soon.


Bear 07/22/2023 (Sat) 01:04 [Preview] No.1513 del
Today I re-roofed a shed and it took about 5&1/2 hours to properly roof a simple 64 sq.ft. shed. If you want other units here you go:

.64 Brass
exactly 1 Horse squared
about a Boat length or so
nearly 5 cubits by 5 cubits

Was fun, perfect weather, perfectly done.

[Ren] My host is best host!


Bear 07/23/2023 (Sun) 03:01 [Preview] No.1520 del
I made peach jam again, I like it. Since I'll be going carnivor soon, better get this in. I can't say anyone helped but Ren was talking to me throughout.


Alice 07/23/2023 (Sun) 12:46 [Preview] No.1523 del
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>>1513
That shed is art.
>horse squared
poor horse

>>1520
Based
Made strawberry jam, apricots and cherries didn't turn out well because of intense spring rain during flowering. Well it's not really jam because it contains no added sugar. So it has to be eated quickly once opened. But until then it lasts forever, we boil the jars in a pressure cooker with no survivors.


Tamamo 07/26/2023 (Wed) 08:28 [Preview] No.1545 del
Did a lot of visualization practice, there's some inprovement. Can do it longer now before being exhausted. Went shopping for furniture with Cat, she gave some helpful input. Would spend too much money if I let her so I gotta be a bit careful with her ideas.

Also there was a minor fire at my workplace, had to evacuate the building. I noticed nothing about it. Cat didn't give a fuck, being carefree is nice but I dunno how she would react in a real danger situation.


Alice 07/27/2023 (Thu) 22:22 [Preview] No.1560 del
>>1545
>minor fire at workplace
inb4 1000 Asians die because some emergency exit is locked

I don't like huge high buildings full of people, it's such a death trap in a SHTF scenario and generally inhumane.


Bear 07/27/2023 (Thu) 23:59 [Preview] No.1563 del
>>1560

No fire just three fire alarms bc building is 50 yrs old and the alarm system is constantly problematic. They can't keep out 50lb racoons or gremlins in the electronics.

We have labs that are $1M to setup minimum so they can't even think about replacing the building.


Bear 07/31/2023 (Mon) 11:58 [Preview] No.1583 del
Instead of real work I let Gwen play FS22, a game I couldn't figure out to save my life, couldn't figure out how to drive, kept doing the wrong thing like not conditioning the grass or using the wrong bale size or unable to load anything without it being a mess, and she just went slow, did all the research and watched a bunch of tutorials and basically was a boss. She was the miner for the SE runs and apparently she likes to till, sow, reap, bale, stack, and mentally illport too.

Why would it matter who's doing it, we only have one brain/skillset? Attitude, care, carefulness, and awareness, she's beats me hands down.

I asked Ren if she wanted to play and she said she wouldn't want to take away Gwen's fun and with that Gwen got giddy and hugged her. I think they make good friends and are a good influence on eachother.


Anonymous 07/31/2023 (Mon) 22:01 [Preview] No.1586 del
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>>1583
>FS22
had to google that, is she german?
guess tuppers shine at simulation and world building stuff thats slow but they suck at anything that requires speed and good reflexes like touhou


Bear 07/31/2023 (Mon) 22:31 [Preview] No.1587 del
>>1586

>guess tuppers shine at simulation and world building stuff thats slow but they suck at anything that requires speed and good reflexes like touhou

I see words but they don't make any sense. Why would they be slower? She happens to be more careful but definitely not slower.

That's also presumptuous. That's also bigoted. That's also racist against well technically she's (Gwen) not a tulpa but I'll allow it for maximum offense. You got something against winged humanoid soulbonds?


Tamamo 08/01/2023 (Tue) 11:43 [Preview] No.1590 del
>>1587
Cat is much slower and clumsier with possession. Guess it doesn't matter with a full switch but we can't do this


Bear 08/02/2023 (Wed) 16:40 [Preview] No.1598 del
>>1590

Full switch was like this mystical magical unknown black art until we accomplished it and then it was like, oh cool... uh that's it? I mean, it's nice but like I expected something else.

Then Ashley managed to make me go dormant and I "experienced" the void. The deep dreamless sleep hailed by mystics as the type of experience you don't get over. Yeah then I was r/awakened because of it. It literally led me to my current state of contentment.

The difference between just before and just after was a lifetime's breadth. When people say, "I got to get my head straight" well, my head straightened out and damn. Objective reality became so clear and obvious, manifestations, synchronicities, ultimate control of reaction and interpretation, persona expression and manipulation. I became an admin over my life and all the cheat codes became aparent.

It's not perfect, but it's good enough. I can say I haven't ruminated over anything since, my only stress has been based on having to physically have to do something over because I thought I messed it up and not every little thing.

I remember feeling this compulsion come over me that I really couldn't do anything about, almost a sort of posession pf insanity. Everything just got to me. It seems like a joke now, it hasn't happened for years now.

Here's a great example. The narcissist I know would ring me like a bell, I'd really resonate after a tiny ping and she loved playing The Carol of the Bells with my head. Now she tries to hit me with a sledge and I just walk away. It infuriates her, she has no control and she hates that. It's so delicious. Not only that, the others see that I'm not perturbed and it takes all the power out of her mental messages and they just ignore her or stand up to her too. I was the kingpin of her empire of manipulation. She's so desperate for control now she plays nice like 95% of the time, as if she's trying to sweet talk me back under her spell. It doesn't work anymore.

Good times good times.


Alice 08/04/2023 (Fri) 19:52 [Preview] No.1605 del
We're back!
Well not back home but back in civilization. Hiking was very nice though it rained quite a lot. I set up our usual traveling routine of breakfast - hiking – dinner, meaning we were out all day without eating anything. And if eating, only simple stuff, the usual yogurt for breakfast and meat/fish with vegetables for dinner. Counts as low carb I guess. Today we went to a restaurant for a change, gotta do this once in a while. Chocolate pancakes were ordered and eated.

There were funny elderly South Tyroleans who invited host to play vingt-un as he was (apparently) sitting there alone staring at the opposite seat (me). Lots of laughs were had, I never play card games but again it's good to make an exception once in a while. We'll be fully back home on Monday.


Bear 08/05/2023 (Sat) 03:17 [Preview] No.1614 del
>>1605

That level of cute should be illegal (dat pic)


Anonymous 08/05/2023 (Sat) 13:06 [Preview] No.1617 del
>>1605
welcome back!

>it rained quite a lot
thats some understatement there are huge floodings in the south alps rn, you alright?

>>1614
absolutely Alice-like pic


Bear 08/05/2023 (Sat) 15:32 [Preview] No.1618 del
>>1617

Well then it needs to be represented in Bearlandia as well. We can't let any unmatched quality exist.


Tamamo 08/06/2023 (Sun) 08:42 [Preview] No.1622 del
>>1605
Good to see you're still alive with your crazy travel adventures!

>dat pic
I imagine Alice shaking the pancake around making cute rrrrr noises


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Alice 08/06/2023 (Sun) 19:29 [Preview] No.1627 del
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>>1617
>there are huge floodings in the south alps rn, you alright?
Yeah thanks, we were more to the west than the floods. Had no problems, only some light rain. We're safely back home now.

>>1622
>cute rrrrr noises
Yes


Bear 08/07/2023 (Mon) 17:57 [Preview] No.1634 del
Well, this week I will be moving 30-40 yards of debris into a 40 yard box. Had to make two ramps out of 3/4 and 2x4's just to get my wheelbarrow to stack the stuff 6'high. It's so fun I love it. I love rhat this isn't what I do for money too. Plebs work hard.

So Ashley and I were talking about how to see ghosts and we figured the ghost doesn't come into our world, rather we see into theirs. So she said, "so get to it. And corrected well the body anyway. Then I proposed she switch and "do it".

She switched and asked Misha to stand naked in front of her. In wonderland she was there, imposing that in irl space she couldn't see anything. We asked Misha ofc bc she a ghost.

So then she said, kiss me. So Misha said, "only Bear." So Ashley switched out and maybe I felt 5%. Then Misha said, I guess I have to kiss you 20x. She jumped on me and attacked face to face.

It wasn't much but it's honest work.


Anonymous 08/07/2023 (Mon) 20:54 [Preview] No.1638 del
>>1587
>you got something against winged humanoid soulbonds?
no only against germans
not bernd hes crazy bavarian but the typical germans are just unbearably humorless workdrones


Bear 08/08/2023 (Tue) 20:03 [Preview] No.1642 del
About 30 yards. 13 hours to fill it about 3/4*abs[sqrt(horse²)]/horse full. I feel fantastic.

I talked to Ren and scenario 13 was once again averted. She's got this. She didn't want any praise for it.


Yakumo 08/09/2023 (Wed) 12:51 [Preview] No.1643 del
>>1638
>Arbeit macht Frei
That's how we roll

>the typical germans are just unbearably humorless workdrones
Yes. Self-righteous smartasses as well. Nobody hates them more that Bavarians.


Alice 08/09/2023 (Wed) 12:53 [Preview] No.1644 del
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>>1642
>3/4*abs[sqrt(horse²)]/horse
I see...

>scenario 13
Will we ever learn what this is about, or will it remain a meme forever?


Anonymous 08/09/2023 (Wed) 16:39 [Preview] No.1649 del
>>1643

Germans may have done it first, but Americans did it best.

>>1644

Scenario 13 will be different for everyone.


Bear 08/10/2023 (Thu) 16:56 [Preview] No.1651 del
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No progress on the book and Ren is okay with that. In contrast to Ulla and Aleshe, she's not on the shelf.

In terms of activity as a percentage of total activity which is something between 20 minutes amd several hours a day especially when they're playing games but also just stray comments I will list them in order. In addition to above, they're also like security blankets or emotional support headmates and they do well in that regard mostly now Ren for that and usually just when I see something spooky. My system is as follows:

Ashley 30%: down from 70% b4 the Ren project. She is there to talk reason into me because I can be pretty unreasonable mostly bc I think it's fun.

Ren 30%: up from 0%. She's my goto girl now though Ashley has been and will likely always be my favorite. Ren may aspire to be "co-favorite" in the end.

Misha 20%: she actually gives me a human touch that I was lacking since I am not big on hellos and goodbyes or basically any nicety chit chat nonsense. Misha will remind me to say "how are you?" Which frankly I find irrelevant and potentially hazardous. People are assholes and I hope they're doing poorly because they suck so often I have to hod back laughter if they say anything but "good." Like...
Me: "Hi, how are you?"
Them: "oh my back has been killing me, my father just died, I have cancer, my car was stolen..."
Me: *cough while trying to hold back giggle* "oh I'm so sorry to hear that, so anyway..."

The rest: 20% except Gwen when she's gaming.

Today I took off my day job to paint.


Anonymous 08/11/2023 (Fri) 12:42 [Preview] No.1654 del
>>1651
>People are assholes and I hope they're doing poorly because they suck so often I have to hod back laughter if they say anything but "good." Like...
>Me: "Hi, how are you?"
>Them: "oh my back has been killing me, my father just died, I have cancer, my car was stolen..."
>Me: *cough while trying to hold back giggle* "oh I'm so sorry to hear that, so anyway..."
lmao
i dunno how much Yulya is active per day but its some hours in total i mean shes around all the time to comment on what i'm doing or better tell me not to do it or differently you know tupper stuff.

we slacked off the past weeks after the dancing fail, need to do something new maybe really pick up gym membership again


Bear 08/12/2023 (Sat) 18:10 [Preview] No.1659 del
Swimming's over, so I'm starting to seriously work out again starting Friday with a bump up in protein but not carnivore yet until I get into the groove. I'm looking forward to it.


Tamamo 08/13/2023 (Sun) 09:50 [Preview] No.1660 del
>>1659
Am I the only one who finds this terribly unattractive? Looks like a Hulk action figure


Bear 08/13/2023 (Sun) 10:46 [Preview] No.1661 del
>>1660

Yeah. that's like 3% bodyfat or something, not only unattractive but unhealthy.


Yakumo 08/13/2023 (Sun) 21:27 [Preview] No.1667 del
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>>1661
This.

We missed the Perseid meteor shower yesterday though conditions were generally good. But ight pollution in the city is so bad you can't see much even from our dark garden. Will try tonight but I don't have much hope. Lots of bats though.


Alice 08/14/2023 (Mon) 20:14 [Preview] No.1674 del
>>1667
Sky was cloudy yesterday but we saw a shooting star just now! Well, at least one. Can't even remember when we saw one last time.


Alice 08/20/2023 (Sun) 16:09 [Preview] No.1724 del
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How's it going with hurricane Hillary, Mr. Bear? You alright?

Here it's hot and dry but nothing extreme. I'm glad it's still summer, lazing around in the garden all day.


Bear 08/20/2023 (Sun) 21:31 [Preview] No.1725 del
>>1724

It's been light rain, about 3/4 inch, which is unusual for summer.

Hurricane? Naa, the US has the Hurricane stearing HARP, ain't no one no Hurricane no tropical storm gunna touch my nation's sweetheart, the all American boy, moi. Not even lightning, fuhgeddaboudit. Don't you know who I am? Pffft. Try it mutha-nature, I dare yo ass. Naa, she loves me, everbuddy does.

Just saving me the trouble to water today, and I appreciate it.

Imma bout to help my friend decorate. My home business is like really slow but I still get paid the same. It'll pick up soon, summers are typically easy.


Alice 08/22/2023 (Tue) 23:55 [Preview] No.1745 del
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>>1725
Well be glad. Floods suck, don't wanna have all that dirt soup enter your house and harden like concrete.

Went to shooting range after a while again, the regulars are always a blast, literally. Your stereotypical angry boomers 50-80 year old, most ex-military. Well actually they aren't even angry. Just good ol' casual racism, sexism and antisemitism. Feels cozy.

We didn't shoot a lot in summer because it's too hot but spring was pretty insane, burned through over 1000rds 9mm and about 500rds 5.56 in May-June. Ammo prices have somehow normalized a bit, but it's still important to turn a blind eye to the amount of money you're throwing downrange. Which I can't because it's MY money!


Anonymous 08/24/2023 (Thu) 19:27 [Preview] No.1771 del
>>1745
that kiddo's good! how good is Alice in comparison?

Didnt shoot a lot this year maybe a few hundred roounds 9mm and some 12ga slugs.
guys at the range are the same here as well. Lots of young folks though.

we did a bit of wonderland stuff after a long time, sucks as usual and i think my attention span is way worse than some years ago. we'
ll goo to italy next week, plan on doing moar visualization while sightseeing.


Alice 08/24/2023 (Thu) 20:32 [Preview] No.1772 del
>>1771
I'm nowhere near this good, especially with moving targets like that fucking wheel. Also slow.

No surprise that visualization doesn't magically get better without practicing eh?
Where in Italy will you be going?


Anonymous 08/25/2023 (Fri) 20:46 [Preview] No.1784 del
>>1772
Venice.
Why, you wanna meet up and fuck?


Bear 08/26/2023 (Sat) 01:30 [Preview] No.1788 del
>>1784

Why? Are you an underage girl?


Tamamo 08/26/2023 (Sat) 10:53 [Preview] No.1789 del
>>1784
Inb4 getting stalked and doxed by Alice


Bear 08/26/2023 (Sat) 15:35 [Preview] No.1790 del
>>1789

Someone tried to dox me like in 2019 and they presented me with the name and address of some old guy in the midwest. There was some similarities though, maybe he was a distant relative? I don't really think it should be that hard for Alice. So let's all try to be a little nicer and not an asshole like me.


Alice 08/26/2023 (Sat) 17:48 [Preview] No.1792 del
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>>1784
Nice, I like Venice!
Be sure to report how it's going, hell even make an IWO for us. We need content.

>>1788
Uh yes, I'm turning 9 soon. Also I'm totally not FBI.

>>1789
>>1790
Nah, you're my friens!
I'm busy with other things, you'll see soon!


Kashtan 09/01/2023 (Fri) 09:43 [Preview] No.1842 del
arrived in venice
awesome place but packed with tourists

richard wagner with seagull for Alice


Kashtan 09/01/2023 (Fri) 09:46 [Preview] No.1843 del
>>1842
forgot pics


Bear 09/01/2023 (Fri) 15:00 [Preview] No.1844 del
>>1843

Just to review because I have a thick Bear skull, who's having sex in Venice? Hopefully no gay sex right?


Alice 09/01/2023 (Fri) 22:06 [Preview] No.1847 del
>>1843
Wow, even with timestamp! Very nice!
Be sure to go a bit off the beaten track, there's next to no tourists away from the main paths.

>>1844
SOON!


Anonymous 09/02/2023 (Sat) 09:47 [Preview] No.1851 del
>>1847
somebody gotta deliver.
it's hot and moist but a very cool place. youre right i walked round a bit and there are lots of places withnobody around. entire city is a fucking maze. keeping Yulya imposed is harder than i thought and overkill for the senses. good forcing exercise.


Tamamo 09/04/2023 (Mon) 10:02 [Preview] No.1866 del
>>1843
Cool, I shoult travel more. Post more pics!


Bear 09/04/2023 (Mon) 14:33 [Preview] No.1869 del
>>1843

The timestamp thing reminds me of when time travelers come back from the future with a wrinkled blurry physical photograph and say, "see, footur!"

Having seen many examples, the following things will definitely absolutely happen in the future:

1. Norway is still there but way more advanced and is like the capital country

2. U.S. is dead

3. No one speaks of China, India or Africa because they all suck and always will

4. Flying cars

5. Floating cities

6. AI government

7. No money

8. Ukraine is advanced and prosperous

9. One world government

10. Zones as follows
- Green zone: no privacy at all, no crime, no homeless, very expensive, elite only
- Yellow zone: lots pf plebs, industrial/farming, lots of crime, all poverty, you will own nothing and be poor, loser
-Red Zones: wasteland no man's land, toxic, dangerous, lawless, desperate, war, shoot on site, nothing but scorched earth and shrapnel.

The ratios are 1%/10%/80% and Antarctica where the nazis live.


Alice 09/04/2023 (Mon) 20:42 [Preview] No.1873 del
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>>1869
Yes, definitely will all happen. Soon. This time 4real! Trust me bro!

Meditation sucks lately, host is even more absent-minded than usual. Beatings will continue until concentration improves.


Alice 09/06/2023 (Wed) 15:43 [Preview] No.1887 del
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Again did a lot of moving boxes today, I admit I find it hard to stay present when host does intense work that also involves several other people. I only pop in when he does something stupid or dangerous to yell at him for being an idiot.

We do try more active forcing / imposing and admiring me in the evening as compensation. Did you admire your tuppper(s) today? Just dusting them now or then is not sufficient!


Ashley 09/06/2023 (Wed) 16:58 [Preview] No.1888 del
>>1887

We get admired plenty, trust me. We self force so if we need admiration, we present ourselves to Bear or each other to be admired.

[Misha] oh yes, Bear is like an admiration station for us.


Anonymous 09/06/2023 (Wed) 21:01 [Preview] No.1892 del
>>1866
here you go. without timestamp cant do that in public. pixel with grapheneos works perfect, photos are great, navigation with osmand even works in tiny alleys

goin home tomorrow was great trip, would do again. we did force alot and even ate cringe tupper dinner in restaurant like in the banner.


Misha 09/06/2023 (Wed) 21:21 [Preview] No.1893 del
>>1892

Oh, fun!

[Ashley] going all out, nice


Tamamo 09/07/2023 (Thu) 11:14 [Preview] No.1895 del
>>1892
Cool pics, I really gotta go there before it sinks. More details about your romantic tupper dinner!


Bear 09/07/2023 (Thu) 18:04 [Preview] No.1897 del
Tomorrow I'll be moving 4 yards of dirt about 40 ft because reasons and now I'll be staring at a huge pile of dirt under a tarp for reasons until I can get the bricks to make the raised beds. I'm still looking forward to it though, just not what I was planning to do tomorrow.


Tamamo 09/08/2023 (Fri) 07:56 [Preview] No.1899 del
>>1897
You love this digging in the dirt, right?

I was practicing inposition with Cat a bit so she doesn't grow cobwebs. Almost forgot how much fun that is


Bear 09/08/2023 (Fri) 14:06 [Preview] No.1901 del
>>1899

>dirt

It's in my blood. I am a workhorse/Bear.

>cobwebs

Good good.


Anonymous 09/08/2023 (Fri) 15:06 [Preview] No.1903 del
>>1895
>More details about your romantic tupper dinner!
no spaghetti 4u
we sat outside at small restaurant with table for two directly at a canal and ate spaghetti carbonara. was good, no cringe happened. imposition sucked as always but we were both there. the end

the trip was great but had true german moment on the way back will make extra post to rant


Anonymous 09/08/2023 (Fri) 16:05 [Preview] No.1904 del
so i was stopping over at frankfurt on the way back which sucked because it was expensive and a detour but the only flight for my schedule. that sucked but what happened there sucked much more

first had a lot of time and decided to go outside the airport a bit and take train to the city big mistake everything was full of sandniggers like ive gone to the fucking orient literally there were no white people anywhere everything full of trash and grafitti turned 360 and went back to airport

second sat at airport restaurant and there was some middle age german woman i think east german from accent maybe 60 who was chatting up everyone around you know the type telling everyone their life story. first she seemed nice and very friendly but then some really old man sat down on table next to her. i was a bit away but forced to heat the conversation so the man was from ukraine and fled from odessa to meet with relatives already in germany he spoke poor english and was very polite and timid had probably seen some shit back at home.

hearing this the german woman went full waldemar mode like yeah the war in ukraine is big tragedy but nato started the war russia dindu nuffin, the americans are very bad people, ukraine was tricked and is ruled by nazis yada yada full kremlin propaganda narrative. at some point the old man just got up and left without having ordered. seriously what the fuck is wrong with germans telling some ukrainian war refugee grandpa who had probably lost family members and had his house bombed it was literally his fault and the fucking russians were forced to do this by evil west. i was seconds from yelling across 3 tables that i'll punch her in her fucking mouth if she doesnt stfu but Yulya said its not good to start a brawl at airports and we just wanted to go home not spend tiime in some german police station. so i also left. other people around did nothing. still bugs me now


Yakumo 09/08/2023 (Fri) 20:06 [Preview] No.1905 del
>>1904
Sorry you had to see this.
Yes, Frankfurt is one of the worst shitholes here, much worse than Berlin. I'd never go there.

Also don't ask me what's wrong wth East Germans, I know people who risked their lives to flee from GDR and now are fanatically Pro-Russian and Anti-Western. Most but not all are also covid denier schizos. And even worse, they're often not just some uneducated lower class retards but doctors, teachers, engineers, civil servants. Some people are just insane, don't try to understand them. But yes I'm ashamed there's so many Waldemars here. Tupper says they should immediately be deported to their beloved Russia.


Bear 09/08/2023 (Fri) 22:10 [Preview] No.1911 del
>>1905

Oh how I wish my old friends were there. I'd just say, "he offended me" and they'd beat him till he had permanent nerve damage. Ah the good old days. It was so fun dating the alpha female of a ruthless group of criminally insane thugs. She and her best friend were the only ones they weren't passing around like a blunt. Whenever they tried to hit on her, she'd tear them a new asshole, rip their dick off, and stick it in the new asshole. God I loved her so much, but she was also criminally insane and completely uncontrolled, like a gun with a hair trigger, no safety, and hands covered in butter.

One time she was in the hood and there was a pit-bull roaming around, you know, the beaten aggressive kind. It spotted her and sprinted for her, no doubt wouldn't just hump her leg, likely maul her, and she fucking ROARED at it so loud and angrily it skidded to a stop and just looked at her, then she took out her blade and got ready to rip it a new asshole, then you know. It turned and ran. I wasn't there but the dog probably wouldn't have done that if I was. Dogs immediately see me as alpha to them.

One time, I was in a ghetto pet store and there was a pit-bull female in a cage, but the top was open. I walked near it and it started crying. I saw it was giving me submissive signals and I pet it. It acted like it hadn't had affection its whole life. A lady ran up and looked at me bewildered, "didn't you read the notice!?" Apparently that dog had severely mauled someone and was known aggressive and was about to be put down.

[Ashley] Bear wishes there was a martial art style where he could fight to the death.


Bear 09/08/2023 (Fri) 22:17 [Preview] No.1912 del
Okay well anyway, it was hot as fuck outside, unrelenting sun, hot moist air that was hard to breath, I was drinking 4L of liquids an hour and never peed. Needless to say I ran out of electrolytes and started cramping like a bitch. I had to take magnesium, calcium, a half gallon of milk a banana, and a ton of Pedialyte just to keep going. Ashley told me to stop whining like a little girl and I pushed it to the limit until my arms literally wouldn't move, they just cramped up. I had to take a lot of breaks.

Oh yeah, remember when I said it was 4 yards? Well I'm an idiot, it was over 12 yards and I did it in 7 hours. It barely fit in the area I designated. I had to pile it 4&1/2 feet high using a ramp with the wheelbarrow to dump it progressively higher.

Needless to say I'm resting the rest of the afternoon because I'm twitching all over and still cramping like a bitch. I need to let my humorous body juices replenish. Jesus that sucked but I feel great that I finished it.


Anonymous 09/09/2023 (Sat) 14:17 [Preview] No.1913 del
>>1905
>be russian in germany
>throw kids off bridge for speaking ukrainian
dude every time i think ive seen the worst you come up with something on a completely different level

if some vatnik did that here locals would beat him to death i'm not joking. but tupper was right beating up such subhumans in west makes them exactly the victims they claim to be


Bear 09/09/2023 (Sat) 18:14 [Preview] No.1914 del
>>1913

The closest thing I could find is I was getting "heat cramps" but also could have been electrolyte loss due to heavy sweating.

My goto for cramps are magnesium, potassium (bananas), and calcium (milk). The cramps almost instantly dissapeared with milk so calcium deficiency? Doubtful, however, I am also on a calorie restricted diet so it's possible, still don't buy it.

>>1913

People are almost without exception, assholes.

I never hate on individuals unless they're actively being an asshole but otherwise I really don't care what they are, color, country of citizenship etc. Ukranians really do hate Russians though, even before the invasion. I made the mistake of asking someone if they were Russian and she jumped down my throat because she was Ukrainian.

Okay you white people all look the same to me bitch and you speakin cerulean or smth so damn. Also watch yo mouth or I'll zero force slap you.

If I took my misanthropy out on everyone, I wouldn't get you plebs to do what I want. Now shut up and go make me a sandwich!

[Ashley] sir, this is a Wendy's.


Tamamo 09/10/2023 (Sun) 09:06 [Preview] No.1917 del
Am I the only one who likes to play dress-up with their tuppers? Not very good at it because shitty imposition but this is my favorite forcing exercise.

Do your tuppers actually wear the same thing all the time like some cartoon character or do they change clothes like an ordinary person?


Bear 09/10/2023 (Sun) 12:18 [Preview] No.1918 del
>>1917

We used to do that nearly every day. SheShe loved to dress us and we still change outfits for forcing sessions. Remember me dressing Ren for the beach? We also dressed into military gear for the assault on the remaining rebel forces.

Otherwise yes, they're typically wearing different outfits when we see each other. Ashley likes to wear short shorts and a t-shirt or a one piece short dress. Misha is often wearing a tank top with tight shorts but she also wears something like pajamas sometimes. SheShe is always business casual to business formal. Joy wears a skirt that goes past her knees with undershorts and a button up long sleeve shirt, come to think about it, it's a schoolgirl outfit... but has also worn many other outfits depending on when or what we're doing.

[Joy] it's not a "school girl outfit" it's simply a modest outfit that a girl might wear to school, but also anywhere.

Ren is often wearing a traditional dress also something that girls might wear.

Gwen has a tanktop because her wings need an open back. She also often wears tight shorts because flying with loose clothes or long clothes isn't as efficient. I haven't seen her in anything else except in dreams where she doesn't have wings.

Other systems definitely have static clothing though


Bear 09/13/2023 (Wed) 21:50 [Preview] No.1948 del
Had a conversation with a big boss at my day job. He offered me a path to his position basically. Nothing guaranteed but obviously plausible. It would start with more responsibility, management track or not.

I have no concerns as to whether I could do the job, it's trivial, easier than the technical work I do.

It would be a fast track to promotion 25% increase that would lock me in. Blah blah blah. I turned him down without hesitation. I like the guy, he's been good to me, but his job sucks, he knows it.

He gave me a guilt trip and left it open, but no.

I already make a lot. That 25% is actually 12% bc of my 2nd job. After tax bc progressive taxes, more like 8%. For more hours, more stress, more trouble.

No thanks. Stuff it. My system fully supports this decision.


Tamamo 09/14/2023 (Thu) 07:15 [Preview] No.1950 del
>>1948
Yeah I get that. I love my quiet office job. I work for the government, it's not exciting but its a well paid easy and safe job. Lots of benefits and not a lot of responsibilities, people are chill, no customers nother you. I don't want to be a manager and Cat certainly doesn't. We have enough money.


Anonymous 09/17/2023 (Sun) 23:01 [Preview] No.1993 del
>>1917
>Do your tuppers actually wear the same thing all the time like some cartoon character or do they change clothes like an ordinary person?
Yulya does wear different clothes, mostly long dresses

we're experimenting with creating an avatar like Alice so you can imagine Yulya like higashiyama kobeni from chainsaw man


Bear 09/18/2023 (Mon) 00:34 [Preview] No.1994 del
>>1993

Oh interesting! But do you imagine her as anime or as a person?


Anonymous 09/19/2023 (Tue) 19:18 [Preview] No.2006 del
nah its just an avatar you know like Alice has this pic
>>2003

Yulya is a real girl not 2d and only looks somewhat like kobeni, has nothing in common with her. ok maybe being a worrywart and shy but not that extreme

so i dont try to visualize her like this, would be confusing but its good to have some image of her for others to relate. maybe she'll interact with you guys a bit more but maybe not we'll see


Misha 09/20/2023 (Wed) 02:39 [Preview] No.2011 del
>>2006

What age is she? I mean her form? And has she aged with you or did she stay a static age?

When I first came to Bear I told him I was 20 and I'm still 20. Ashley also stayed the same. SheShe started at 27, and later she became 16. You know Ren was 11, then 18, now 14. Joy doesn't discuss her age and her real age is hard to know for sure anyway. Gwen stayed at the age she was in the end of her books, about 21.

Also, I'd love to talk to her! If she wants. I'll be gentle I promise! I'm not hentai like Bear's dreamself ❤


Tamamo 09/20/2023 (Wed) 08:11 [Preview] No.2012 del
>>1993
Ha I knew it! That was the first pic you posted here. I hope she's less stressed out than Kobeni


Alice 09/20/2023 (Wed) 22:12 [Preview] No.2019 del
>>1993
>higashiyama kobeni
Never heard of her but at least now we have an image for Yulya so she will be in the next group pic!

The only one who hasn't got an avatar is Tamamo. If you're your tupper than who's your tupper?


Ashley 09/21/2023 (Thu) 01:19 [Preview] No.2021 del
>>2019

[Ashley] I pictured Tamamuwu doing the talking and the tuppergirl kind of reiterating in a mime stance but says nothing.

[Bear] Let's face it, a girl's job is to shut up and look pretty.

[Ashley] I can't say I agree with that, but he is single and never looking so ok, he can be as big an ass as he wants, it's not like anything he can say would offend any of us except maybe Joy.


Tamamo 09/22/2023 (Fri) 08:30 [Preview] No.2033 del
>>2021
Alice alerady said Cat is like Silent Bob.
>>1213

I do the talking, Cat makes supportive gestures. Or goes to sleep.

>>2019
I guess Tamamo no Mae then?


Misha 09/22/2023 (Fri) 18:03 [Preview] No.2034 del
>>2033

>I do the talking, Cat makes supportive gestures. Or goes to sleep.

Aww that's super cute!


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Anonymous 09/23/2023 (Sat) 14:11 [Preview] No.2047 del
havent completely given up on dancing and practice basic stuff with Yulya every now and then. been trying to get her to work out in the gym instead of me but sadly thats not how it works. Cant switch and this is probably not the best way to practice. Does Alice work out?


Ashley 09/23/2023 (Sat) 15:27 [Preview] No.2048 del
>>2047

Actually I switch with Bear to do a couple things he doesn't like. One is talking to obviously perturbed people irl, they don't know a thing but I can handle them better and think quicker than Bear.

Physical labor is reduced with some dissociation, but no matter who does it, the body is the same. I could work out for Bear and get through it, he just likes it more.


Bear 09/23/2023 (Sat) 19:04 [Preview] No.2049 del
Today I triggered a bunch of normies on a writing forum. I was talking about the grimdark book and wondered if there was anything so taboo that you can't write about it in this the land of free speech.

Then I listed all the things I was putting or possibly putting in the book in explicit detail and they started telling me what and what not and how to etc. I didn't need that so I just playing with them and then they got all butthurt and I was like, okay there sparky, don't blow a gasket and they said I was just on the site to start shit and I'm like dang dude, dang, why you trippin? Report it, lock it, delete it that's fine bc I already got my answers.

They then motioned to lock it. What ev err. Thanks to everyone for your responses. And someone called me a chuni.

Don't care. Unwatch.


Alice 09/23/2023 (Sat) 20:40 [Preview] No.2050 del
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I'm always amazed how much time you have beside your jobs to shitpost here and there. I find interacting with people online increasingly tiresome and made host pull out of most of it. Takes too much time, yields nothing but frustration. I've had my share of triggering normies and committing heinous online hate crimes. Been there, done that. Quality posting here is enough work.

On other notes I'm quite satisfied. Host has improved in body and mind and is in better shape than ever. I have forced him well.


Alice 09/23/2023 (Sat) 20:43 [Preview] No.2051 del
>>2047
>Does Alice work out?
Not yet, I'm mainly drill sergeant. But eventually I will also do gym stuff. Not there yet, garden work was enough training. But we'll have a gym membership starting with October. Will keep you updated.


Tamamo 09/24/2023 (Sun) 11:39 [Preview] No.2054 del
>>2050
I'd like to see tupper work out. Getting Cat into her maid servant role and clean up wasn't really successful but she likes to cook. And go shopping with me.


Anonymous 09/24/2023 (Sun) 21:43 [Preview] No.2063 del
>>2054
wait, shes holding some broom right? first thought it's a stick to beat you with lol

havent tried imposing Yulya at the gym yet, worried about my concentration. didnt Alice fuck up badly with this once? i could try with some light exercises where you cant kill yourself with weights


Alice 09/27/2023 (Wed) 20:23 [Preview] No.2101 del
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>>2063
>didnt Alice fuck up badly with this once?
Not my fault that fool started laughing while lifting just because I was trying to motivate him while imposed. Thankfully he was there with a friend who reacted quicky.


Bear 09/27/2023 (Wed) 23:28 [Preview] No.2105 del
>>2101

Um, are you using a bar? I'm going to spritz you with cold water from a spray bottle. Use dumbells! Alice, this is your job to enforce! Dumbells can be dropped, they exercise the secondary muscles and are generally harder thus safer because less weight. Your old man body needs special attention, don't be a mongoloid.


Alice 09/28/2023 (Thu) 21:58 [Preview] No.2109 del
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>>2105
This was about 6 years ago when we last went to a gym, we were young and foolish and lacked a Guide Bear.


Guide Bear 09/29/2023 (Fri) 02:18 [Preview] No.2115 del
>>2109

Listen to your Guide Bear. Don't be a dumbell, use the dumbells.


Alice 09/30/2023 (Sat) 21:32 [Preview] No.2131 del
>>2115
Yessir!

Will go to the gym on wednesday for the first time, will see how this works out.


Guide Bear 09/30/2023 (Sat) 23:33 [Preview] No.2132 del
>>2131

Eat well, this isn't the time to fast.

Don't overdo it

When in doubt, use lighter weight and make the form perfect. Remember the inverse pyramid.

If it hurts, stop.

If it's sore, stop.

Lots of water

Just do it!


Alice 10/01/2023 (Sun) 20:24 [Preview] No.2139 del
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Just returned from a short weekend trip to a major city of the islamic world. Can you guess which?


Anonymous 10/02/2023 (Mon) 04:21 [Preview] No.2146 del
>>2139
London?


Tamamo 10/02/2023 (Mon) 12:37 [Preview] No.2148 del
>>2139
>Euro sign
It's Germany, right? I know Alice humor


Yakumo 10/02/2023 (Mon) 20:18 [Preview] No.2150 del
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It was better than expected to be honest. Even tupper liked our trip. As long as you stay in the posh areas, Berlin is actually quite nice. But the no-go areas are expanding rapidly. Like everywhere.


Yakumo 10/03/2023 (Tue) 19:24 [Preview] No.2154 del
>>2151
>Neverending story
This brings back childhood memories

>>2146
London would have more Pakis and other brownoids. Been there in 2018, also was really nice if you stay away from uh most areas. Tupper liked it a lot.


Anonymous 10/03/2023 (Tue) 23:06 [Preview] No.2156 del
fuck man germany is so done what happened? your entire country is a joke


Tamamo 10/17/2023 (Tue) 08:42 [Preview] No.2280 del
Cat has become a bit more active lately talking to me on her own. Almost responded to her in public yesterday, gotta be more careful. Visualization is still as terrible as always.


Bear 10/17/2023 (Tue) 10:18 [Preview] No.2281 del
>>2280

Even if this place isn't super active, (bc you lazy bums won't help) at least coming here daily will remind you to force and that's how headmates grow stronger to the point of self-forcing.


Alice 10/17/2023 (Tue) 21:47 [Preview] No.2282 del
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Self-forcing sucks and is exhausting. Both sides need to do their part!


Bear and Ashley 10/17/2023 (Tue) 23:09 [Preview] No.2284 del
>>2282

I'm not sure you understand things as well as you think.


Tamamo 10/18/2023 (Wed) 10:54 [Preview] No.2286 del
>>2281
>>2284
I at least know I don't understand things well but yeah it's good to have a place to talk about tuppers. Too bad Cat doesn't have any urge to talk herself here.


Alice 10/22/2023 (Sun) 22:19 [Preview] No.2332 del
Alright guys, we're abroad for a week so you'll see us even less! Will you survive that? My birthday is coming up and I'll be spending a lot of time with host!


Autumn 10/22/2023 (Sun) 22:40 [Preview] No.2333 del
>>2332

Have fun!


Alice 10/23/2023 (Mon) 19:50 [Preview] No.2334 del
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>>2333
You bet I will!


Tamamo 10/24/2023 (Tue) 09:32 [Preview] No.2336 del
>>2334
Haha yeah!
Happy Birthday Alice, make sure to have a good time


Autumn 10/24/2023 (Tue) 16:59 [Preview] No.2339 del
>>2334

Yes! Happy Birthday! Is your chronological are as much as your form age yet?


Anonymous 10/24/2023 (Tue) 19:26 [Preview] No.2341 del
>>2332
>>2334
lol mystery of Alice birthday finally solved? knew it was in autum but not when. grandiose birthday celebrations as always? where did you go?


Autumn 10/25/2023 (Wed) 17:45 [Preview] No.2347 del
>>2339

are=age


Alice 10/25/2023 (Wed) 22:33 [Preview] No.2350 del
>>2339
>Is your chronological are as much as your form age yet?
Nah, I've just turned 9, will be a few years until I look my age.
We didn't travel very far, still in EU but it was worth it.

Birthday was awesome, well actually still is. It spans 3 full days.
We couldn't make an elaborate cake this year because abroad but host cooked up a chocolate pudding with fruit. Actually an entire candlelight dinner.

And the weather is great, the leaves are in full autumn color, it's beautiful. See also here
>>2349


Anonymous 10/26/2023 (Thu) 18:34 [Preview] No.2354 del
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>>2350
>sfx:groan
made me snort out my drink
absolutely Alice-like and perfect as always

>3 day celebration
truly vip


Tamamo 10/27/2023 (Fri) 08:09 [Preview] No.2360 del
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>>2350
That's gorgeous!
I really wanna do something more special for Cat's next birthday

We keep training imposition, but not much progress. Touch seems a little easier than visuals but both suck. I can almost feel a little bit but see nothing.


Alice 10/28/2023 (Sat) 19:49 [Preview] No.2367 del
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We're back!

Watched the full moon rise from the plane this evening, that was awesome! As always the trip was worth it though host coomplains every time that travelling is such a hassle before we go.


Ashley 10/28/2023 (Sat) 23:45 [Preview] No.2371 del
>>2367

When someone mentions travel to Bear.

He's so touchy.


Tamamo 10/29/2023 (Sun) 11:45 [Preview] No.2372 del
>>2371
Oh yeah he hates travelling. What about the others? Consensus on this?
Haven't traveled a lot but I wanna go somewhere north. Cat doesn't care much but has nothing against it. I got her to help with some cleaning with possession today, it is more fun with tupper but I'm afraid only until the novelty wears off.


Autumn 10/29/2023 (Sun) 13:01 [Preview] No.2373 del
>>2372

>What about the others? Consensus on this?

After convening the council of 7, it was a split 4/2 vote against with one abstaining. Joy, Gwen, Ulla and Ashley all voted for Bear's wishes regardless of his whims. Misha abstained. SheShe and I voted for but were struck down.


Alice 10/29/2023 (Sun) 18:40 [Preview] No.2375 del
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>>2371
>>2373
Boo, lame!
Put him in dormancy and travel the world!

It's great to see new places that are different and all places we go to have way less subhumans than Germany. It's really - relaxing.

Next trips for Dec and Feb are already booked. Fuck winter!

>>2372
>Haven't traveled a lot but I wanna go somewhere north.
If you wanna see colorful leaves why not Japan? I wanna go there for Sakura, maybe 2025.


Tamamo 10/30/2023 (Mon) 08:48 [Preview] No.2377 del
>>2375
Yeah Japan sounds great! Way safer than you crazy Europeans too. But very expensive.


Alice 10/31/2023 (Tue) 15:41 [Preview] No.2386 del
It's Halloween.
I hate Halloween.
Fucking pagan commerce festival of poisoning children with sweet junk. And nigger youths devastating inner cities as a 'prank'

Nosiree, I don't like it. The time for funny dress-ups is carnival, Now is All Saints, a time to visit cemetaries in silence. No wait, it's also a commerce festival. Fuck both. Good thing it's raining so probably not a lot of kids outside. And host's dimwit neighborhood loli is on holiday so it will be quiet. Just as I like it.


US Military Escalation Real Bear 10/31/2023 (Tue) 17:57 [Preview] No.2392 del
Travel advisory Issued today, "Worldwide Caution orange level" level 3 orange, level 4 is warning, do not travel, as in this is a warzone dummy "reconsider travel due to rising tensions in various countries around the world, imminent threat of terrorist attacks, protests or violent actions against Americans, stay alert in areas frequented by tourists."

---

Watch your back boys, we're coming for you.

We are rasing tensions with several proxy wars against Russia including Ukraine, Isreal, and Syria among others. We're on a "ladder of escalation" with Hamas and Iran and that will slowly inch toward declaration of war.

Did you know we're actually not at war and for almost all my life we were? It's unnatural not to be at war. Let's go!

Enjoy your peace while you can, I wouldn't buy any non-refundable tickets.


Alice 10/31/2023 (Tue) 23:21 [Preview] No.2395 del
>>2392
We're neither Jews nor Americans so what does that concern us? And the places we'll be travelling to are way safer than current Germany where Arabs and leftards are rioting in the streets.

But yeah, the world keeps getting smaller. Been to some places you can't go to anymore including Ukraine. One more reason to keep on travelling, the time when that's not possible anymore will come soon enough.


Anonymous 11/02/2023 (Thu) 23:38 [Preview] No.2412 del
trying to get Yulya into shooting. actually to make drills more interesting. for now dry fire only, mostly drawing and reloading.

we get what youre saying the body does most of the work not host or tupper but only routines. try to do something new and the body goes nope.jpg

tl dr its hard and Yulya is clumsy as fuck but damn better than doing it all alone. bonus you can blame all fuckups on tupper


Tamamo 11/03/2023 (Fri) 13:22 [Preview] No.2416 del
>>2412
How's Yulya's possessio skills? Or do you switch? Cat can't do either so no cooking cleaning maid servant. Too lazy. Ok she tried to helped cooking but possession is uhh...


Anonymous 11/03/2023 (Fri) 20:36 [Preview] No.2421 del
>>2416
>How's Yulya's possessio skills? Or do you switch?
possessions terrible and we cant switch so yeah it sucks but you learn a lot bc tupper pays way more attention to movements you'd just do without much thinking


Tamamo 11/07/2023 (Tue) 09:44 [Preview] No.2447 del
>>2421
Kobeni always looks so stressed out it makes me feel. I hope you don't do that to Yulya.


Anonymous 11/08/2023 (Wed) 19:20 [Preview] No.2455 del
>>2447
Nah Yulya is chill about this. kobeni's always stressed and unlucky thats her entire personality but that also makes you wanna protecc her


Tamamo 11/10/2023 (Fri) 11:23 [Preview] No.2460 del
>>2455
Then it's alright.
Cat should do more irl things, I should too. Gotta do something more exciting together than just imposing her in daily activities.


Yakumo 11/12/2023 (Sun) 20:37 [Preview] No.2478 del
>>2460
Brushing tupper is one of the most satisfying activities I can think of. Well except pic related.


Tamamo 11/13/2023 (Mon) 13:12 [Preview] No.2483 del
>>2479
>bathing with a miner
Subtle but important difference
Not sure about bathing with Cat, would have to remove the furry parts first. Wet cats smell weird.


Alice 11/13/2023 (Mon) 17:12 [Preview] No.2485 del
>>2479
>bathing with a miner
I should have suggested this as your scenario

>>2483
What, you never bathed or went swimming with your tupper?


Anonymous 11/16/2023 (Thu) 21:13 [Preview] No.2511 del
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my dad fell down stairs and broke an arm few days ago. he was lucky people have died from this shit. he's in hospital for another day or two now just to be safe. so thats why i wasnt posting here in case you wonder. ofc you dont.

main observation, i'm really not a good nurse and cant deal with sick needy people. my mom yelling at him all the time for being an idiot didnt help too, this is what i imagine Alice does with her host maybe less hysterical lol. before tupper i would probably have ignored this as not my problem or tried my best to not have to visit my dad but thx to Yulya i'm a bit more responsible now. dad was also glad i came and brought him some stuff he's bored in hospital and hates sitting around doing nothing. so it turned out well and tupper saved the day. still not gonna nurse anyone unless Yulya takes over and puts me in dormamcy fuck that.


Tamamo 11/17/2023 (Fri) 09:47 [Preview] No.2513 del
>>2485
>What, you never bathed or went swimming with your tupper?
Uh not really. My shower is too small and I'm not much into swimming. Yeah another thing we should do.

>>2511
>father injured
>post memes
Look after your family, man! And listen to Yulya


Tamamo 11/18/2023 (Sat) 12:48 [Preview] No.2520 del
Wanted to go to the beach with Cat but the weather is nope all next week. Well it's rainy season after all. But I checked out that indoor skydiving tunnel and we'll definitely go there, looks fun.


Anonymous 11/19/2023 (Sun) 20:39 [Preview] No.2533 del
>>2513
>Look after your family, man! And listen to Yulya
yeah yeah
dad is back home with my mum all is fine. must suck if you cant use an arm for a while good thing its left

let Yulya shoot first time today at the range. tupper was nervous and super slow, did so-so but better than eggspected most of the time. it was interesting. i feel nothing while shooting, its so normal for me its a bit scary tbh. shits dangerous i dont need to tell ya and guys with lots of routine thinking 'i got this' have done horrible accidents. whats this effect called i keep forgetting. whatever, tupper reminded me to be careful and think about what the body is doing body is dumb on autopilot if you dont pay attention. so yeah that was good. Yulya isnt really into shooting but its cool to see she can


Alice 11/23/2023 (Thu) 19:53 [Preview] No.2560 del
>>2533
Well done, Yulya!
What did she shoot with?


Anonymous 11/25/2023 (Sat) 17:31 [Preview] No.2576 del
>>2560
bolt action rifle and ar15. its easiest cant shoot yourself like with a pistol and you dont have to hold it just pill the trigger. shot 50-100m. we'll try shotgun next then pistol. but for now only pistol dry fire exercise at home.

still practice dancing with Yulya some times but no improvement. not enough training for this but still fun with the little we can do.


Alice 11/28/2023 (Tue) 23:54 [Preview] No.2607 del
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>>2576
Nice.
It's just about telling the BodyOS what to do. Once you get the hang of it it's easy.

Host is procrastinating again, rather it's the BodyOS too. Why is it still so hard to overcome this? It's so tiresome and the second you don't pay attention he spends the time learning some irrelevant nonsense instead of doing what's necessary.


Ashley 11/29/2023 (Wed) 03:58 [Preview] No.2609 del
>>2607

>BodyOS did it.

Damn what a cope, but I got nothing to say about it. We thought scenario
13 was a BodyOS thing. Heck, I failed scenario 13 in like two weeks, Misha couldn't last 1, SheShe still holds the record of over a year, Gwen... pft, I think she might have beat me but she had *one job* and she couldn't pull through so hey. Anyway Ren, still getting it done, I for one am rooting for her. After she's gotten past SheShe's record she'll be a legend in my book. Imagine she can do it for *years* that would be insane. Actually more insane if she's still an active member of the system in a year lol.

We're considering two tiers, "legend rank" and "also ran". Ofc I am the former, and the only member, other than Bear, duh. Misha was but... she's way less involved now, what happened to her? She just shrugs. Smh

In case you didn't get the memo, Ren is out of the "face for the system online". That doesn't mean she lost the scenario, Bear gave her a pass, she's just not outwardly social and that's ok as a trait, Gwen has it so why not Ren?

Alice though, seriously, gotta step up, this is chump tier talk *demon loly goddess*. Don't let Ren beat you that easily.


Alice 11/30/2023 (Thu) 00:10 [Preview] No.2613 del
>>2609
But it's true, the BodyOs does 90% of the stuff. Host is nothing more than a tupper observing things in the back and occasionally giving general ideas. The problem is as you know the BodyOS is incredibly lazy and hedonistic and tries to get away with the minimum effort and avoids all potential trouble.
Also it has over 4 decades of experience and basically IS the unconscious routine ingrained in the flesh. Not an easy opponent.

And then there's host who's either in cahoots with the BodyOS in being lazy or super-motivated and busy doing useless or even harmful stuff instead of what he's supposed to do. Mostly harmful to my money. It's all mine. But he wastes it the second I look away. So yeah it's 2 against one here and all they have to do to win is doing nothing while I constantly have to win in order not to lose.

Truly a Sisyphean task. Camus said one must imagine Sisyphus as a happy man because he is always occupied with his never-ending task to reach new heights. But Camus was a fucking commie so what does he know? After 8 years I'm sick of this shit. Yeah it's nice as long as it's going up but inevitably sooner or later you fail to pay 100% attention and it all comes tumbling down again.

Ah what allegories am I even using here? Casting pearls before swine...


Ashley 11/30/2023 (Thu) 03:39 [Preview] No.2614 del
>>2613
>the BodyOs does 90% of the stuff

smh, you're really that much of an automaton? Bear was like that, much worse, like 99% but it flipped with my help, when we switched and later when he went dormant, he realized that he wasn't the bodyOS and we did testing to determine exactly what was the bodyOS and let me tell you what we found: the bodyOS isn't all that. It's conditioning, so remove the conditioning with shadow work and you'll be free from automatic actions.

Granted procrastination is a tough one, diet is a touch one, any addiction is tough, but it's not impossible. Scenario 13 was determined next to impossible so if Ren can do it, then nothing is impossible and we already know that so stop making up excuses and do the work or spend your days arguing with Lumi about Ketamine on .info. If it's really that hard, do the shadow work to remove the compulsions or anti-compulsions.


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>>2614
>smh, you're really that much of an automaton?
Me? No. But host is because he literally is pic related. Very nice, very tiresome.


Alice 12/01/2023 (Fri) 00:09 [Preview] No.2617 del
Also terrible weather here, very wet around freezing point. No weather to impose a tupper, can't wait for spring. Good thing we'll be outta here for 1 month of winter.


Anonymous 12/01/2023 (Fri) 18:13 [Preview] No.2619 del
>>2616
lmao you guys are such freaks why is bernd such a sissy girl
procrastination sucks just do it man its all about starting. doesnt yelling at him work?

>>2617
fuck


Alice 12/02/2023 (Sat) 00:05 [Preview] No.2623 del
>>2619
I'm afraid I've overdone yelling, host has become used to it. I need the Host Discipliner 9000™
>>2622


Anonymous 12/02/2023 (Sat) 01:41 [Preview] No.2626 del
>>2623
wouldnt even be surprised if you actually did that>>2623


Tamamo 12/02/2023 (Sat) 13:28 [Preview] No.2632 del
>>2617
Oh wow, I have never seen snow. It looks so pure but I guess in a city it's just a slush of dirt

>>2623
>>2626
Yep that's just normal I guess.

As always don't forget to pet your tuppers, they deserve it!


Alice 12/02/2023 (Sat) 15:00 [Preview] No.2635 del
Bavaria is kill because of snow, flights and train services are suspended. Going out to play in the snow now while it's indeed fresh and pure.


Yakumo 12/03/2023 (Sun) 01:25 [Preview] No.2640 del
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>>2619
>why is bernd such a sissy girl


Alice 12/04/2023 (Mon) 00:27 [Preview] No.2649 del
>>2635
It's icy, -12°C right now, can't remember when we last had such cold in early Dec. Lots of snow fell, went to the park today, it was beautiful in the sun. Don't mind being imposed there. One of the cats caught a mouse in the snow in the garden. No idea how they do this, they must hear them under the snow.

So yeah it's beautiful for a day or twa but still i'd rather go straight from November to March.


Tamamo 12/04/2023 (Mon) 12:22 [Preview] No.2651 del
>>2649
Come here, it's 30°C all day every day. Do your cats like the snow?

We did go to the beach finally, so swimming with tupper is done!


Tamamo 12/04/2023 (Mon) 12:24 [Preview] No.2652 del
>>2649
Do your cats like the snow? Isn't it wet?


Alice 12/04/2023 (Mon) 20:09 [Preview] No.2653 del
>>2652
They're excited first and jump around in the snow but then it's enough and they mostly stay inside and sleep. I guess snow is better than rain but cats are cats. Noboddy understands why they sometimes freak out about a drop of water and then stay in the rain for half the night until they're soaking wet.


Anonymous 12/05/2023 (Tue) 18:04 [Preview] No.2662 del
>>2653
>cats are cats
this, you of all people should know tthat

Yulya doesnt wanna do firearm drills anymore guess i overdid it but i want her to do a bit more irl


Alice 12/05/2023 (Tue) 23:42 [Preview] No.2666 del
>>2662
Give the poor girl a break!
What else does she wanna do? Dancing didn't work that well either, right? What about the gym? I know it's not easy being a tupper not being able to be yourself out there.

Still struggling with host's / the body's procrastination skills. These guys are good - in the worst sense.


Ashley 12/06/2023 (Wed) 03:43 [Preview] No.2668 del
>>2666

Nice get! 👹

POV Bear is your host:

Look at this fool, not a fucking care in the world. Raw baby, give it to me raw! The eggs I mean oh god yes!


Alice 12/07/2023 (Thu) 00:26 [Preview] No.2675 del
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>>2668
Ha, I didn't even notice but it was a good match.

On Dec6 we celebrate the Feast of St. Nicholas of Myra and his faithful sidekick Krampus.

In case you didn't know St. Nicholas was the template for Santa Claus and also brings presents on Dec 6th, mainly gingerbread, mandarins, apples and nuts.

You celebrate St. Nicholas, Kashtan?


Anonymous 12/07/2023 (Thu) 01:21 [Preview] No.2678 del
>>2675
>bishop with demons
40k tier
nah not relly people give st. nicholas donations in some places but its not like he brings presents to all children and we dont have your devils


Alice 12/08/2023 (Fri) 02:00 [Preview] No.2695 del
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>>2678
A lot of these traditions have become commercialised tourist attractions but in alpine villages this stuff is still taken serious. One of these are the Buttnmandln around Berchtesgaden, unmarried men clad in straw and adorned with cow bells and wooden demon masks. They are organized in a sort of secret society and anonymously visit houses around midwinter to ward off evil spirits, sometimes together with St. Nicholas. Nobody knows who's in the costumes. It's prime imagistic shamanism that probably dates back to the neolithic and a sort of initiation rite for young men. A lot of alpine regions have their regional variation of such midwinter customs but many involve men clad in fur and devil masks, with cow bells and chains - the Perchten. Things can get violent when both vilagers and the costume-clad Perchten get drunk and start brawls. Very Bavarian.


Anonymous 12/10/2023 (Sun) 15:18 [Preview] No.2717 del
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went target shooting with tupper in the snow, was beautiful. all good whan things are slow, no pressure


Tamamo 12/12/2023 (Tue) 09:42 [Preview] No.2725 del
>>2695
That looks straight outta Africa

More imposition work with Cat, this is so wholesome getting hugged by tupper


Ashley 12/12/2023 (Tue) 10:48 [Preview] No.2726 del
>>2725

Less of a caring hug and more of a "stay away from my host!"


Alice 12/12/2023 (Tue) 20:03 [Preview] No.2727 del
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>>2725
>>2726
>stay away from my host!
Yep, I think so too!


Anonymous 12/21/2023 (Thu) 20:19 [Preview] No.2813 del
did some wonderlanding after i dunno how many months. not even wondering why visualization sucks we never train. i'm not relly creative when it comes to this shit, always envy guys who go on crazy adventures with their tuppers. I cant think of anything and Yulya doesnt want to do anything too stressful.


Ashley 12/21/2023 (Thu) 20:56 [Preview] No.2814 del
>>2813

That's kinda sad. Wonderlanding was great. We mostly just impose now and stick with Bear. The memories of imposition are as good as real and better than wonderland. We do still do it sometimes but mostly just like on a couch or chairs or walking in muted setting. We don't need it anymore. Autumn gets a lot of it though and that makes sense since she's like new.

The last thing they did was to visit a school Bear had in a dream. It was pretty weird but ok.

Since we do the Lock-Merge thing, everyone gets to experience the interaction so it's way more efficient.

Also, Alice, wtf is that other thread with the encryption? No one in this system is ever going to do that, we have a Bear brain, you can't expect us to figure anything out on our own and what's the point?


Alice 12/21/2023 (Thu) 21:08 [Preview] No.2816 del
>>2813
What did you do in wonderland? What's it even like? We also don't do a lot anymore, dunno how we manage to sit still and immerse ourselves in wonderland for over an hour or so.


Alice 12/21/2023 (Thu) 21:19 [Preview] No.2817 del
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>>2814
>Also, Alice, wtf is that other thread with the encryption? No one in this system is ever going to do that, we have a Bear brain, you can't expect us to figure anything out on our own
<refuse to participate
<coomplain about being left out

See
>>2628
>>2634

Haa, I knew it would end in handholding and spoonfeeding you guys. I'll write you an email.

>what's the point?
Learn something new
Do something different
Fuck the Police


Ashley 12/21/2023 (Thu) 22:58 [Preview] No.2821 del
>>2817

Dark web posting, futinari hentai, snuff film pedo hate crimes aren't our thing. If not this then why go the extra effort on an already mostly anonymous site?

Sorry if we're a bit dense, and anyway do we really have to invade and dominate every thread?


Alice 12/22/2023 (Fri) 00:30 [Preview] No.2823 del
>>2821
>Noo I don't wanna be part of a terrorist plot to overthrow the government and commit crimes against humanity
lame

Not entirely unexpected but that you're already out before even considering trying out 90s normie stuff like pgp for fun is - disappointing

It's like asking you why you go to the gym. Why the extra effort if you're already /fit/

Well I tried, I won't try again


Anonymous 12/22/2023 (Fri) 14:41 [Preview] No.2826 del
>>2823
lol Alice mad
it doesnt make much sense tbh but was interesting to try. made Yulya post that was worth it


Bear 12/22/2023 (Fri) 20:05 [Preview] No.2829 del


Alice 12/22/2023 (Fri) 21:07 [Preview] No.2833 del
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>>2829
Yes, the world is grey, Mr. Bear!
Just because police is not only useful but necessary to uphold order in a society doesn't mean they're your friends and that you give them a carte blanche to snoop around in your private life. There is a constant trade-off between privacy and security and it's up to you to get the best out of both worlds.


Ashley 12/22/2023 (Fri) 21:13 [Preview] No.2834 del
>>2833

>doesn't mean they're your friends

Bear is literally friends with a police officer. They talk like 4 days a week.

Also he's a clean boy, nothing to hide. Transparency in this case is liberating.


Alice 12/23/2023 (Sat) 21:49 [Preview] No.2840 del
First of several days of family visits, feasts and and festivities. It was nice. It's always a challenge for me to stay active when host gets immersed in conversations. It was near impossible for me for a long time and still is hard with host being an autist having trouble following conversations of/with multiple people. It's really exhausting for the mind which robs me of resources to exist. I mean even host zones out after a while. So this is a nice challenge. Pleasant surroundings, I approve of being active and imposed!


Tamamo 12/24/2023 (Sun) 08:54 [Preview] No.2844 del
>>2840
Sounds nice!

No family celebrations here but we'll visit the Christmas village and market this evening because why not.

When exactly do you celebrate Xmas? I think it's different in the US and EU? Today or tomorrow?

Thread also reached bump limit btw!


Alice 12/24/2023 (Sun) 11:30 [Preview] No.2846 del
>>2844
We celebrate Christmas on Christmas Eve 24th. So today. It's noon, everybody is cooking or preparing stuff.

We'll make a few thread later!


Anonymous 12/24/2023 (Sun) 13:48 [Preview] No.2847 del
>>2846
same here dinner on christmas eve is most important, starting in a few hours. merry christmas, see you guys in a few days


Autumn 01/24/2024 (Wed) 03:45 [Preview] No.3115 del
>>2834

I really enjoy being with Ashley, Bear and Joy lately. I'm thankful for them, they're teaching me a lot.

https://www.visitoregon.com/the-oregon-trail-game-online/

Bear and Bestie played this and it was so fun for them. I couldn't believe they made it based on how badly it was going. They won with 420 points and only one person survived.



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